in the wonders of my mind💗.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷
wanted to have my own space.💜 for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.💙
to whoever's coming across :'3💜please dont lurk here.🩷 I know anyone can have access to this forum :')💙but please be respectful🩷.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :P💛 y’all get crazy nosy haha- it’s alright.💛nothing too interesting will be here anyway💛if you would like to come in and be supportive it’s completely okie💛but please don’t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limit💛because I’d still like this to be just my space ^-^💛)
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also yay it alr went to the next page
TW sui
I didn't. do anything wrong.
I'm so *** sorry but like how're you gonna know what I'm going through and this isn't just what I'm going through but just the stuff I told you I'm going through and you're supposed to understand and then
oh my god what is wrong with people
nd. I was in a like decent mood.
I'm just kid of sad because
yk that friend :') that killed themselves a year ago. no you don't but yeah her
I remember her
everytime.
everytime one of my current friends does or says smth that omg I just wish she was here and then none of that would matter
but she's not
she's kinda dead.
she kinda killed herself
idk bro Ill kind of never see her again
I'll kind of never be as happy as she made me
I'll kind of never stop feeling like this
and everytime
one of my current friends does or says smth like this
it just makes me feel so awful
because in this situation I'm being so serious actually wtf like what did I even do no I'm :')
and what're you doing trying to I don't like talking about people even if they won't see it anywho
also it's none of you ofc
but ***
messed up
I triedd typing this bit out and started tearing up so I deleted it and idk suck it up who cares
noone cares
stop.
stop talking
I don't wanna go to school
anywho.
I'm just so tired
I wanna throw up idk
I feel gross and weird
does it get annoying. like even when I'm trying to say I'm getting better which btw I never am I just say that
there's always that one blob of white text and a sewerslide tw
It's not even about me this time but still
does it get annoying
this is random but
we're like
im gonna take a guess and say like 3 months in now
and
I love how some of my classmates still don't even know my name☠️it's not just me tho they don't know my friends name either (the one I switched with)
omg my head hurts
it's just randomly started hurting bad
I think it's a headache!! I think. I'm growing sm!! /j
why does everyone keep reminding me like
oh in 2 years you'll be at university
like no
it requires smth and idk I think a specific idk you need to be doing a specific job to leave for university 2 years early that's what my brothers doing
my school has 13 years and I'm in year 9 that's a lot because I wanna stay and like graduate and stuff I don't like this school definitely not but there's no way if I'm staying in this school and not switching again there's no way I'm gonna leave at the end of year 11 and not getting to experience year 12 and 13 I know it sounds weird but everything gets better then I probably shouldn't have that mindset but
it helps me sleep at night
yeah everything sucks but give it a few more years!! start living at your 30s
also I'm becoming a doctor I don't have a choice apparently
why was I even talking about oh I wanna do smth related to psychology like i know so well it doesn't matter what I want
im tired.