Eva’s Crazy Mind
i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows.
i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.
best wishes to you. ❤️
it’s so hard to stay motivated and to want to finish the gift. i’m trying to procrastinate and not procrastinate at the same time. it’s not supposed to be so hard.
oh that’s cool
not only can i feel others’ feelings on a really deep level, i can also do that with others’ trauma. if i imagine it well enough, it’ll just become another part of me. is that too just what comes with being an empath? i personally think there’s something really wrong with me. but what do i know.
now i’m feeling weird, like i’m transferring back into my own body and my own life, my own reality, whatever that’s supposed to be. man idfk. i’m also feeling weird about darkness again. and afraid that something will happen. like a hunch.
i’m just not destined to live. i can’t have a normal life. i can’t have a life at all. i’m just not made to live.
''i hate it i hate it i hate it!''
''hate what?''
''me! i hate me! ''
