Vent :
i’ve always kinda destroyed myself. i realized my addiction was a problem when everything around me was destroyed. every relationship/friendship, career, home….it was all destroyed
Honestly when I didn't feel anything anymore. I was just a shell.
when i didnt care about anything but the drug, which isnt ME at all.
I finally feel awake after being hooked onto drugs for some time, I realized my behaviors were different, and I caused trouble by not doing study frequently.
@RaeBaeIscrazy08 when my focus and attention span dropped significantly in just over 1 year's span, it was almost non-existent and reflected a lot on my grades
Losing all the meaningful connections and people in my life
When I'm sober I'm in so much pain from pushing my body past it's limits because I'm to high to notice I'm physical hurting my body but not being in pain feels so good but in the end it's really bad plus I get tricky and ppl notice
About the time the masking of my ADHD and the fairly fast deletion of my dopamine happiness you know that stuff. Yeah, that was about when I realized something was wrong. Looked online and found out that. Yeah my issue stimulants specifically one of the top five ones is Very well known for doing that. Of course, I live at a place nicknamed “M..h Valley” And now I know why.
I mean, I can also describe the fact that one of the reasons I was so quick and noticing the issue and my general resistance towards addiction itself is cause I never actually want to do it in the first place. Just remember if you ever work in a restaurant and someone offers you “Rock salt.” Just don’t do it. Like even if it’s just harmless, don’t do it. You’re better safe than sorry.
My sex and drug addiction cause me to not really move forward in life, wbu?
When my mom couldn't watch me fix my hair without disgust