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Hello! I'm going to respond to your messages here in a moment. ☻☺
These past few days, been dealing with health issues, so I was hardly on 7cups. I have days where I can't get up or stand...just too tired and fatigued, dizzy, heart palpitations, etc. Planning on switching doctors (again).

Been studying a lot for real estate classes before the move. About to move this month into my (abusive) mother's home, which is 1,000+ kilometers away from where I currently live. However, I am only planning on staying for 3 months! (That's the goal I set for myself) Been talking to my partner about what his plans and sort of working together to figure out what we're going to do. My current goals are to get a career in real estate, move out of mother's house within 3 months, rent a house (for now instead of buying) and save, save, save. Get my autistic son in a good school and...that's pretty much the basic plan for now. I have other ideas in the works, but that's for later.

Okay, I'm going to check your messages here right now.
Thank you for your patience with me. ♥

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Hello! I'm going to compile all of the posts into one. Thank you for your patience with me.☻☺

::Health/Doctor Appointment::

 ❝ I saw you've posted yesterday, but I was so tired, I didn't feel like replying last night after work. It was a long day for me. I was awaken around 5:30am.. I had a doctor's appointment, an Internal Medicine doctor, a referral from my GP, set up a month ago. We didn't find many solutions to my problems. But he gave me a requisition for more bloodwork. The only problem with that is, because aside from checking my iron levels, he's checking other hormones, and says it's more accurate of tested close to waking up time. Lab places in my area, even if you make an appointment, waits can be more than an hour long. So, my best bet, is probably do a walk in at the hospital where I work. Except with walk ins, there could also be long waits too, as they would see those who have an appointment first. So, I haven't figured out how to get my bloodwork done yet. The purpose to see the Internal Medicine doctor was to see if he could figure out why I feel extreme fatigue during my period. The first 2-3 days, I'm so tired, that I can literally fall asleep while waiting for a cup of coffee to brew. I could also sleep all day. It doesn't quite make sense now though. With the IUD, I'm losing a lot less blood compared to without it. So, it doesn't seem like my iron would be affected that much. So, he says to get the bloodwork done on the day I feel the most fatigued. So, it's difficult to make an appointment ahead of time, because my period doesn't come regularly and on the same days every month.❞

This post was a little while back -- so wanted to check in and see if the doctor ended up finding more solutions to your medical issues? I can relate to a lot of what you say -- the feeling fatigued, especially on the period, I also have an IUD and planning on switching to a non hormonal one or seeing whichever one reacts better to my body. It did help lessen my period pain though, it used to be EXTREMELY bad, but now it's a bit more tolerable, albeit, unpredictable now on when it will come...It used to be 3 days before IUD and now it's longer and not during traditional times...

::Book Publishing::

 ❝My publishing. I have several coloring books published on Amazon already. Sales are slowly rising, but not enough to be earning a lot of money, because we're running ads for it, ads are quite expensive, so we're spending more on ads than on making any profit. We're thinking of optimizing our ads this weekend, it's a long weekend here for us, in Canada. Monday is a Stat. Holiday. ❞

It's good to hear that your sales are gradually rising! It might not be where you want it to be, but it'll get there! There's some holidays coming up soon, plus summer vacation for college students + children, that could help boost sales! Apologies if you have already answered this prior, but is this an adult colouring book series, children colouring books, or is it both? Either way, that's nice. I've always liked colouring books. I'm an (amateur) artist, and I find it fun to ink and colour my art after awhile. Some art pieces don't get coloured, because I'm practicing some shading techniques with pencil or just sketching. It's been awhile really since I've drawn anything "serious" (ex. comics, animations, etc). I just haven't really...I haven't felt at peace for a while based on everything going on in my life. I sincerely think it's awesome that you have translated a passion into something that can be monetized. That's the dream honestly. I'm rooting for you!

::Animals::

❝A colleague previously asked me if I was interested in house-sitting when she goes for vacation with her family. She has a small Frenchie. She messaged me this morning and asked if I'll be interested to meet Timmy tomorrow. So, I'll be walking to her place to meet her and Timmy for 10:30am Saturday. There might be light rain tomorrow morning though, but I told my colleague, I will still meet with her. As it's better to see her doggie both on sunny and rainy days. It should only be like a 30-45 mins walk. I good way to force myself out of the house for fresh air, even if it rains. My parents are leaving for their 2-week Alaskan cruise tomorrow too. I think my mum said my brother will drive them to the port for 10am? So, I'll probably see them last tonight.❞

Awww, that's super cute! Sound like a pretty sweet gig to do. How was it like meeting Timmy? Also, do you have pets as well? I currently don't have any pets...but was looking into getting mammals this time around. I used to own birds, fish, gecko, turtles and a hermit crab. My parents were opposed to furry animals like cats & dogs, and they didn't like rodents, and they refused snakes, they HATE snakes. We used to have stray cats in our yard though. My dad didn't mind us feeding them, as long as we didn't take them inside. My mother just hate dogs and cats in general and can't stand them (she grew up with guard dogs and chickens in her home country, I don't know if she has some trauma surrounding it, or if it's because she's a HUGE germaphobe and sees cats and dogs as "filthy" in her eyes). 

❝So, this morning, I met up with a colleague at her place. She's walking distance, only a 20 minute walk away. A couple of months ago, she asked if I would be interested to house sit her place when she went on vacation with her family, and have me look after their dog. She has a Frenchie. So, today, I did a meet and greet with her dog. Her son was at her sister's place, so I met her and her husband. They have a small condo/apartment. Was there chatting, they offered me coffee and cookie, and she just explained her dog's habits (Timmy). She started another temporary job where she'll be working at home for a year. So, I asked how her first week went and she tried to explain to me what her job is now. She's still a bit confused. So next time, we'll meet again, and she could show me how she walks Timmy. I was at her place for like 2.5 hours. She dropped me off at home, as they were on the way out to pick up their son. Timmy came along too.❞

Since it's been awhile since I have responded -- how was it like watching over Timmy?

::Relationships::

 ❝I think it's good for you that you try and organize yourself with the living space. You know what's best for you and your son. And seeing how there was a bit of a fall-out with your partner, I wouldn't keep the hopes up for him to arrange something for you. 

I ended up speaking to my partner a bit more about the housing situation, and he ended up apologizing too, for not being able to support me as much as he'd like to lately. He's been dealing with his toxic family for awhile, but I think he is (slowly) feeling more motivation to move out and work together towards similar goals. Hoping to get him some professional help for his depression & PTSD as well...I applied for a tech position recently and have been waiting to hear back from them, hopefully soon! I'm still working towards my real estate license, albeit, it's still a rather slow process.

❝Remember that minor red flag I have with the guy I've known for the past 20 years that I met online? He sent me another red flag last night. I was tired from work yesterday, and just not in a very good mood. Before I fell asleep, he sent me a message.. with a graphic image of something inappropriate and telling me he wants to try it. I totally lost it, and told him to not act like a per*ert. Then, he messaged this morning all upset and angry at me for calling him that. I told him, as much as I know he likes to joke around and be sarcastic about it, I've told him many times to not talk about that kind of topic because it makes me feel uncomfortable. But if he seriously keeps this up, I might not agree to meet with him even if he does come over in the summer to attend his best friend's wedding. 

