continuing chat w/ Lumie the Legend

@MrMarino

yeah my dad is super nice. I am glad it makes sense, I was worried it didn't lol.

so you are more likely to get mad than sad, I kinda thought so. yeah that breakup was kinda rough, right :') I hope you don't feel too sad, marino <3 *hugs* anger is a form of sadness indeed. those names might hurt, but externally you show you are mad so that she doesn't know her words have that much of an impact on you, right? I am not sure if I am but maybe.

@MrMarino

of course marino there is nothing to feel sad or bad about, anyway :) wait, did I say something wrong in the previous reply, I am sorry if I did >_<

no u <3 oh hush marino XD I don't think I have that huge of a heart haha but thank you so much mareomallow, that's the sweetest thing I have heard. tell me how can you carry so much kindness inside you? like what? who even allowed it? *calls the nice cops on you* miss you, I will see you soon, marino *hugs* I hope you are doing well.

@MrMarino

marino, where are you??

@MrMarino

lumie my fam can we talk in an hour it’s usually busy the first hour then slows down

if ur not busy

u don’t have to, don’t feel obligated plz

@MrMarino

not going to comment, mareomallow. just want to say that I understand <3 and I don't think any different of you. and if you feel comfy after seeing this, you can tell me about it. only if you feel comfy, of course. not going to pressure you. just letting you know, we can talk about it. *hugs*

@MrMarino

hello mareo oreo, thank you so much <3 class went well and I got some workout done after a while, felt nice. I'm reading your last message right now. I'm really glad you felt comfy telling me about it, I appreciate your trust. also, I just want you to know, this is a safe space, okay? and I'm a safe person to talk to as well. there are going to be absolutely no judgements from my side and I still like you the same as I always have. just thought you should know *hugs* I wish we could talk one-on-one where nobody would be able to read anything we write. but this is good too.

@MrMarino

first of all, marino *hugs*

I get what you are feeling and can understand to the best extent that I can. it definitely isn't fun and it seems to be taking a massive toll on you which is terrible to hear. intrusive thoughts, feelings distracted because of all of this, not being able to focus. all of this is very hard. I get how it is keeping you awake at night and making you feel so uncomfortable. how it is all physically manifesting and just making it worse to handle. all that you are feeling is valid and I hear you, marino. it isn't easy dealing with this from time to time. your description really helped me understand it better, starving and just getting a grape, being super tired but only getting 20 seconds of sleep. it sounds unbearable to experience more than once, and you seem to have been experiencing it for quite a while (months with little relief).

you can definitely talk about it with me. fork thinking it's a taboo, it is very natural and doesn't deserve any stigma. I would love to openly listen to you so I can, myself understand it better since I don't have a whole lot to say about it. I would be honest and say that I don't completely understand it, because I don't want to pretend that I do and say things. but I agree with you on it being a problem and a problem that can be and should be fixed. you are not a pervert if you talk about it, we are humans and we have our needs and it doesn't matter what those needs are, if they aren't satisfactorily being met, we are allowed to feel down and talk about it. you'd never be a pervert in my eyes if you talk about it with me. anything you say about it or related to it, I will listen and there's no way that it will make me uncomfy. this doesn't make me uncomfy and I am willing to listen about your thoughts, that is if you'd like to share. you are not a creep (far far away from it!) and you are still the same marino, this is a part of getting to know each other, right? and I am glad you are being honest here and telling me about this.

this isn't entirely in your control, that part is very true. and to be honest, all of us are going to feel like it at some point in our life, if you have been feeling like this for a while now, maybe it would be nice to talk about it with livi? I don't know if you have already or something, not that I am saying you should, but it could be a good suggestion. I am trying to google some things while I write this (I do it, so pls don't mind it), and I think I am getting a little idea about it. it also says about having stress which may affect it, I am taking a leap here and saying it might be one of the reasons for you. there are a lot of things available on the internet for this but I would like to first confirm with you if you'd be okay continuing to chat me with me like this here? <3 I wouldn't want to say anything here that might stand out to you as me being nosy or anything. if you agree, we can talk about this while I have some internet resources supporting me and maybe we can help you in some way. it's totally normal, marino and you deserve to talk about it and have someone listen to you, I don't mind being that someone for you. <3 let me know, okay?

@lumieremilkyway

i woulda loved to join but I think I was sleeping

i think you are too now so goodnight Lumie toons

you are more awesome than you know

sleep well Ria

@MrMarino

oh yeal lol. you said that it didn't matter you and I already wrote stuff for it in the previoud message, so that's why I said that haha. you are using nahi well, marino. good good ^^ yours wasn't rude! you were just sharing your views on it (my apologetic azz needs to chill a little haha).

okie so I get it now. you don't feel sad about it on a day to day basis, you shouldn't have to either :) and oh okay got it got it. it doesn't bother you. I know what you mean, yeah. thanks for letting me know that I didn't speak anything wrong. *hugs*

I'll tell you when you say something rude. <3 you probably won't tho. I get that it isn't intentional, sometimes it might slip away. what "it" is, idk but I get it, the other it. wow I'm still kinda in a funny mood from yesterday, can't think straight. little Ria \o/ little Ria doesn't mind it at all, Nick! I totally get what you mean.

@MrMarino

*waves at marino*

namaste marino 🙏 lol

okie wait I'll teach you one more thing, you can try to learn this slowly. "tum bohot acche ho" - you are very good. or you can just use that accha is good, because we do tend to use good a lot haha.

I can read those letters in hindi yes :) they look weird tho, right? XD I haven't studied hindi as a language formally in school for four years now, feels weird.

take your time, I'll see you around! ^^

@MrMarino

lol marino, just like that XD hope you can do it soon <3