continuing chat w/ Lumie the Legend

alcohol poisoning, dang. and yeah people drive recklessly when drunk, my dad drives okay tho, he is mostly in control but we worry for him. weed can be good if used correctly. I am glad it makes you happy, I am sure you use it responsibly too. <3 stay safe, okie? your safety matters a lot. ooh I will keep that in mind when I try it, thank you for telling me about it ^^

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in India, people normally get to college anyway so I would have to go. I do want to go too. but I totally get you on not knowing what to do, I feel like it too. we don't really get much experience and suddenly you are supposed to study for a job you don't even know. and I get that you want to be sure before you decide on one thing, it is a big decision after all. I am glad you have financial aid too ^^ you deserve it <3

it is triggering when it's the only thing being said like, we said hello and stuff and the other person goes "sup?" I don't like it, my ex-friend used to do it all the time when she had no one better to talk to, so it makes me feel like I am just someone she can talk with when she's bored. I don't like that at all. I never reply to sup and I will leave the conversation if someone says sup to me lol, I know you understand. I wouldn't mind when you say "sup lumie how u been lately?" I just don't like it when people don't even wanna take the efforts to ask how someone is doing like I don't know who invented sup but it's not nice for me. I get people who are more chill would be comfortable lol, I am not though. thank you for asking me <3

get some good rest later ^^ I am okay mareo oreo. I think I will be going out again with my friends, I am not looking forward to it but it will be nice, I hope (the friends who ignored me at the party). one of them wants to meet her boyfriend, and the other person will be alone so I am needed for the company. I guess I will be bored but eh, I will come here to talk about random stuff maybe lol but you can sleep <3 it's midnight there already lol. get home safely mareomallow (whenever you do) <3

good you ate well. I hope you will feel much better soon. I am sure she will understand hehe. you can always hang out with others, yes. you are not a piece of scum, mareo. it's all good, don't worry <3 I understand. I am glad you are enjoying it there, I am happy for you. lol seems like y'all are having a good time. lmao "turn the lights on movie people!" XD good it's funny at least :p eat well and full lol. I hope it helps you sleep. *sends sweetest dreams to you filled with food* also if you are about to go soon and sleep (idk when you will go home), for that goodnighty mareomallow <3 sleep well!

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I am glad you felt understood :') I really wanted you to feel understood. losing 20lbs is very concerning. I hope she's okay and healthy. and I hope she gets enough food too. *hugs livi* well, I know she won't see it but eh, she deserves a hug too. it's good that you share your food with her, I wonder how she lost so much tho, I hope she's all good. I am worried for her health. you are awesome sauce, mareomallow, and I will never get tired of saying that. of course, I agree! <3 I am glad you feel better about it now. some people really just care for themselves, but I guess I get them too. life can be pretty hard at times. I wish they checked into the people who apply, you are being so honest here and it's possible others might not have been. :( you did your part nicely and I appreciate it <3

I am always here Nick ^^ not to sound like a weirdo friend lol but I mean it. I respect you too Nick, and your morals and beliefs are very good. I like how we agree on things like this. you deserve so much more appreciation and respect, the words can't say enough.

Lumie i hope you also have a very long comfy healthy, happy life full of ppl loving on u

and i hope in ur life u meet so many more ppl that respect u and ur able to surround urself with good

i hope that most importantly u will live ur life feeling happy most of the time and enjoy it

no actually that's doesn't sound weird to me at all especially since i have said the same before

i have told christain that if i coulda been his dad i woulda been much nicer to him

Christian said he probably would have liked that

i get wanting to be a better parent for someone who had trash parent

its not creepy or weird it just shows how much u care

i fully get wat ur saying

id never unfriend u for no reason

the only thing that makes me unfriend sumone is if they start being mean and abusive to me like everyday and refuse to change or work things out. something like that

oh there a quote thing i alwas say that im not the type of person to look for reasons to leave someone, im the typeof person who looks for reasons to stay

yes talking to you is awesome and im glad u say it. i want u to say good things about urself without the jk part xD bc those things are true and i also hope u get more used to casually saying nice stuff about u

so can u say that ur super awesome, valuable and loved?

livi is hilarious so its always fun talking to her yeah she makes me laugh a crap ton

that's another reason i don't like her chatting to me when im eating

bc shell make me laugh and then choke on the food lol

yeah weve been around echother a long time but we didn't start dating until 16

in fact she always friend zoned me up until that point. but suddenly her feelings changed so we gave dating a shot

we were hype bc it would be both of ours first relationship

but we were a little stupid and immature so it was rocky and wed be off and on and off

we were one of those couple who constantly broke off then got back together

but im happy 2 say that now we are aiming for a fully committed relationship and so far its going awesome

yea. its alright thanks Lumie

i saw my dad do a lot of things to my mom including beat her and make her bleed

but the g.un freaked me out bc my dad is insane and i thought he was rlly gonna pull the tri.gger

when i told him stop get away from her i thought maybe hed sh.oot me but i didn't care i had to say sumthing

no little kid would just let their mom d.ie and not try to do anything

my dads crazy

he's been so violent to her

he's never been violent to me or my bro except whooping us w a belt but i guess that doesn't count

that was if we did something wrong

and its weird, when my dad would hit us w/ a belt my mom cried

i found that weird

i also found it weird how my mom would hurt me but yet didn't want my dad to hurt me

i guess despite being toxic my mom does have a little bit of mother instinct in her