I want a normal relationship, not someone who only has that kind of thing in mind all the time.❞

❝That couple my parents know of, whose daughter's husband's friends are still single. A couple of years ago, another couple friend wanted to help organize a party for me to meet the daughter and her then-fiance. But the day before the party, she caught a cold. So, I haven't even met her in person yet. So, it'll be difficult to ask to meet with her husband's friends now without even have met her yet. After she married though, they bought a place further from her parents' home, which is just down the hill from us. So, I'm not sure if that will ever happen.❞

It sounds like he has been crossing your boundaries lately...To be honest, if he is sending graphic or inappropriate images DESPITE you explaining how you do NOT want to see such things, it is crossing to s3xual harassment territory...He is a p3rv3rt for sending such a thing to be honest, so he should NOT be angry that he is crossing your boundaries, he should be apologizing for violating his friend's boundaries. At least, if I crossed a friend's boundary, I would be apologetic...I would not one to make a loved-one uncomfortable. I don't blame you for feeling uncomfortable around him.

::Family::

❝With that cousin, we don't meet that often. Like I said, my family doesn't really like her. So, the most, is that my parents will meet with my Aunt only for lunch, like once a month. I less frequently join them, since I might be working, and if they're meeting at a midpoint for us both, my parents take transit, and as seniors, they're discounted. So even if I don't have work, I won't join them. But if my Aunt takes transit and come into our city, then, I'll join.❞

❝I don't go to China much. My parents are from Hong Kong. The last time I went back with my parents was in 2008. That was my first time returning after immigrating to Canada in the 90s. I haven't returned since. My mum is the youngest of her siblings, and we're not close to any of our cousins that are still in HK. Many of the female cousins are married, and the male cousins are in their climax career points. 

That is why, I'm trying to be hopeful with that job application in China. I honestly feel that is the only way I could meet my future husband. I don't have any friends here to ask if they have any single guy friends who are looking for their other half. So, no hope locally for me either.

I'll tell you more about my bad mood from yesterday over the weekend, or after work tonight. I need to get dressed for work now.❞

I don't blame you for not meeting up often with that cousin...I have family members like that, I am virtually low-contact or no contact with the majority of my family...I just don't really have anything to say to them and/or they have been toxic to me in some way so I prefer not to keep in constant communication with such family members. Unfortunately, due to my current financial issues, I will be staying with my (abusive) mother for 3 months until I get back on my feet. I plan on paying her and my older brother back for the assistance (plus, would like to give interest, as I feel bad for requesting help in the first place), then slowly cut contact...It's just I can't really talk to my family anymore. I'm a different person with a different life now. My focus is on making sure my son is safe, healthy, and content. I don't feel like my family would be a healthy environment for my son in the long-term. Furthermore, whenever I have been around family, I feel like my mental health declines overtime and that the personal progression I have made overtime gradually begins regressing...and I don't want to regress.

I have thought about going back to my mother's home country a few times but due to the high crime and issues there, I have decided it's not a good idea to go at this time. I sincerely hope that that your job application is chosen! Sometimes we find love in unexpected places. When I was on the dating market, I made the mistake of dating men from this particular city...The ones I met in person didn't work out...So, I ended up downloading an online dating app and expanded my location range and found my current partner. I have always thought that I would probably date someone not from this particular country I currently reside in -- I was planning on travelling to different countries and hoping maybe to find a long-term partner, or possible spouse (if I felt marriage was right) in the future.

❝So yea, my brother's best friend is coming over for BBQ. My brother bought like a miniature charcoal stove, the Japanese kind, where you have skewers of meat/veggies over the stove to cook. His friend eats ALOT. They've done it before, and it always seems that my brother never buys enough food, his metabolism is high too, so I think that is why he can eat a lot and not see the weight put on him. He's like a badminton player, like plays 2-3 times a week with another group of friends. He went on a 10K run a while ago too. Very active, eats a lot, and loves red wine. It's funny, he has a girl friend, but not the romantic official girlfriend. They both love to drink, so she apparently goes to his place and they drink.. like 2-3 bottles between the two and he cooks for her too. They aren't in a serious relationship though, as it seems like she's only using him to pass time. He seems okay with it though, but they don't drink cheap wine.. so, he's been saving money. Other times, my brother will go out and eat with him, they've been eating the cheap food, like Pho. Rather than to Japanese restaurants, where it can get very pricy. Especially when the friend doesn't like to eat much rice, so they end up eating a lot of sashimi, instead of the sushi rolls with rice. So, it gets pricey as those charge by the piece. ❞

Sorry I missed this -- how was the BBQ? Ah, I was somewhat in a similar position as your brother was in terms of a relationship. When I was dating my dìdi's BF, who was a bartender, he didn't like to use "labels", so...It was a strange "situationship". He kept saying things like, "I want to get to know you better, I don't believe in labels, what'll be will be". After awhile, I would get tired of it and try to leave, but then he'll start saying things like "I love you" and "I can't imagine my life without you yada yada"...We dated for close to a year before he ghosted me for 2 weeks. Later, he ended up calling me into his workplace, just to tell me he is "hitched" with somebody else but states he "always thought about" me, and if it doesn't work with that lady, he wanted to try again...It was awkward because SHE was right there too. I just gave him a wry smile, chuckled, and basically said "Have a nice life". My dìdi told me beforehand that the bartender was already shagging somebody else. After I said goodbye to that guy, my dìdi kept saying I was "too harsh" on his friend and how the bartender "misses" me supposedly. I avoid him like the plague. He would use me for money and free car rides. He is also rather manipulative and I heard stories straight from him about how he manipulates people to do what he wants, and his "friends" told me he's stupid and I can do much better than him. They warned me, and at the time, I was heartbroken from my ex fiancé, so I didn't closely listen when they said the bartender was no good...

::Work Environment::

❝So.. as previously I mentioned I wasn't in that good of a mood earlier, especially the day that guy sent me that inappropriate image. At work, I feel like I have a second mother with a colleague. She nags me more than my own mother. I seriously don't need another mother at work, that tells me every other day, what I need to be doing. I think she treats me like her own daughter, as her daughter is around the same age as I. But seriously, I don't need to be told, every other day, the same thing over and over. What needs to be done, what I need to prepare for the next day. Once a week is pushing it, but 2-3 times a week? That's too much. These are tasks that I know needs to be done, but then, there are evenings when I don't have time for dinner until past 6pm. Like last night, there was a very late case, I didn't go for dinner until 10 to 7pm. I'm off at 8pm. I usually save up my 2 15mins coffee breaks, and take an hour for dinner instead. There was one thing I left behind, but I don't care. I'm not staying longer to finish it, especially as the long weekend, I'd rather go home on time. I still didn't leave until around 8:10pm, but that was only because I was working on the puzzle in our lounge. We have a small table where I've brought in puzzles.. me and another nurse would just sit there on our breaks to put it together. The other day, I helped finished the perimeter and started in one corner of the puzzle. Yesterday, when I went for my dinner, I saw another corner was completed, so I built on it. I figured, I'm not back to work until June 7th, so the puzzle would be finished by then. It's a small 500-piece one. I bought a box of puzzle, it's a 10-in-one. So, it should keep her busy.❞

That sounds rather bothersome to deal with a coworker always in your ear, telling you what to do, even though you have been working a long time and already understand the routine and procedures. Haha, that puzzle idea is genius! I hope it keeps her off your back for a while, as it sounds suffocating to deal with someone like that. I have felt that before in many of my past jobs...that is why I am REALLY hoping this real estate career takes off. I'll get to be my "own boss" -- even if I do decide to technically work under a company. There will be little to no supervision. I just need to get my work done and report to the boss at the end of the day. That's the kind of job I strive for...and again, I hope that your current busy creating books makes things a lot more pleasant in your work-life. Hoping you make enough so you can quit the toxic job and do something you're more passionate about.

