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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP April 11th

tw. 

today, that one certain thing was taking over my mind more than it ever has before. 

justmeeva OP April 11th

possible tw.

here’s what i want to do. i want to have my own place, with no family or people around. just do my *** by myself. no school. no necessary interaction with anyone. i want to say the things i need to say and do the things i need to do. it would be quiet, dark, and lonely, but it’s comforting, so it’s okay. i would do a couple of things for the world, for the ones struggling, so many ideas and thoughts and things i have i could share with the world. and then, i’d leave.

but i’m stuck in this reality. so i don’t know what i’m gonna do. 

justmeeva OP April 11th

7 unfinished assignments. and i don’t even really care to fix them anymore.

justmeeva OP April 11th

guess i’ve really just given up. 

justmeeva OP April 11th

tw.  

my mom seems to have a clear plan for my future. i have one too, but it doesn’t involve a future. 

justmeeva OP April 11th

it’s all just so heavy. 

justmeeva OP April 11th

tw. 

counting days, counting days..

justmeeva OP April 12th

we’ve lost so many people. 

justmeeva OP April 12th

so many..

justmeeva OP April 12th

don’t cry don’t cry don’t cry..