Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
i’m tired. i’m so tired. it was my turn to clean the kitchen and i just stood there for like a good 10 minutes, staring at the things i had to do. it felt, and was, so hard, like it needed all my effort, all my energy. which i didn’t have. i stood there and i felt like i wanted to cry because *** like that should not be that hard. it’s not supposed to be overwhelming. yet it was. that’s just who i’ve become. everything’s so hard. everything needs so much more effort than it used to. *sigh*.
@justmeeva
Maybe because Eva got a lot going on, or mentally tired, or experiencing depression. 😔 Me have known that feeling too, & now I know,I have done the best for my dad, but his behavior makes me in this depression, though me kinda a functioning depression. I took the wellness test in Cups, it says I'm 70% (or 75% I don't remember exactly) depressed 🥺
“lingering is the way i cope.
talking to you is my only hope.
but why does it always feel like despair,
like you’re talking to me just because of a dare?
everything i said is deep from my heart,
but your kind words sound like they want me to stop.”
@justmeeva This hit hard 😞