::Dental Appointment::

❝Another super long post!

So.. I've been going to a new dentist for the last 3-4 times. This dentist is the older sister of one of my high school friends. Her mother is the older sister to the parents of my brother's childhood friends. So, with the connection, I trust her expertise and professionalism. I will call her "C". So, according to my mum, C did a lot of schooling in regards to dentistry, and many oral-related studies. C goes to many conferences and is very educated in her field. Very simple, comparing the work she did on my chipped tooth to the previous dentist I went to. Early this year, one day, I suddenly discovered my tooth chipped, and I wasn't even eating something hard. I called my dentist to see if I could be seen quickly, as the tooth is at the front, to the left my of front teeth and it was a bit sharp with the jagged edges. So they did a filling for me. But it was horrible and looked very unprofessional. It was just like putting on a slab of clay to fill a missing spot. It was grey color and not even leveled with my tooth. Appearance-wise, being at the front, whenever I opened my mouth to talk, I'm sure other people could see it. So, I was very self-conscious. That filling came off in 2 months. I returned to my dentist as it's warranted. Then, my dentist tells me, that because my original tooth is like a small peg, any filling attached with come off easily. So, he says only a crown will do, and before attaching the crown, he'll need to place a pin in my tooth to hold up the crown. 

Honestly, I think this dentist is a total ripoff, and only cares about his profits as a dentist, and not the best interest of the client. From my first appointment last November, I've mentioned I have no medical insurance and all my previous dentist will give a 10% off because of that. He on the other hand, only gave it to me once, under one condition. When he was checking my teeth for fillings, he discovered 2 extra ones amongst the 16 he found. He said, only if I added those extra ones, then, he'll give me the compliment of 10% off. That's like trying to balance out the discount with more money that I'll need to pay. I've spend 1000's of dollars on my teeth with him. I feel totally cheated and that they are just robbing me of money. Yes, I may have 16 fillings that need to be done, but nothing was urgent. My teeth were not giving me any discomfort. But, he somehow talked me into doing it all. As he says, "If you do them all now, and not wait a couple years down, the cavities might get worse. Doing them now, you won't have to worry about it in the near future. We don't give discounts to our clients because we guarantee our work." (But all dentists have that guarantee, and usually don't charge the client if they return with the same problem or need a fix of the same problem). But if he considered how I'm not insured, he shouldn't have had me do all of them at once and only the most urgent ones. The previous dentist (a dentist we saw before we moved back to our hometown, and one my parents still see), he was very considerate of my parents and I. Knowing my parents are retirees and that I didn't have insurance, of the fillings, he will only do ones that are super urgent, or is giving me discomfort. And he will always give a 10% discount.

I feel like giving the dentist a bad review. I've very dissatisfied with his work. My fillings had been done by him and his son, his son joined the clinic as a dentist too. You know, at first, we thought this dentist can be trusted, because it turns out that he is a twin brother to our optometrist, a doctor we've seen for decades to have our eyes checked. But from my experience at the dental clinic with him and his son, I'd give them like a 1-star rating.

Back to this new dentist, the one of the family friend. C is very good. Although her clinic does not give out discounts for those without insurance, at least her work is good. With the chipped tooth, I went to C to get a filling done. C didn't say that only a crown would work. C made a filling that looks like a natural, adult-sized tooth. C chose a shade of the filling that matched the teeth beside my chipped tooth and even asked for my preference. To either match it with the tint of my upper or lower teeth. C had been so kind, and she doesn't make it sound like I must get all the filling done. 

My dental appointment I had a couple of days ago on Thursday. It was just a regular cleaning session, booked with C. She did the cleaning part, like all the scaling and such. The polish and fluoride was done by a hygienist. But near the end of her part, she went to get a camera and took a picture of my tongue. The right side, she showed me the picture and reason of taking a picture. It turns out she says she saw a white lesion on the side, she even used one of her dental instruments to keep track of the measurement with the picture taken. She tells me, she will need to keep the lesion monitored, as it may turn into something else, that would require a biopsy. The first thing that came to mind, was tongue cancer. Why else would it need a biopsy. I'm probably just doing unnecessary worry now, but I'll keep an eye on it myself too. I probably won't tell my parents about it, unless that biopsy is needed in the future. But, I did mention it to my brother, hope he won't say anything to my parents. Of course, C didn't say that, she just said with my frequent visits, she will keep monitoring it. She also discovered little bumps along the gum line on the top inner side of my mouth. She says they are like little canker sore or another term she used, and asked if they were bothering me. I said no. C says that they should resolve on their own, and in the meantime, I could just rinse with saltwater. C says she will check on it again at my next appointment. I need cleaning every 4 months, because my teeth can easily have cavities. Since the beginning of the year, I've cut down on chocolate and overly sugary snacks. But she says, that it seems like I have a couple of cavities surfacing again, she says they are either ones from previously filled or they could be new ones. 

So, my next cleaning session is in September with her. When I got home on Thursday, my brother was having a lunch break from work. I told him how good she is, and he asked me to help him book an appointment with him. He goes to the same dental clinic as I with the previous dentist, although I'm not sure if he sees the same dentist as I. He had an appointment for cleaning in June, so I booked him for July and he canceled the other one. Our government rolled out a dental benefit plan, but not all dental offices enrolled. I asked if this clinic is enrolled and they said no. My parents were thinking, if they were, that they'd come see C as well. Since their previous dentist is an hour drive away.❞

Based on your situation and the fact that prior dentist did an awful job, I recommend putting in a report in your country to report this dentist: https://www.cda-adc.ca/en/oral_health/talk/treatment.asp As he will also affect others in a negative way and could cause permanent damage. Maybe there are others who feel similar to you? Could possibly sue if he causes permanent or long-lasting damage... I'm glad though that you have C now to do the dental work. She sounds like she knows what she's doing and does a good job! Once I go to a doctor in my (toxic) mother's home state, I plan on suing the doctors in this current city I reside in...Because I have been asking for help and requesting certain things, and all they want to do is stuff me with depression meds...I have chronic pain and sharp rib/chest pain...and I suspect I might actually have POTS now, after talking to my partner (he used to work in the medical field) and noticing I have similar symptoms... I asked the doctors to test for it and they said no...Didn't even want to try. I'm tired of looking for new doctors, but sometimes, that's what it takes.

