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Sarahwhatamievendoing
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Scary occult dream... Help?
Trauma Support / by Sarahwhatamievendoing
Last post
 December 13th, 2016
...See more I can think of things in my real life that would correlate to possession, but in my dream last night I was part of what im assuming was a cult, I was im a small room with several other dark entities. Everywhere was specimen jars with floating inner organs inside. Then the door openedand i would be let out into almost like a collesium, except massively full of people in black robes and crow masks.  Then I became possessed at that part of the dream, because all i could hear was screaming. (The screaming , i think, correlates to a reoccurring dream i used to have when i was younger.)  Then the perspective changed, and i was looking into the collesium from farther away, and I saw the body that i had just switched perspectives from erupting crows. As if the entire time the body was just a burlap sack of birds who just realized how to escape.  Then i blinked. Several times. I remember blinking at this part because evertime i blinked i heard and saw tv static.  Then i was surrounded by the dark entities again, but this time in a castle. All the people in black robes and crow mAks surrounded me, and chanted, but i could only make out one line from their chant. I forget it now, haha but i remember acknowledging the one english line in my dream. Then I woke up. There was more, but I tend to remember the endings of my dreams more correctly.
Please let there be more
Depression Support / by Sarahwhatamievendoing
Last post
 January 30th, 2015
...See more There has to be more to everything. There has to he more than half ass expectations for things that taunt and slip in and out of reach. Is the world getting shittier, or is this just what its like to be pre-adulthood?  Im so unsatisfied and horribly selfish. But the world is so massive, and every ounce of me is bursting with a genuine lust for the universe. Ive been thinking alot about life, and the other entities we may not be quite advanced enough to percieve yet.   
Relapse
Depression Support / by Sarahwhatamievendoing
Last post
 January 10th, 2015
...See more Its been over a year. my body is covered in thick white scars, so you think id know better. but goddamnit it made me feel so happy today, that fucking release of self harm man. just makes you forget everything. my boyfriend doesnt know, i have to tell him but fuck fukcfuckfuck
I just wish i could rip out my (edited by moderator) stomach.
Trauma Support / by Sarahwhatamievendoing
Last post
 January 5th, 2015
...See more I feel so sick knowing what has happened. everyday i live with this massive pile of (edited by moderator) hovering over me  i cant talk about it still. i just wish i could (edited by moderator) feel something, and not so (edited) bare and empty.   
Emptyness
Depression Support / by Sarahwhatamievendoing
Last post
 December 30th, 2014
...See more After years of staggered sexual abuse, I feel like a taxidermied fish. i was gutted time and time again, just to be stuffed and push on a show by my family. fucking fake as fuck is how i feel. its hard to talk about because only people who have experienced that kind of abuse understand, and through all the love in my life, there is a hole where there is just so much anger brewing and fucking ready to burst out of my pours.  I feel like a bad person for talking about it.  Today I was driving home and comftorbly numb came on the radio. during the solo all I did was scream.
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