continuing chat w/ Lumie the Legend

okay lets see where did i leave off

i dont blame u for finding the retainers annoying

having sumthing in ur mouth constantly would feel annoying i bet

and if u wanted them u for sure have that right to do whatever u want

its a minor change

braces are alright tuff like plastic surgery i disagree w/ full

wat is ur opinion on that? i think unless it is minor or unless they medically need a procedure then stay the way the universe made you

lol ur too damn nice to me ur nicer than anyone is to me in my life rn its crazy

u have so much nice in your lil cute heart

you make me feel calm

and u take all my anger irritation and stress and u flush it down the toilet everytime i talk to you

im not kidding ur rlly like s tress reliever to me

talking to u is both fun and relaxing. i already am calming down

Lumie ur too awesome

no matter wat emotion u are getting to talk to u even for 4 seconds is precious time

food stalls. are those thhings where like in the street they sell food or wat is it?

do u get it by like not washing hands enough too?

*prays that Lumie doesn't get it again

it sounds like an awful experience, not fun at all

oohh ik what salmanello is, so its similar to that then

DAMNN bali looks fire asf that looks chill and relaixng af i wanna go there too damn

if i lived there id just get a hammock out there in that nature and sleep out there all day and sip on a cold fruit drink

that looks amazing out there Lumie

you are very smart im glad you understand about the marriage thing

also salt is good for a sore throat did u hear of that?

when i get a sore throat i also gargle salt

oh thanks for showing me yosshees songs i will listen to them in a second. or just while i am typing in the background

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me too. i like alcohol bc the effects it gives me

everyone reacts differently but alcohol makes me feel CALM AF, so does weed

they both make me feel a big sense of peace and relaxation and its good to feel vs stress

i hate feeling stressed

alcohol helps me wind down and just rlly be relaxed that's why i love it

he is a good friend he is very chill and inviting

he is one of the friends of mine who had a rough childhood, more rough than mine

antwon knows the world is hard out there and so he tries to help others

i went to his bday in may i ahvent seen him in a while i should go there more often bc it was chill and relaxing there. i didn't wanna leave

wat i like about antwon is that no matter who u are he acts like he is ur brother in ur family

good im glad u will take care of urself and do those tips

just don't overdo it bc u can feel sick and nausea isn't a fun feeling

no one drinks alcohol to feel sick

they do it to feel calm or happy

drinking water drinking slowly and eating fresh good food along with it like fruit can help avoid nausea or overdoing it

fruit bc personally if i eat a bunch of shite like pizza and fast food w alcohol i get nausea feeling easier

lol it would be funny

there are all different types of drunks

sum examples i know of

angry drunk- these ppl get violent and mad. aggressive, picking fights

clingy drunk- they get more emotional and lovey like hugging ppl

stupid drunk- they just act like their IQ dropped 50 points. they act confused af and slow in the head (i am this one)

goofy drunk- they just laugh at everything even stuff that's not funny at all (i am this one too)

sexual drunk- that one speaks for itself

tired drunk- alcohol can make ppl tired. for sum ppl alcohol feels like a sleeping pill ( i am this one too)

confident drunk- it can make ppl be very bold, outgoing and do crazy things they would not normally

sad drunk- sum ppl alcohol makes them sad. this is prolly more likely to happen if they were already sad to begin with

talkative af will u stfu drunk- ppl that talk nonstop and just talk about ranom dumb crap

are u even drunk drunk- ppl who don't even act all that different when they are under the influence.

ofc these are kinda like funny stereotypes but they can rlly be true. ppl react all differently

alcohol makes me more calm confused and tired, weed makes me more goofy and dumb

for sum ppl weed makes them paranoid but i have never experienced it

thats nice u gave tang company its alos nice how u gave me company when i had work those night

i dont have work tonight idk if u knew that or not lol

is it the pink gift u showed us yesterday in that one room? that rlly did look amazing lumie toons

how has ur day been today? november 4. wait think its nov 5 for u

thank u for taking all that time to write about the songs

roxxanne roxxanne haha like that chill song

crank that has been a song i heard my whole childhood

there's a song called legends

that song is sad

in it juice world says how legends and famous ppl seem to keep dying before 22 years old

and that is legends di.e then he doesn't wanna be a legend

and that's sad bc juice world died recently at 21

his lyrics "we ain't making it past 21" its crazy ironic isn't it? considering that he died at 21

i listened to lucid dreams a lot during my break up

ik i talk to u about this before but this is America is about sho.oting in America particular aimed at race hate crimes

there are references int eh music video like him crow, the confederate us army civil war (the side of the army that supported slaves)

the shooting of the black choir in south carlina

and him dancing during the music video is like how the media distracts from wat goes on everyday in the USA, all the shootings and hate crimes going on here

in the music video dead bodies are dragged while the gu.ns get taken away safely and that is meant to represent that America cares more about g.un rights than human lives

anyway there's a lot more deep meanings behind it but that's just a few that i remember

i think he is a smart dude for making a song about a real issue going on towards minorities and almost everyone else 2

hey mareo oreo! <3 just wanted to let you know I am going away for now. I am completely okay, I was already okay lol. and I felt so good talking to you, it's always good to talk to you. you make me feel better by being around. thank you mareo oreo *here's oreos for you* *hugs*

I will come around in a while 2-3 hours if you'll be around, don't have to be. in fact, I hope you are sleeping right now. good luck with any classes that you have today, online, I guess. I will be studying and looking up some stuff for you. I will try to post it today. I will look at your other replies later, tomorrow morning most probably.

reading your messages as soon as class finishes, my next message will be a little long <3

okay I will post it in two messages now :')

so I read your post after writing this but I'm going to address it first anyway.