My partner has experience with lawsuits and suing, and to be honest, I never really would have thought about it until he told me. I was just going to shrug my shoulders and go "oh well" and leave it alone, however, he framed it to me this way -- First, he said that I don't deserve that treatment, and second, if they're not doing a good service with you, it can affect other people, so it's better to report it so others also don't have to deal with it. My partner does get a bit frustrated with me sometimes in regards to my health...He says I should a more aggressive approach with the doctors in order to get them to treat me and to be more specific when I describe my medical issues, or they won't take me seriously. I've tried to explain, that I think I'm explaining it right? I told the doctor about feeling dizzy, nauseous, shaky, chest pounding hard, and getting headaches every time I stand as well as blurry vision, but the doctor dismissed it saying I'm probably just dehydrated because every time they take my blood pressure (sitting down, even though I requested checking while standing up) it looks fine. However, I don't believe it's dehydration, I know what that feels like, as when I first moved to this state that is much like a desert, I would be close to passing out from dehydration -- it's a COMPLETELY different feeling... My partner said I should say instead "I'm so sick that I can't even get up to take care of my kid and can't work" while exaggerating some things, and to get aggressive/angry and yell at them or throw a fit to get them to do what I want but...that...is not my personality...I don't want to scream, yell or throw a tantrum. I rather just find an understanding doctor. I don't want to talk to people that way and I don't want to lose myself to anger...

I guess I don't explain my issue well enough to the doctor...

❝Anyways, that's all I have to say for now. How was your week? Better?❞

To be honest...I don't know, I guess I'm OK?...I think I might have Postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (POTS), so it has been difficult for me to accomplish some goals (ex. working, cleaning up the apartment to get ready to move, being able to cook, being able to clean or do chores, etc). Also, I have been disappointed with the doctors I've been seeing...I feel like they don't take me seriously....But other than that, I've been happy to spend time with my little one and talk to my long distance partner everyday on the phone. I really want to move out of this city and also just skip to the chapter in my life where I have a stable job, a house, college savings for little one, a modest car, and my partner living with me and everything just being stable and mundane...that'd be awesome. I like simple, mundane moments, sometimes, it feels very special to me, even if it may seem small...I miss the days of when I had my car, I would park hop to places in the evening with the little one to help run out his energy to later fall asleep. We'd also go out for ice cream on the weekends too and just go to the park for about a couple of hours...It's so simple, yet, I love it. I also missed cuddling with my partner. We have went out on a LOT of fun dates to many different places, but funnily enough, my favourite memory is just cuddling with my partner on a nice, quiet afternoon. Sometimes we're gaming, watching videos, or napping together. It's the best feeling ever. We don't have to do much, hardly anything at all -- and I feel jubilant or happy just being in the same physical space as my partner...

Anyhow, thanks again for your patience with me! I sincerely hope you're day, week, or rather month has been going well!

I didn't get much sleep last night. I tried to sleep by midnight (had to finish watching a drama, lolz).. but then, woke up every two hours coughing. I finally got out of bed by 9am, but I was so tired, couldn't really keep my eyes open. So, I didn't spend much time on my computer, and tried to go for a nap around 2pm. But, couldn't fall asleep, more like just rested my eyes. I'll be heading to bed early tonight too, I've called in sick for tomorrow already. But if I still can't sleep over the weekend because of staying up at night coughing, I might need to call in for the Monday and Tuesday shift too. When I can't even keep my eyes open in the daytime, there's no way I'd have the energy to be working. Someone is on vacation, that's why I was scheduled for tomorrow (Friday) and next Monday and Tuesday. Now, I feel my health is more important, I don't want to force myself to go to work while still feeling depleted and sick, then, make myself even more worn out while working. I used to feel guilty for calling in sick, especially knowing that I'm working because I'm covering someone's vacation. But now, after that incident I had with the Acute Diverticulitis, I'm going to rest at home for a cold. 

I just hate getting sick.. it always attacks the weakest part, my airways.. leading to endless coughs, that results in my asthma acting up. Luckily I have both inhalers at home, won't need to see my GP to get the prescriptions again. I also usually end up coughing more when I sleep, which disturbs it greatly.

I'll respond more to your situation when I have the energy to type longer responses. I'm going to sleep earlier tonight too.. Just need to catch up on 4 episodes, then, I'll sleep. Or watch it until I fall asleep.

So, I looked closely at that link you gave me about reporting my previous dentist. I don't know if I should. And I'm not sure what to say. I don't know know what I'm expecting from them after a complaint. Would I contact the Dental Association or the College of Dental Surgeons or both? I just don't know if it's worth the hassle. I only feel that my experience as a patient, that the dentists did not treat me in the best interest of my needs. Especially knowing that I don't have insurance, they shouldn't have made me do all the fillings all at once, rather than just offering to do the more urgent ones and leave the rest for the future. Rather than saying, "You'd better do them all now, as down road, the cavities will get worst and you'll need to do them anyways." I was also dissatisfied with them doing the filling for my chipped tooth, and how when I returned after 2 months because the filling came off, to have them tell me, I'll need a crown. They refused to put another filling, saying that because my tooth is small, putting another filling on, will just break off again and again.

If you were to sue your doctors.. that costs money and time too, right? Are there any successful cases in your area where you win in a sue? What happens when you win? You get money back? Or you'd suspend their license? Your partner is right about kinda exaggerating your symptoms. Some doctors are more on the conservative side, so, unless you make it sound more serious, they will not order any tests for you. My parents sometimes tell me to do the same too, especially if I have to check myself into Emergency for something, they'd tell me to make it sound more serious, more uncomfortable, so that they'll look and check everything to see what could be wrong. 

I'm glad to hear that your partner agreed of his wrongdoings, the fall-out of finding a place so you could move in with him, and is making the effort to change. I really wish the two of you can live together soon. It's nice to be able to talk on the phone daily for the time being. 

To be honest, being sick with the cold, for some reason, it's been making me feel a bit more lonely. Thinking how it'd be nice to have a boyfriend to comfort me during this time.. making me hot soup to soothe my throat, giving me hugs/cuddles, spending time with me and make sure I feel more comfortable despite my coughs and sneezes. 

I started taking some Tylenol Cold medication this morning, I don't think it's been helping. I'm also taking a Chinese Herbal syrup that helps soothe my throat. But that's only 3 times a day, and I mix it with water and drink it slowly, rather than letting it melt in my mouth. So, I'll have to see how I feel on Sunday, and then decide whether or not I can work on Monday and Tuesday.. 

I kinda feel it's not good to be coughing and sneezing while working a hospital job.. I mean, I could wear a mask, but with my symptoms, it may interfere with the productivity and efficiency of my work. Also, as I'm coughing through the night, disturbing my sleep, I don't quite have the energy to do the work that will be expected from me if I were to head to work. I'll have to decide by tomorrow, and call in sick if needed. Honestly, I'd rather take the time off, and then rest up until my other work block that starts June 21st for 2 weeks.

::Update::

Hello, I'm going to combine the messages into this post. The original reply I made was rather long, however, I accidentally deleted it and it made me feel deflated after I spent a lot of time making it and it was nearly done. I've been rewriting my reply and taking my time, and this time I saved my replies on a notepad so I don't have to deal with it deleting on me again... :(

What's new with you lately? Lately, I have been trying to mentally prepare for the big move that is 1,000+ kilometers away from where I am currently at (let's just say I live in the state "Solterra" and my mother is in the state "Planaterra"). However, this has left me feeling rather anxious and blue lately instead of excited or any other feeling... I tend to shutdown during those times and self isolate when I'm feeling overly anxious or worried. I don't want to move to Planaterra...I want to move further away from my family in Planaterra and from the trauma I accrued in Solterra. I want to live my life free from the trauma that I've been continuously dealing with for decades. The thought of living with my mother, albeit, temporary, is surfacing some really bad memories, thoughts, and triggers. She won't ever apologize for the awful things she's done that has affect my life negatively. The most she has said is "I'm sorry YOU feel that way" or "I don't remember that!"...Never truly apologizing for the vitriole she has spewed or how she practically told me to my face that she hates me...

