in the wonders of my mind💗.

oh right btw there was smth wrong wuth that test for most people like there was a “question” that was nothing like just a picture no space to write or anything but it wouldn’t let you submit because you haven’t written anything on it

soo a teacher came in and they made a new QR code and that was the actual test now so the problem was fixed and the teacher was there but everyone started talking and cheating so like basically if you submitted you can see your results so the people that did they can scroll through the questions and each question there’s a lil green tick next to the right answer so everyone started doing that 

I got 30/30 :p the whole class did…

the teacher doesn’t care as long as you get 30/30

anyways.

I started crying in islamic today. it’s the first time this year I cry in a class at school

…

I was just thinking a lot abt something that happened and I knew it was coming but I was trying so hard not to cry and I started tearing up and I was trying not to like bro I was trying so hard not to cry

and then tears started rolling down my face and each time a tear would fall I’d wipe it off and I had a normal face the whole time or I tried to 

and the whole time I was trying so hard to stop crying and I was still crying

im in a group in the seating plan in the back of the class

i was trying to look around the whole time nd no one saw me

except for one guy. he was looking at me the whole time

and like at first when I was on the verge of tears he was already looking at me then when I actually started crying his face changed 

okay.

you don’t understand

you don’t understand because this guy he’s not even one of he’s just like the most popular guy like the highest level of popular you can be and he’s always been popular 

and he’s really really *reallyy* not a good person 

and usually if he’d see someone crying he’d probably yell and interrupt everyone like sirr there’s a girl cryingg and he’d make jokes abt ur mental health or smth idk 

but his face changed like he genuinely genuinely looked like he felt bad like his eyes and eyebrows and just his whole face like his face he got me feeling bad for making him feel bad but the whole time I was like looking at him and he was looking at me and i was kind of busy crying and hiding behind some people but he was just looking at me like… worried. 

I’m telling you I’m genuinely confused huh :’) 

and it’s not like oh see people do care or don’t judge a book by it’s cover or idek it’s just so shocking I’m just so confused

also I later found out I actually looked *d i s g u s t i n g* then like it’s not even a joke i looked horrible and how do you feel bad for someone that looks like me no offense i guess except it’s me like it doesn’t matter to me but it’s him how do you feel bad for someone like me like don’t you just look at me and think ew

ew.

also one of those like chubby class clowns with big hair and the dumb accent (it’s fake that’s why i call it dumb) yk them or maybe not anyways he was walking past me and then he was looking at me and he went “eeeEeEEEeeWwWWWWWW” then he saw a bug and screamed (idk how he produced that sound it was so high pitched..)but honestly it’s less offensive from him cause he’s just weird but anyways