Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

Everyday I wake up to the love of my life and I am so happy.

but there is a constant burden in mychest that I cant even talk about without crying. Ive been slowly experimenting with things that might help me grasp tramatic events better, instead of pooling over at any memory.

So far ive been better. and its my birthday today, so hopefully all shall be well!!

happy new year!

I usually have a list of reasons to not commit suicide but tonight that list means nothing to me & that pain is weighing on my heart.

Just been hav a hard time dealing with my LDR, financial issues, family issues, work, art, and school resently. It feels like everything at once and it's been reallyoverwhelming... Thiught of suicide for the first time in a Loooong time last week... It was awful and made me feel like I somehow took a gigantic step backwards. I'm glad I found 7cupsoftea though. This community is great.

Gah I started a conversation and said hi and when they asked me what I wanted to talk about I couldnt even respond....

Depressed and overwhelmed.

Right now I am having trouble go to sleep at midnight, but for the day, I had a decent day shopping with my mom. Even though I hide from her how I am really feeling which is pretty depressed

It's 5 am and I cantsleep and I'm feeling really down but I'm proud because I haven't cut in a few days. Also I told my best friend yesterday.

It's 5 am and I cantsleep and I'm feeling really down but I'm proud because I haven't cut in a few days. Also I told my best friend yesterday.

Anxious. Severely depressed. Scared.

Same sh*t as always (sorry 4 cursing) I feel like I'm worthless and useless...so alone like I don't fit in anywhere :/