Anyhow, I'll leave it at that and answer the replies you left!

Thank you for your patience again with me.

I appreciate you. ♥

::Health::

 ❝So, my parents came back for their Alaskan cruise the past Saturday. Dad came back with the ends of a cold. A couple days later, my brother and I both got sick. My brother seems to have recovered quickly. He went to bed really early last night, like before 8pm. I went for a nap around 4pm and woke at 7:30pm for dinner. So, I didn't sleep until almost 10pm. I, on the other hand, is taking a bit longer. Seems like the virus as gone into my intestines.. been having diarrhea for 2 days already. Getting some coughs when I lie down in bed, and feeling hot, but no fever. I'll have to see how I feel tomorrow, I might need to call in sick for Friday. Suppose to work on Friday then the Monday and Tuesday of next week. But, if my coughs get worse (I hate how whenever I get sick, I cough for a long time) by tomorrow, I'm going to call in for Friday. Then, rest well over the weekend, and hopefully be well enough to work for Mon and Tues. 

The Internal Medicine doctor, says that it seems my fatigue is just because of my period, and not of any other hidden health issues. He gave me a requisition for bloodwork. He says that the day I feel the most fatigued, to go get my bloodwork done and that it has to be near to wake-up time. As he says he's checking hormones, and they are most accurate in the morning. Looking at the requisition, he also has checked off Chronic viral hepatitis undefined etiology and HIV Serology, as well as the regular Ferritin and Chemistry tests. I'm getting my period now, but I haven't been that fatigued. So, might have to wait until next month. At least requisitions are good for 6 months. The reason I got the IUD was to regulate my period, before I got it, I was a heavy bleeder, changing a pad every 2-3 hours. Now, with the IUD, my first one, like 8 years ago, my period stopped for the first 5 years, and my energy levels were normal. This second IUD, I'm still getting a light period, and the fatigue is at its worst, with some cramps. I don't used to get cramps, even without the IUD. So, until I feel that fatigue again, and get the bloodwork done. Then, we'll see if there are some other hidden reasons. ❞

❝I didn't get much sleep last night. I tried to sleep by midnight (had to finish watching a drama, lolz).. but then, woke up every two hours coughing. I finally got out of bed by 9am, but I was so tired, couldn't really keep my eyes open. So, I didn't spend much time on my computer, and tried to go for a nap around 2pm. But, couldn't fall asleep, more like just rested my eyes. I'll be heading to bed early tonight too, I've called in sick for tomorrow already. But if I still can't sleep over the weekend because of staying up at night coughing, I might need to call in for the Monday and Tuesday shift too. When I can't even keep my eyes open in the daytime, there's no way I'd have the energy to be working. Someone is on vacation, that's why I was scheduled for tomorrow (Friday) and next Monday and Tuesday. Now, I feel my health is more important, I don't want to force myself to go to work while still feeling depleted and sick, then, make myself even more worn out while working. I used to feel guilty for calling in sick, especially knowing that I'm working because I'm covering someone's vacation. But now, after that incident I had with the Acute Diverticulitis, I'm going to rest at home for a cold. 

I just hate getting sick.. it always attacks the weakest part, my airways.. leading to endless coughs, that results in my asthma acting up. Luckily I have both inhalers at home, won't need to see my GP to get the prescriptions again. I also usually end up coughing more when I sleep, which disturbs it greatly.

I'll respond more to your situation when I have the energy to type longer responses. I'm going to sleep earlier tonight too.. Just need to catch up on 4 episodes, then, I'll sleep. Or watch it until I fall asleep.❞

Sorry to hear about the illness you've been dealing with. How have you been feeling lately? In terms of the fatigue, do you think it could be caused by the 2nd IUD? You mentioned feeling quite normal on the 1st one -- is the new IUD a different brand or is it hormonal or non-hormonal? Hopefully the doctor can look further into the fatigue issue, as it sucks feeling too tired or exhausted to be able to do as much. I've been feeling that way myself for a while now, and the doctors here in this city ("Obscumonte Civit") aren't that great. I have a doctor's appointment coming up for the little one, unsure if I want to take him or wait until we move to Planaterra. I have NOT been impressed lately with the doctors or service I have received at the health clinic in Solterra...at least on the adult side, the pediatric side is OK, I guess?... I think it's really just this city... If I lived in a different city in Solterra, maybe it would have better service...just not a lot of good things happen here... I hope that you are feeling better!

Also, how many dramas are you currently keeping up with? There's this webtoon I read called "Marry My Husband" -- it was initially a novel, then manhwa(which I have read), and now it is a drama. Have you seen it? Is it good? I saw a little bit of the 1st episode, it's a bit different from the manhwa, not sure if it might be more similar to the webnovel instead.

::Career/Passion::

❝I got a couple of 1-star reviews for my book. One claims their book was printed as if it ran out of ink, and the other was a plain mean comment. But, mentioned how there are many mistakes in the book, so, I've made a revised version. Just need to get my brother check it, and I'll have to re-upload the new version of the book.❞

That sounds disheartening seeing the 1-star reviews. However, its good that you are working hard on this project and have created a revised version of the book. That's really cool and I'm sure the customers will be happy to hear that you listened to their feedback! ☺️ ☻

As for the plain mean-spirited 1-star reviews... It reminds me of one of my favourite quotes: "Be who you say you are and say what you feel, because those who matter don't mind, and those who mind don't matter". I would only consider the opinions of people who have my best interest in their heart, and not the mean trolls who want to tear people down. I don't mind constructive criticism, as long as it helps me grow as a person or improve my current abilities. But anyways, I am rooting for you! I think it's awesome that you're doing your passion. Can you update me on your book publishing journey? I'm honestly happy to hear the progress each time! I'm rooting for you Jae! ☻☺

I am also hoping to work soon in something I am passionate about. For the moment, I have been selling some hand-me-down clothes that coworkers provided me -- all brand name items. I am honestly not one to buy luxurious clothes that are over $138CAD...I spend maybe $7CAD-$14CAD total, or $28CAD max for articles of clothing at the thrift store...I remembered when they used to only cost more between $4CAD-$7CAD each, used to be a LOT cheaper back in the day...

❝Timmy was so chill. But I'm not sure if it's a normal Frenchie thing, but his breathing is loud. Like constant snoring sound. I hung out at their place for like 3 hours. They made me coffee and gave me a cookie, and just chatted and showed me everything that's related to Timmy at their place. Her dog is allergic to grass. So, she was saying when they take him out, he has to wiped down thoroughly at home. So, I said, next time we meet, maybe we could do it when it's raining, so that I can see how to clean him up. 