so it's a thought that doesn't leave easily, well that sucks. you feel restless and no chill. I agree it's not fun when it is persistent and intrusive.

when you say it feels like a big deprivation from you, do you mean you consider it one of your very important needs? it can be. and not having your needs satisfied doesn't feel great resulting it into manifesting in physical discomfort. and yes, I get that. this can be a huge component of your life and college being stressful may make it difficult. when you put it this way, I feel like it is a cycle. you feel very stressed out about college and work, resulting you to find some comfort by wanting to have your needs met. not being able to because there is continuous stress over you. not being able to study and work without having these intrusive thoughts persistently troubling you and thus being stressed about college and work. I can be wrong here, let me know. and yes it might be affecting your academic performance in some way.

some sites mentioned depression but that was different. however more than one moment of feeling sexually frustrated may result into lowering of your libido and well then again leaving you unsatisfied or with these persistent thoughts. that sounds awful tho, marino. I'm sorry you feel depressed, although I'd like you to know it's normal.

I'm glad you could forget about it by talking to me. if you ever need distraction from it, I can surely be of help. I am always around to chat with you, I mean I do wish I could get notifications hehe but whenever I see you around, I'm happy.
when you said vids I did think you meant p.orn. and I agree to that, it's stupid and fake acting. the stories seem bizarre to me, but maybe that's just me. who knows. I don't generally like watching it, and tbh, I don't. okay so you use live cam and stuff. yeah, in that case it's not acting or whatever. I can understand why you may feel lost in some other world, it must be a good feeling. I am glad it helps relieve you.

your fear is valid, marino. but to me you don't seem perverted at all. I really wish people didn't misunderstand it. this is completely normal and I see no reason why it's even seen as perverted, I mean we live in 2020 now, there's no reason to be having that weirdazz thinking, grow up already. I know what you mean, you aren't a creep. you don't involve other people and I get that, you keep these things to yourself. consent is very important! I am glad to hear this and I didn't have any doubt that you'd do anything without consent. yeah, I get you. not having consent is a big turnoff indeed.
and I get how it may seem like guilt-tripping, it is important to have your needs known to your partner though but of course, it can be quite hard. you don't want her to feel like you are making her do something or that she feels she has to do it.

do you mean livi isn't into it? yes, that can feel worse, because you are trying to make your own needs met but if the other person isn't as invested in it, it may not feel good. it may feel like she doesn't want to do it, I get that. it must feel bad indeed. you said she sometimes compromises when she does, is it good? and I wonder why it has to be a compromise, does she ever expresses her sexual needs and you try to meet them?
you are not a failure, marino. never. *hugs* I am sorry it has been rough. it's okay to not do the required things sometimes, marino. don't be so hard on yourself and since you are feeling this way, I can understand why you didn't do it/couldn't do it. I hope you got some hw done. I will be mindful now and check in whenever I see you. it does the answer the question in a vague way. I am glad you feel as if a weight has been lifted off of you, I am glad I could help out with that. I trust you <3 yes you are a well meaning person and you are just going through something which isn't in your control and you didn't ask for it. *hugs*

*stuff I found online* I am just posting it here because I was typing this while also talking to you about something else :') I will try to look for more things.

alright, so I'm typing it all out again lol.
here's what I have found so far.

one interesting thing that I found is, you can also feel sexually frustrated because of your other needs not being met related to it, so it can also be emotional or some spiritual needs.
apparently (I knew tbh), a site says masturbation is the best cure for sexual frustration. and ooh this is interesting, I gotta copy paste: “It’s very common for people to ignore their basic bodily needs like hunger, thirst, and sleep... The problem is that when you stop listening to your body, it also stops ‘talking’ to you" I guess it might be worth thinking about. if you don't eat when you are hungry, don't go for a washroom break as soon as you feel the urge, don't sleep when sleepy, etc.
taking time while masturbating, going slow is really good too. don't think of it as an activity you need to get over with, "make love to yourself." I know the words might sound cringe (to me, they don't but I know to some people it does), but I guess it will work. trying to make some if not all moments with yourself special.

communication is being mentioned too. and I guess from time to time that can work, but of course, the other person must be feeling up to it too.
okay so I also read about this thing called edging, where you almost get close to your arousal but then pull back and just constantly try to reach it, it says it might help get satisfied arousal. is it something you might have already tried?
experimenting with your partner and scheduling sex/romantic outings might help. I don't know, if you and livi are willing to maybe add something? it might be worth considering and if livi doesn't seem much into it as you said, maybe try asking her if there's something she'd like to try sometime and do that together?

work on intimacy in other areas. spend some time together, plan dates. I don't know, maybe after some time it might not seem the same but I thought it was worth mentioning so I did. maybe time to time? do things together, maybe sing songs, play games together (you already do), dance. not always, from time to time.
exercise is being mentioned a lot too, almost all the sites lol. and I think it is one of the best things. if it's something you'd like to set out time for, and if you have the time, it can be really fun. start with just 5min, or 10min. and do cardio of some sort, HIIT would be fine too.

fatigue is a big culprit! copy paste: Feeling tired can affect arousal as well as performance. You may feel frustrated because you want to have sex but don’t have the energy to, or because you try to have sex and can’t maintain interest because of fatigue. Getting enough rest can help you feel rejuvenated and ready for sex.

for diet: don't forget that figs are full of potassium, which is necessary for the normal functioning of all organs. Artichokes are full of vitamins and antioxidants, which are crucial for the proper functioning of the body and blood flow. Dark chocolate causes a splash of dopamine, and it has long been considered an aphrodisiac since it contains the amino acid phenylalanine, which contributes to the natural production of endorphins in the body.