continuing chat w/ Lumie the Legend

Lol yeah angry sounding songs can help me to be less angry

idk why but it just has that effect

fam yeah. i think ur gonna be so good for college. one reason i find it challenging is bc im super lazy

itll be so hype when you get to college and ill be so proud of you, whatever path u decide to take on in life

lol don't tell but i been using google. googles been helping me pass

is ur colleges online too or do u not know?

cuz if its online itll probably b easier

cuz if u take exams online u can look stuff up if ur not sure but in person its just eh harder

lmfao that happened Lumie?

xD im weak

lol lumie ur funny. well seems like ur moms pretty chill and not extremely strict about those things

my exs fam was rlly strict

if she played music like that they woulda punished her an they hated that she dated me cuz

idk they were rlly strict christain type

is ur fam strict about ur grades? wats sum things they're strict about?

mmm wat food was it?

do u like buffets?

i like askin eachother questions too im gonna ask u sum more after this

its cool to learn even more about each other

yeah Lumie a lot of illegal things arent even bad and can be cool to experience

for example i don't understand why weed is illegal but not alcoohl. do u?

if anything should b illegal it should be alcohol

alcohol can ki.ll a person, weed doesnt

in fact u cant even rlly overdose on weed

and in some states where weed is legal they just manage how much u can buy so i don't see why they cant do that everywhere

there's no point in sending ppl years in prison over weed

just cuz they wanted 2 feel better

a lot of ppl use weed to cope or feel better and not everyb0ody has bad side effect

sum ppl weed gives them anxiety attacks

those ppl should avoid weed

for me weed just puts me in a super goofy mood

so i don't rlly see the issue. and if u wanna try alcohol weed or whatever when ur older u should have that right

i know u are smart so you would use it responsibly

i understand you when u say u wanna try something illegal

NOT to hurt anyone just to experience those things

i get you Ria

and also a lot of college kids that turn 21 they get alcohol poisoning

and not to mention all the deaths from drunk driving

weeds not as bad as ppl make it seem

if i ever go to prison for smoking weed im not gonna be ashamed or sorry

bc weed has never caused me to hurt anybody

the only thing its ever done for me is make me hapy

i understand it can hurt the lungs but that's why edibles exist too

if u ever try it i recommend that to avoid lung damage bc any type of smoking can burn important breathing cells in ur lungs if done repeatedly

yeaj if i had the choice i wouldnt have gone to college so soon

i don't feel mature enough to decide wat i wanna do forever at this point in my life

i barely even experienced much so how am i supposed to repdict what i wanna do forever

i feel like i need to experience more things b4 i made a choice that big

but whatever its chill

im also grateful for financial aid cuz i know a lot of peeps don't get that

is saying sup in a sentence triggering to u or is it just triggering when ppl only say one word and its sup?

like if i said sup lumie how u been lately would that trigger u?

just asking cuz i don't wanna trigger u

hello mareomallow! aw, so you feel tired and lazy. I guess it's just the holiday thing, and well, you work so much too so it's okay to feel tired. I hope you can still enjoy. *gives you fun hype energy*

aw dang, that must be awful, guilt tripping sucks! it does seem weird. it's okay you didn't down there. ooh by the time I am writing this you might already be at this other party, hope you are having a good time. hope you ate well and had fun with livi! <3 *good food at the party* yay and of course mareo oreo, I'm glad you slept in a good mood.

dang hangover must suck. hope you feel better. that's okay if you didn't do anything by then, sometimes just chilling is good too. hope you have a good time at the party! aw it's okay to go to a party which has what you want but if you've already made the commitment to be at the other, it would be nice to go for that maybe? anyway, you will have a good time at either place ^^

wdym you'll reply when you get there? >_< it's a partyyy Nick, enjoy your time there :p I'll be here anytime later ^^ I won't add more new posts except the songs one, I'm almost through with your playlist and I really loved it <3 thank you so so much for making me one. I'll add more songs to the playlist I made for you :p