We used to have a Golden Retriever, had Cocoa for 9 years before putting her down because she had a tumor pressing on her intestines, and she wasn't able to do her business and stopped eating. Now, my brother's ex-wife, they have a shared custody of a dog. A Sheepadoodle (Sheepdog + Poodle), Hiro comes to stay with us whenever the ex goes on vacation. She lives alone here, and her parents are in another Province, she also sometimes goes back to China to visit her grandparents. So, we've had Hiro for 2-3 weeks at a time. Hiro's 5 now, I think.. or 6, I don't remember. He's a big dog, but since he's a poodle mix, he doesn't shed. But he's tall, and his head is big too. We always joke that Hiro's head is bigger than my mum's.. heheh. When I was younger, I used to have a hamster, but he died in 2 years, he escaped his cage once, luckily I found him by my piano. Just had to follow his trail of wood chips. We left the cage on our washing machine, so I guess, when he ran on the wheel at night, the cage shook off and fell on the floor and he escaped. I remember back in Hong Kong, before we immigrated to Canada, my brother and I both had a turtle. But, it died before we left, and we flushed them down the toilet, thinking that it'll go back into the ocean.. you know how as kids, we thought all pipes led to the ocean. So, we were putting it back into its natural habitat.❞

That's good to hear that Timmy is a mellow dog, will definitely make it easier to dog-sit him. Did you end up seeing him on a rainy day to watch how your friend washes/grooms him after? I heard Golden Retrievers are very loyal, playful, and friendly dogs. I have considered getting one or maybe a German Shepard, Lab, or Doberman. Any big dog really --- I LOVE big dogs! Planning on making the dog either a protection or guard dog. I also would like to adopt a cat, can be an emotional support cat. Would be nice...

That's cool that your brother and his ex-wife have a friendly relationship and take turns watching Hiro. It's nice that he gets to see both of his owners and spend time with them.

Ooof, sorry to hear about the hamster & turtle passing away... :(

::Relationships::

❝I haven't spoken to that guys since. He just keeps saying that I should know by now that he likes to joke around like that.

I'm just wondering if I should ask my mum again about her friend's daughter's husband's 2 best friends. But I know that my mum friends are leaving for a cruise in the next few days. So, it'll be difficult to arrange anything without the parents around. Since I haven't met the daughter before. I was suppose to meet her last year, during a Chinese New Year gathering another friend of my mum's organized. But, she ended up catching a cold, and didn't show up. Then, ever since, we haven't tried to set up any other meetings. 

Have I ever mentioned I have an older sister? Not blood-related, but she's the oldest sister of my brother's University friend. We all call her Big Sis. She also kept telling me that love comes in unexpected time and places. As much as I want to believe her, I lose hope as each year passes and I'm still single. But I seriously think I need to leave the country, like if I get that job in China, maybe I'll meet someone there. Like you, I have too many bad memories and traumas in my hometown, that I don't feel confident and safe when I'm out in the public. All public occasions, like going to the mall to pick up some things, its so stressful for me and drains my energy quickly. But thinking to work in China, doing something I have passion for, not knowing anyone, it's like a brand new start in life. I can make new memories and experience life differently. 

I didn't join the BBQ. My brother's friend eats a lot, and they use the Charcoal style, which is like a mini stove for skewers. His friend came over twice for BBQ, I just made my own food. And it's probably to have them hang out with each other, guys talk.

I thought about writing a bad review about my dentist, but I didn't want to leave a name on public sites. I'll look into that link you provided and go from there. 

I'm going to head to bed now. I'll say more later. Need to take some medicine and sleep.❞

I don't blame you for not talking to that guy...He sounds...rather difficult to communicate with or maybe incompatible to be friends with? Unsure. Whatever you choose, whether it's a break from him, low contact, or no contact -- I hope it works out!

I guess it doesn't hurt if you do decide to ask your mother about the 2 male best friends/potential suitors connected through her friend. The worst she can say is no, and the best outcome is her saying yes. ☻☺ I say, go for it -- if you want to.

Ah okay, she is your unrelated jiejie then. That's rad! Yeah...I remember hearing the "love will come at the most unexpected time and place" and well...When that happened (to me at least), it wasn't really love, but I ended up with abusive people finding me...When I took more charge into what I wanted, I ended up with my current partner. We have some cultural differences, I think that may be why sometimes I am frustrated, but ultimately, we're both getting better each day at communicating with one another. I have a BAD habit of shutting down when I'm overly stressed or depressed, so I keep my feelings bottled in, but he has allowed me to vent and be a sounding board. I have spoken to him a bit about things that have been stressing me out, and he's been quite receptive. He's more reserved than I am, and doesn't really show his emotions outwardly, unless he's inebriated. I talk to him a bit about my worries with using drinking as a coping mechanism, and I don't think he's been drinking much anymore. He's currently in a stressful situation, but I hope it works out for him...

::Legal::

❝So, I looked closely at that link you gave me about reporting my previous dentist. I don't know if I should. And I'm not sure what to say. I don't know know what I'm expecting from them after a complaint. Would I contact the Dental Association or the College of Dental Surgeons or both? I just don't know if it's worth the hassle. I only feel that my experience as a patient, that the dentists did not treat me in the best interest of my needs. Especially knowing that I don't have insurance, they shouldn't have made me do all the fillings all at once, rather than just offering to do the more urgent ones and leave the rest for the future. Rather than saying, "You'd better do them all now, as down road, the cavities will get worst and you'll need to do them anyways." I was also dissatisfied with them doing the filling for my chipped tooth, and how when I returned after 2 months because the filling came off, to have them tell me, I'll need a crown. They refused to put another filling, saying that because my tooth is small, putting another filling on, will just break off again and again.

If you were to sue your doctors.. that costs money and time too, right? Are there any successful cases in your area where you win in a sue? What happens when you win? You get money back? Or you'd suspend their license? Your partner is right about kinda exaggerating your symptoms. Some doctors are more on the conservative side, so, unless you make it sound more serious, they will not order any tests for you. My parents sometimes tell me to do the same too, especially if I have to check myself into Emergency for something, they'd tell me to make it sound more serious, more uncomfortable, so that they'll look and check everything to see what could be wrong. 

I'm glad to hear that your partner agreed of his wrongdoings, the fall-out of finding a place so you could move in with him, and is making the effort to change. I really wish the two of you can live together soon. It's nice to be able to talk on the phone daily for the time being. 

To be honest, being sick with the cold, for some reason, it's been making me feel a bit more lonely. Thinking how it'd be nice to have a boyfriend to comfort me during this time.. making me hot soup to soothe my throat, giving me hugs/cuddles, spending time with me and make sure I feel more comfortable despite my coughs and sneezes. 

I started taking some Tylenol Cold medication this morning, I don't think it's been helping. I'm also taking a Chinese Herbal syrup that helps soothe my throat. But that's only 3 times a day, and I mix it with water and drink it slowly, rather than letting it melt in my mouth. So, I'll have to see how I feel on Sunday, and then decide whether or not I can work on Monday and Tuesday.. 

I kinda feel it's not good to be coughing and sneezing while working a hospital job.. I mean, I could wear a mask, but with my symptoms, it may interfere with the productivity and efficiency of my work. Also, as I'm coughing through the night, disturbing my sleep, I don't quite have the energy to do the work that will be expected from me if I were to head to work. I'll have to decide by tomorrow, and call in sick if needed. Honestly, I'd rather take the time off, and then rest up until my other work block that starts June 21st for 2 weeks.❞

I would maybe consult (free) legal consultation for that. I only suggest contacting them if you feel that the dentist office is not taking your concerns seriously -- because if you find out later that the issue was a lot worse than you thought, and the dentist refuse to help? That can be a big problem down the road. I have a lot of medical problems currently and my first doctor wouldn't prescribe any medicine for my pain and he refused to do an x-ray. The 2nd doctor took me a bit more seriously and did x-rays, and noticed (some) of the medical problems, but she's too busy to help and I get sidelined a lot and placed to different doctors. I suspect I have something severely wrong with my nerves or muscles since my ex nearly unalived me and I have other past traumatic experiences which messed up my body, but the doctors refuse to do a CT scan or MRI...and if I find something seriously wrong when I go with a Planaterra doctor while the Solterra one's ignored me, then I can sue them for carelessness and them not addressing the problem, despite me bringing it up. I just...hope you don't have to end up at that point. I plan on getting free legal consultation for that AFTER I get checked by a proper doctor.

