Weekly Prompt #40: What kind of behaviors do you think anxiety has caused you to engage in?

For the most part a true anxiety attack incapacitates me. I curl up into a ball on my couch and ride it out. Leading up to an anxiety episode I get extremely short tempered. 

@reallyoverallofit you experience intense feelings of frustration before an anxiety episode. How do these feelings impact your relationships? Please know we are all here for you. You are not alone in this. 

@ASilentObserver Thanks. I think I do a pretty good job at being loving to my friends and family when I'm going through an episode. I am sure if someone knows me well enough they notice I'm a bit testy but to the normal person they wouldn't know. I mask my depression and anxiety quite well. 

Whenever I’m really anxious I only want to hide/ runaway and be alone. Sometimes it helps calm my mind. But some other times I shouldn’t do it because avoiding situations won’t make me feel less anxious about them, it’s the opposite.

@ASilentObserver I experience a lot of body focused repetitive behaviors as I've learned they're called such as cracking my fingers, cracking my neck, and especially picking my skin.

@ASilentObserver

Avoiding people or situations and violence when i can't.

I try to control everybody and everything around me. Carry on as normal. It's the only option I have

Basically what a lot of people have said before. I keep myself isolated physically and in my thoughts. I avoid seeing people I know even if I have to cut them off. I even stay silent around my dad especially recently when he decided to wants to divorce my mom. 

Back when Dad did the cooking most of the week and I went to day program I would eat extra food because of how bad my cooking was.    I don't know if anxiety played a role in me wanting to buy food/drink at Bowling when I could since sometime it was a long time from having supper (4:30pm) to getting home from bowling (9pm or later).  

should have been how bad my Dad's cooking was 

when i start to spiral i will look into things to see if i can form any sort of connection to what i fear. it definitely can make it worse. coming up with scenarios isnt fun but the unfortunate part is that many times they have been reality.

i can also get to a point where i have a really short fuse with specific people, if theres nothing i can do or say to make them see that what they are doing is having an impact on me or others.