Livi pissed me off\

alright. my college has a program where u sign up to get free food cuz they wanna help out ppl that are struggling financially

livi called me said sign up bc the deadline is tonight

i said alright

u had to write about how u are affected and ur life situation

livi asked wat did i write

i wrote how yea im broke yea this would be good help

but at the end i wrote that im not in dire need im not homeless im not dying and if others need it more focus on them

and livi said delete that last part cuz they arent gonna give u it then

i said no im just being honest and truthful to my situation im not gonna deceive them

im not gonna make it sound like im in desperate need cuz im not

livi told me i need to delete that or they wont give it to me

i said who cares if they don't give it to me i don't need it all that much

and livi said well i need it

and i said so u want me to sign up so i can give U the food? tf? how much forkin food do u need

cuz livi already got accepted for the free food program

she said yea of ur not gonna use it

and i told her that we are not homeless there are prolly ppl at our college doing much worse than us who cant afford to buy anything and maybe cant afford groceries bc of rent

she told me ofc i wouldn't be bothered about lack of food, i didnt loe 20 lbs like she did

that if i lost 20 lbs like her id care more

that's the comment that angered me

and the way she said it made it feel she was fat shamed me but eh idk

i asked her u lost 20 lbs u look the same

that comment made her mad and i said sorry

i said just bc i didnt lose weight doesn't mean i don't struggle too sumtimes

theres been plenty of times the only thing i eat all day is oreos or sumthing

my mom doesn't buy food i buy it myself for me and my bro

the only difference is i have a job livi doesn't so im able to

maybe if livi had a job she wouldn't need to ask food from others all the itme

i buy her food all the time, all the time. everytime i get food i always give her half

i dont rly see how she lost 20 lbs bc i give her all the food i buy myself, i tell her whats mine is urs but eh

livis misunderstanding me, its not that i don't care about her or myself

im just letting the college know that im not in dire need it would just help me out if they wanna give it to me

i don't think im in the wrong here, do u?

i like to be honest about these types of things

and if they don't end up giving me the free food program im not gonna be angry

im gonna be happy knowing that it likely went to someone else who needed it more

i have thousands of dollars saved up, i bet theres ppl in critical debt. so im just tryna be hinest about my situation and tell them that i dont NEED it. u know wat i mean. im not gonna d.ie if i dont get it, it would just be an opportunity

i didnt delete what i wrote, i kept it in there. livis gonna b mad but idc. i can say whatever i want im my own grown adult

if i wanna let others have the free food program, u know, ppl that need it moire than i do, then so be it

if they give me the program then cool. if they dont then cool. who cares. livi makin it a big deal

yeah i do feel tired but its good

how are u today Lumie?

i did eat well but now im kinda in a pizzed mood from that call w livi but its good

i think she will understand ive been alcohol deprived for almost an entire year now

ik it was mean of me but im sure she has other cooler friends there

not like me being there would dun much anyway

i do feel pretty scummy about my choice tho. whatever i can hang w her another time. i know im a piece of scum

i just haven't had alcohol in such a long time i couldn't say no to that

i did tell her id be there but i wanted 2 decide on one bc i didn't wanna waste lyft money to drive all around the place

i am enjoying it Ria Ri

im just chilling on the couch as they're watching paranormal activity and laughing their azzes off lol

bc they keep yelling turn on the lights

the ppl in this movie wont just turn on the damn lights

these guys are making this more into a comedy than horror

im eating the whole house down but he's cool he doesn't care

you're welcome and that would be great i always love to hear ur music

i wanna listen to ur music to sleep tonight

I am replying to your other message first because why not :')

Livi pissed you off. *listens to what happened*

okay, so I get what the program does. so you had to write about your situation and how you are affected. I liked that you were very honest and direct in that. you wrote that you're not in dire need, you are not homeless or dying and you'd be happy to be declined if others' situation was worse/if they needed it more. that's very understanding and kind of you, Nick.

Livi asked to delete that? I am glad you chose to be honest tho. I mean I definitely don't want to be taking any sides here but I do like that you were honest and you don't want to deceive them. it was good a thing you did. Livi seems concerned that you won't get it. oh because she needs it. I see that she already got accepted for the program. yeah, lot of college students must have their own troubles and may struggle financially, it's very considerate of you to think about them.

I can see why the comment could have made you angry. seems like you both made each other mad huh :') I am sorry, you didn't deserve to hear that comment, I don't think Livi meant it that way but it must be hurtful to hear it anyway. and your struggle is just as much real as anyone else's. you don't need to be losing weight to show people you are trying to or whatever. I get you <3 and I am sure Livi does too. arguments can be weird like that. and mareomallow, I care about you so do eat well, okie? *hugs* I know you are doing your best and sometimes it may get hard but I support you 101% and it's okay to be struggling, I do too.

so you buy food for yourself and your brother yourself? wow, that's really good mareo and I get it's because you have a job, it's nice of you to buy food for others. you're not in the wrong at all, mareo! <3 in fact, you are being very understanding of others and taking into consideration that others might need it more than you do. it's good that you are being honest, I am glad you are. I am sure Livi will understand. I know what you mean <3 *hugs* you are your own grown adult indeed and you shouldn't have to lie if you don't want to. you are really very kind. I am not idealizing you in any way when I say you're good but it's nice to see you always try to do so much for others. I appreciate it and I am sure others do too. I hope they do give you the program and there's enough for everybody, here's to hoping for it :) you are the best mareomallow.