My partner actually is going through some lawsuits right now. Some women did a hit-and-run and he got severely injured on the job. She fled to a different country. He has more experience with getting legal consultation, suing, etc. I don' really know much about it, he's the one who suggested that I do that. I was going to let bygones be bygones, but he said I shouldn't.

Indeed, he is making more of an effort now about the housing situation. I think...his toxic family was getting to him so he was wishy-washy, but he seems more eager to leave now and has been applying for jobs.

Are you currently off work for the moment? I hope you're getting plenty of rest!

I loved how you've color-coded your responses. Since you've chosen my favorite color blue, I'll choose a different color for the remaining posts.

I don't like sometimes how I've written a long reply, then when I click on Post, my message doesn't load and it disappears. I've had that happen so many times before, especially when I'm responding to something where I gave a lot of thoughts to. It's so frustrating. Nowadays, I sometimes end up copying my text first before I hit Post. In case it gets deleted, I could just paste it back on a second try.

I'm finally recovering from my cold, much less coughing and nasal congestion. My brother and I have also been working on trying to save our brand for the coloring book. We've posted a revised edition after that one-star review claiming our book has many mistakes. Now, I've requested to get more free reviews through a site. Hope once approved, I can have readers who give 5-star reviews to the book to bring our average ratings back up to 4. I have a 2-week work block coming up, starting June 21st. For some reason, I'm not really looking back to returning to work.

I don't think you'll ever receive the response you'd like from your mother. For the longest time, I blamed my brother for specific things he has said to me during my first diagnosis of depression back in the days. Although I've never voiced it, every time I think back to what he had said to me, it always breaks my heart and leave me thinking that because of what he said, for things that fell into place there on after happened and scarred me for life. There was a time where I saw a Psychologist who sat down with my family and we talked about that incident. For the first time, I saw my brother shed tears. Although he had apologized, not knowing the impact of his words had on me, to this day, I realized that I still haven't really fully forgiven him. As on days when my depression is bad, I will somehow end up thinking about what had happened then. Sometimes, I blame myself for the good memories I have of my childhood, especially during the time when my depression was at its climax. I remember things in detail and with vivid images. I guess this is one of the many reasons why I feel like I'm stuck. Because I remember all the bad things that happened during all of my childhood traumas like it was yesterday, all those endless periods of nightmares I had, remembering my dreams, and being reminded of them whenever my depression takes over my mind. I think with the same reason as to why you'd like to leave your current city and start life in a different state/country, is the same reason as to why I'd like to work outside, in a foreign country, where it's a brand new chapter of my life, in a different place, geographically, a place where I can start from scratch, make new memories and experience life differently than how I have lived my life up until now in my current hometown. Where all the bad things occurred, where I had no support from friends or family during the toughest times of my life, and I feel like I'm stuck in the past, afraid to present myself out to the public and yet feeling desperate and know that I need to get out there to meet my destined partner. It's very contradictory. As much as I know that I need to change the way I currently live, whether that be on a personal level or career-wise, being stuck in the past, at the same time, I feel safest at home compared being out in the public. That is also why I choose to stay home during days I don't have work, and even if I were to go out, like to the mall or for groceries, I choose a time in the day with lesser people. Spending too much time "outside" drains my energy quicker, so I'm also the in-and-out type of shopper.

I'm on the same brand of IUD as the first one. This brand is the best for my condition, and it worked well first time around. I'm thinking because I'm older now, my body's hormones are changing as I age, so maybe, that's why the IUD is not working the same as before. Before I got the IUD, I was on birth control pills for over a decade. I was taking them to regulate my period, as a heavy bleeder, the pills helped with a lighter flow, and lasting only 5 days rather than 7 days. With the pill, it came more accurately and it came every other month. We switched to IUD because in 2018, I had an unprovoked incident of DVT in my right leg. I was told because I was on those birth control pills, I became higher risk to developing DVT if I sat for long hours. I remember, I started working the hospital job the same year in June, the week after Father's Day. In November, I was going to have my graduation ceremony from the completed Certificate in April. I originally had work blocks for all of November assigned, but because I needed to miss a day for the graduation ceremony, my Manager ended up removing my entire block, rather than allowing me to take a day off to attend graduation. So, for the entire month, I stayed at home, sitting at my computer every day, watching Kdramas. So, all that sitting, eventually turned into a DVT. It happened in the beginning of December. I went to work on Friday, although my leg was in pain, and my colleagues saw my discomfort and allowed me to go home earlier. Saturday morning, the pain was so great that I walked with a limp. So, I went to the walk-in clinic at Walmart, and the doctor there wrote a requisition for me to get bloodwork done at the lab. During the wait, my brother messaged his then-wife about my case, and she said to not wait, and just go straight to ER. So, I went to the hospital I worked at, admitted right away, and found out I had DVT. They gave me a shot immediately, as they say it can turn life-threatening if the clots break off and travel in my bloodstream to my lungs/heart. My hospital had no Medical Imaging tech over the weekends, so they made an appointment for me to get an Ultrasound done on Sunday at a larger trauma hospital (a 30mins drive away). Registering at ER on Sunday, they wheeled me on a wheelchair to get the Ultrasound done on my right leg. From my ankle to my thigh. From knee down to my ankle, the tech said I had 3 out of 5 veins clotted. From the back of my knee to my ankle. So, I was given a cycle of medication to take, like a blood thinner, to disperse my clots.

Nowadays, although I still sit for long hours at my computer, especially with this Publishing business, I would stretch out my legs, or get up and use the washroom on the second floor. But hopefully, since I've started the IUD instead, the risk will not be as high. So, it just sucks how I get the extreme fatigue during the first couple of days of my period, along with some stomach cramps. Compared to not having these kinds of symptoms with the birth control pills, it just bothers me more.

I'm watching 2-3 Cdramas at the moment. I usually rewatch ones on my computer, then, at bedtime, I keep a mini Ipad in my bedroom and watch it in bed at night, the newer dramas. 

We've updated 2 of our coloring books (currently working on a 3rd revision). We're thinking that we need to gather some good reviews, to save our brand. I've asked a favor from my cousin in the States. See if she can make a purchase and write a 5-star review. My brother says we can wire her the cost of the book if she wants in return of our favor. There is also a site I mentioned earlier, where I can post my book for free, and have others to choose my book and leave a good review on Amazon. I've submitted my request already, just need to wait for approval. It's a longer process, because I would need to read and review other author's books first, to save "points" in order to spend them to request someone to review my book. 

No, I haven't seen Timmy a second time yet. The nurse friend did tell me she'd like to arrange a second orientation for me with Timmy in the coming week. I asked her if weekdays work for her, now that she's working from home. She did say that I could drop by during her lunch hour, but I'll just need to let her know ahead of time. I guess it also helps how her husband finishes work at 1pm too. So, even if she's busy with meetings and work, her husband can show me the orientation too when he returns. I'll have to see how my days go this week, I've finally started to feel better today, but because I've been watching my dramas at night, well in the wee hours of 2-5am. I'm running on a little of adrenaline during the day, especially when I don't end up taking naps in the afternoon. 