anyway despite the fact that i don't like my mom im glad shes fine too. woulda been messed up if she di.ed so young that way at the hands of a gross criminal

and if she had di.ed that night i bet it woulda messed me up, me and my bro

maybe then we rlly would have grown up to have mental issues maybe ptsd or depression

luckily we're mentally okay, but i rly feel for ppl who are not mentally okay

lol yeah sunnys hair is outta my eye now

thanks for saying im the human equivalent of lasagna

a guy i know once said im the human equivalent of a participation award so, that's a much better compliment. lmfao

lol thanks i wanna be herioc

speaking of herioc i had a dream that i saved dying kittens from a fire in a house but then my mom took them and buried them all

that was a weird dream

thanks for calling me open minded i rlly believe i am

no Ria, not ur pfp. Ur personality makes us loveable and huggable. ur personality is amazing and my favorite thing about you

lmao don't worry the nice police stopped by last night and gave me tons of good candy. did u call them on me again? stop calling the nice police on me lol jk

im gonna call the nice police on u now, let me know when they got there

lol i smile when i see a text from u too

poor unlucky ppl

nah my Ria fam is the best

i tried to welcome ppl in because they deserve a welcome

had anyone in the group chat ever been mean to u?

oh ur bro doesnt wanna learn to drive?

understanble but that's crazy i wish i could learn but no 1 will teach me

they do sound stubborn so i see how it would often lead to fights

i bet in ur fam u try to avoid fights huh

yes the feeling is mutual i do like ur company

i wouldn't text just anyone this much but ur a good awesome person who is worth all my time

its fun af talking to you

lol i mean to say "who said those things about you, ur dad or ur bro?" bc u said

so my brother was feeling bad again that my dad was only complaining about him so he said a few things about me

thanks her saying im smart u give so many compliments

anger usually comes from a place of hurt sadness, unmet needs, feelings of deisrecpted

anger can be very blinding and make u do things u wouldn't normally

are u more likely to get sad easier than mad? which one do u feel more often

i get wat u mean about the playfulness

yea younger relationships more likely to do stuff like throw stuff at eachother

then u get older and u chill out more become more laid back

thanks so much Ria that's a big compliment

eh ppl just look that way bc shes pretty hot and dudes hit on her

livis wat ppl around here call a baddie

a baddie is an attractive girl who is confident and bad azz

so they think in their head why tf is that baddie dating a bum looking loser who works at McD

sum pp;l have hit on her right in front of me and i say uhh she hadsa boyfriend right here, as in me

are retainer annoying? my mom says they are

also do braces hurt?

ya know everytime i go to the dentist they ask if i want braces

which is pretty insulting when uu think about it lol

my teeth are a little jacked up but i feel no "urge" to fix it

i see it as this is the way the universe made me who cares

i don't care about having perfectly straight teeth that looks weird to me anyway

if i lookef in the mirror and sw perfect straight teeth i wouldn't say oo nice

i would say, those teeth don't look like mine & this is weird

its kind the same reason why some ppl with gaps in their teeth don't fix it

they just feel its part of who they are

i would never get any type of procedure done for the sake of appeanrance

id only get a prodecude done if i needed it. like if i had pain or serious issues resulting from my teeth

but my teeth are fine they're just chilling so dentists need to chill out

in that case i hope u don't get it again

is it easy to contract typhoid?

whats Bali look like?

I love you so much I am going to get the government involved so you can't leave me

yeah you understand me. that quote u said up there is just how i feel

sure i love livi but i don't wanna get the government involved like u said

its feels trapping and itrsuive to me

my relationships personal and none of the governments bussiness

marriage is to me an expensive ceremony that proves something u should already know anyway

and i don't think marriage makes the relationship stronger

milk sugar and coffee sounds good mmm. hot tea is good for a sore throat

i like cold sweet tea but hot feels good when i have a sore throat

i like coffee with a good amount of cream and sugar and it tastes so good that way.

last night was rlly fun altho i guess i didn't see the full night bc i fell asleep

i tried to stay awake but i was tired as from being tipsy

but i ate a lot of good food it was delicious

but the best part of the night was i finally finally got alohol the last time i had alcohol was thanksgiving 2019. good thing it didn't have to be a year

he had cocktails in cans and it was good, but alcohol makes me very tired

i have work tonight and for the next 2 nights after that. not looking forward to it

i didn't see much of the movie they were watching, it was a pretty awesome time tho. livi wasn't with me, she didn't wanna go to their house

bc she thought they're weird and she doesn't know them, she didn't wanna feel awkward

livi went to one of her friends house

i fell asleep here and antwon didn't even ever wake me up

im gonna do a little hw then eat some food in a sec

these are tips i advise ppl about drinking alcohol

drink slowly- it can be good to drink along with food or something so u drink slower give ur blood more time to process it. a lot of intoxication at once can be dangerous

not drinking on empty stomach- gives ur stomach more to digest then just alcoohl. it makes it less concentrated in ur blood

drink water/sum drink too- water dilutes it too and makes it less concentrated

there are others but i forgot

the reason i do that is bc i never drink to get drunk. i don't like being drunk falling down the stairs throwing up

i just like being tipsy or mildly drunk. drunk enough where i feel the effect but not too drunk where i start pukin and running in front of cars or sum shirt

anyway let me know how ur day went and how ur night is going rn. i hope its going well Ria