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Eva’s Crazy Mind

justmeeva January 21st

i’ve wanted to make a forum post like that for quite a while now, but never brought myself to actually make it. here i will write up all sorts of thoughts and vents, everything i need to get off my mind. it’s not gonna be positive or motivational, not even close. i personally don’t recommend reading it just because it doesn’t help lol. you’re welcome to read, replies are okay, just be aware that it’s gonna be a pretty dark place. i don’t usually ask for help despite telling everybody to. idk why. i’m not a very good example of what’s right to do. TW just in case, not planning to go that far but who knows. 

i’m making myself this space because sometimes you can feel lonely while being surrounded by a million people and that’s nobody’s fault.

best wishes to you. ❤️

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justmeeva OP April 9th

yeahh the “reality” hit now. cool. 

justmeeva OP April 9th

gonna start with the assignments. 

justmeeva OP April 9th

“i’m giving so many signs aren’t you watching?”

justmeeva OP April 9th

those 4 songs are.. yeah. make me feel something. something close to.. hope? but like.. they’re not about anything positive. they’re about uh.. leaving, instead. but they comfort. can’t explain it but.. they take some of the feeling of being all alone away.

justmeeva OP April 9th

funny thing is, some songs are like.. triggering, but comforting at the same time. like you don’t even wanna turn it off, even tho it’s like- bad. lol idk. 

justmeeva OP April 9th

and as you see, 40 minutes later, i still haven’t started. literally considering giving up atp lol. on everything. 

justmeeva OP April 9th

deep down, i think i might have already given up. just not my whole self accepts that yet. 

justmeeva OP April 9th

i used to have so many dreams. so many plans. so many wishes. 

justmeeva OP April 9th

now i only have one. 

justmeeva OP April 9th

“just one more day”, i tell myself, every day.