Once I start working next Friday, then, it'll have to be the weekends to meet Timmy. 

Tomorrow is Father's Day.. for the first time, I haven't bought a card yet.. I don't know when I'll get it.. or if I'll end up getting it.. hope my dad won't mind if we don't buy him one.. I heard my brother already asking him if he has anything special he wants to eat tomorrow.. I heard them say something about ordering take out for dinner, just the same as what we did for Mother's Day.

So, I'll be meeting that colleague on Tuesday and Wednesday, at 8:45am. I'm thinking she'll keep me there for the morning.. we were texting today to confirm the time, and she gave me a code so I could be buzzed in. She asked about my food allergies, so, I'm guessing she'll either prepare some breakfast or lunch to have at her place. Her husband and son will be away Tuesday and Wednesday. Apparently, her son has a camping event in a different city for school, and her husband volunteered to help. So, she'll be home alone with Timmy. I guess that is why she'd like to me to go over to her place to take care of Timmy, especially when she's in meetings.

So, that site has approved my book to be posted for reviews. I've chosen a book myself to read to collect "points".. so, for these days, I'll be reading.. I've downloaded the book on my phone, so, I can spend my time reading at her place.

So, with Father's Day.. We ended up eating out for breakfast. The Chinese Restaurant with Dim Sum. But my mum paid, because the restaurant only takes American Express or Cash. Both my brother and I don't have AE card, neither do we have a lot of cash on hand. For dinner, my mum ended up cooking, and eating leftovers from dim sum. My brother and I went home first after breakfast, as my parents attended Church afterwards. When I got home, after I've felt my food had digested, I went back to bed.. Waking to an alarm this morning, I was so sleepy. Although I only stayed up until 1am last night, I was still tired. I went to bed when my brother went out. He had to return some library books that are due today, and he went to buy a Father's Day card. He's going away to France for a business trip, leaving Monday afternoon, and returning Sunday afternoon. 

I'd better get into the habit of not staying up too late watching dramas this week. With the 2 early morning days to meet that colleague.. If I choose to walk, I'll probably have to set my alarm to 7-7:30am. Have some breakfast, before start walking at 8:15am. It's exactly a 20 minute walk, uphill. But, I guess it's okay if I arrive earlier than 8:45am. She says her meetings usually start by 9am. Also, starting my working block on Friday, can't be too tired/sleepy for the type of work I do. To be able to meet my own work ethics, and productivity levels, I'm sure I'll need to have enough sleep the night before.

I had a little stomachache this morning.. morning like it woke me up at 4am.. Luckily all was normal when I went to the washroom. Fell back asleep around 5am, waking to my alarm at 7:15am.. I ended up a couple minutes late at my colleague's place, as my stomach acted up again after breakfast. This time, it was slight diarrhea.. not sure what's been going on.. my stomach hasn't been feeling well usually in the mornings.. for the past 3 days already.. 

So, I spent the morning at my colleagues, I left around 1pm. She had more meetings afterwards, but my parents wanted me to get home.. as we're waiting for a mattress delivery that never came yesterday.. And my parents have plans for the afternoon/night.. So we expected it to arrive sometime today.. at first, we were told that it will have to be signed off.. But, as I was at my computer, I heard someone dropping off a box outside my front door. By the time I went to look, the courier had already got into his vehicle and the box was left by the front door, below the 2 steps leading to our door. It weighs 140 pounds, but luckily, there are handles on the side of the box, and I was able to drag it up the 2 steps and into the house. 

I went for a nap after getting it in the house. I was so sleepy at my colleague's (L's) place. I downloaded a book to read, was going to read it at her place, but once I started reading it, it turns out it was only at the beginning 20 pages that were text, and the rest was like a workbook. So, that didn't work. So, I've downloaded another book from that site, where I'm sure I'll be able to read tomorrow.

Before I left L's place, she asked if I could arrive at 8:30am tomorrow.. She said she'll start her work earlier, at 7am.. rather than 8am.. that way, when I arrive, she can take a coffee break, and show me how she walks Timmy. Oh yea, she also said she'll pay me for watching over Timmy tomorrow.. but we both don't know how much she should pay me for the possible 7 hrs in the 2 days. It's her first time asking someone to watch over her dog.. and at first, I thought I was doing it for free.. as she says it's still like an orientation. I'll take whatever she gives me.

It's 9pm now.. I'm going to go to bed soon, since I'll need to be at L's place earlier tomorrow.. I'll have to leave my house by 8am.. As I plan to drop off something down at our mailbox (half a block away) before I walk up the hill to her place. Which means, if I plan to eat before leaving the house, I'll probably have to set my alarm to around 6:30am.. just in case my stomach acts up again after breakfast, I'll have time to deal with it before I leave the house. She has bread and stuff at her place and had offered me some this morning, along with coffee.. But I had both before leaving the house. 

As for lunch, she was going to offer me some Filipino food, but they use a lot of black pepper (which I'm allergic to) and Filipino MSG.. So, we don't want to take any risks.. but she had some Chinese styled BBQ pork bun.. so, I had one before heading home. Funny.. walking up the hill to her place, took me 18 minutes.. walking mostly downhill on the way home, took me 19 minutes.. There was only a large stretch of road where it was uphill from her place.. as L's complex is on a half-hill too.. so, there was a long stretch of road that was steep.. I think that took me longer.. But my problem, as I chose to walk and not take my car. If I were going to wait for her to give me a ride home, I'd have to be there until the end of her work day.. so, we'll see how things go tomorrow.. depends on how many meetings she has in the afternoon, I haven't decided if I will stay or not.. and since she's going to pay me.. no harm to staying at her place.. it's just that I won't be able to recharge with a nap.

So, I ended up watching my bedtime drama. Figured that it will help me sleep through the night. One of the newer ones, but has finished already. Good thing I watched it.. stayed up until nearly 2am.. then, slept until like 6:59am.. I went back to sleep.. and finally woke up around 9:30am.. so, it's better than sleeping by midnight, and then wake up around 3am..

I think I'll need to keep watching my bedtime dramas, just so that I'm not sleeping too early and waking up in the wee hours. I'm sitting in the lounge now.. shift starts in 10 minutes. But honestly, I'm already yawning and feeling sleepy. Not exactly looking forward as to how the shift will go.

At least, because we're in the summer months. I don't need to come to work earlier to find parking. As there's plenty even when I arrived at 11:25am. Pick and choose.

I might be talking more here during my weeks of work.. I'm sure I'd have lots to talk about. My other Cups Pen Pal informed me she'd be away next week. Although she said she'll still be able to reply, but there may be a delay. Which is fine, her and I, if I don't leave a message for her, she wouldn't post anything otherwise.

At least with you, I know that you always get caught up in things and it's normal to not see a reply immediately. Plus, our posts and replies are always super long. So, it makes up for the gap in between our posts.

Posting from my phone, I always get confused with how the spacing of my paragraphs show up on a computer. I'm pressing Enter twice, so I have a space in between my paragraphs. But sometimes, on the computer, it turns into double-spaced. I'll check how it looks on my computer tonight when I get home.