I get that effect of angry sounding songs hehe. we'll have a party when I get to college yay and you are number one on the invitation list lol. your secret is safe with me, I won't tell anyone, Google is pretty chill, wouldn't say I haven't cheated like that XD I think colleges are online too, my brother is in one and he's taking online classes. I'd like to attend classes in person though but of course, if the situation improves.

that really happened lol. I was scared af to see what her reaction would be, in fact, I was like "wait lemme just change the song but he already sang the line so I was like well fork it, I like this song idc what mom says lol. I will add that song to the playlist for you lmao. it's nice. I am funny yes :p oh so they are very strict. I have heard some Christians can be really strict like that. my mom is very strict about my grades but not my dad. well, he has a good reason for it. basically, he was the one who kinda forced me to take up science, I wanted to study humanities. so he sometimes blames himself to see me in stress, he's extra gentle with me because of it and lets me off pretty easily. it isn't his fault tho, he wants me to be a doctor but my dumbazz self can't study as hard lol. I don't blame him. they aren't really as strict. they ask me to not use phone and laptop so much, study more often (my mom says you just need to study hard for 4-5 months and then you will at least be in a good college, I agree but I have my own fears, you know), I can't be the only girl hanging out with boys for some reason (I don't like that but tbh, my guy friends aren't the best, one of them was very inappropriate to me so I get my parents) and I guess some other things. they want me to be more open in front of others, but oh well. they are pretty chill. my dad protects me a lot lol, mom doesn't like that but both of them love me very much and I love them too.

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I ate a lot of pizza, a sandwich too. there was this other thing which I don't really remember but it was tasty af. we literally went to like, 2 places to eat lmao. I was full that day. I do like buffets, yes. I like there is more variety that way. no no I will ask you questions first XD jk we can both ask questions lol. I love your questions so much, they really make me think sometimes and I really like I can be honest with them. even I don't get that. I personally think people who drink alcohol can be more reckless. I have only heard of people who drink a lot getting in trouble. there should be a limit to alcohol consumption. and to be fair, I agree that weeds should be legal too if alcohol is. you know what, imma search why it is so. I wanna know. weed does sound good, alcohol can be very bad for some. and I agree by setting some limit to weed consumption it should be made legal in all the states, why only certain states?

people who have a bad effect can just avoid them, right. weed puts you in a super goofy mood aw hehe. if I do use it, I will use it responsibly yes. my dad even said he would like to be the first person I take my first drink with because he wants me to be safe and have a good experience, he worries my friends might make me bad lol. I would love to share my first experience with you ^^ I have taken some sips but what does that do eh XD and my dad knows of it because he was there hehe. he does offer me to drink sometimes but I haven't yet, I am taking my sweet time.

I knew you'd get me Nick <3

Thanks Ria i dont feel mad anymore

u made me feel very understood

i guess livis just mad bc her mom doesn't buy her food either

according to her she goes hungry a lot and i get how losing 20 lbs would b very concerning

but shes already got the free food program so it doesn't rlly matter if i get it too u know

i don't need it as much as her bc i have a job and she doesnt

i had no idea she lost that much, i always do try 2 give her food everytime i buy it

so im already doing all i can do

thanks for getting me. and understanding. you get it

you get exactly where im coming from in that i don't wanna deceive them or make my situation sound worse than it is

i told them the bad parts of my situation but also the good parts too

Lumie *hugs back

thnx for supporting me and wishing the best for me ur such an awesomely good friend

yeh my moms always gone i buy stuff for me and my bro and livi at times

now i feel much better about my choice to not delete that part and remain honest bc u agree as well

when ppl offer programs like this i never try to take advantage of it like sum ppl do

i bet there's a few ppl who lied about their situation

but the fact that they're not doing any checks on this and they're taking your word for it and nothing else

i just felt a big urge to tell the full truth so they know the whole situation

nahh ur the best Ria clearly

thnx for making me feel better again for the thousandth time

when u say im good i never feel like u idolize me and i respect u for not idolizing ppl

u understand ppl are never perfect but u admire their kindness anyway

and u dont think ppl have to be perfect to be good ppl

i respect u a lot Ria and your morals and beliefs