in the wonders of my mind💗.

_{I got in :') I'm not doing anything wrong. I just went on a mindful walk xD and I'm not hurting anyone. by going on a mindful walk :p} 

_{I don't know why I just felt like coming on here and  waffling} 

_{but I have to put this device away :') before anyone else wakes up.} 

_{my dad's not even trying to fix it he's not he keeps saying he'll take it to "the guy" and he doesn't or he says it'll be fixed by tomorrow and it's not and when I find ways to easily reset it because my device is under his apple ID he doesn't listen but} 

_{it's okay}

_anywho

_{Ill just go. byebye<3}

oh also I don't really care who it is but can you please stop sending referrals I don't need them but thankyou🩷

_{my brother fixed my device. and connected it to the internet and now I just need the apple ID} 

_{and this accounts still here :’) sorry🤍}

_{I need to be forced off of here for long enough to the point where I’m no longer addicted.}

_{It’s only 12am but I think I’m gonna go to sleep}

_{(look at me :> fixing my sleep :>/j)} 

_goodnight<3

_*poof*

_{I’m back with my dad again.}

_{815720. that was my password :’) I keep putting it in. I never remembered the numbers I just knew the pattern and like, my fingers got used to typing it in. I remembered it started with 8 and I sort of knew there was a 1 but I wasn’t sure. I was thinking about it so much and trying to think of what word I might’ve made it (from the numbers but not from the letters there it was like. what numbers looked most like the letter idk I just made it up myself tho) or what numbers I might’ve used and for some reason I was so convinced there was a 4 but I know that was my password-. 815720. I feel like if I just waited a little bit for my brain to calm down and- refresh itself :'P I would’ve remembered and i wouldn’t have had to lose literally everything *** everything I checked everything I still have some accounts I made from here of course but I checked iCloud and everything and all my photos are gone. photos and videos and everything :') my notes are gone of course. I had so much on there too. I had this silly contract I made with my brother when we were young it was so formal but funny too, and his signature was there. I had so many petitions airdropped about school , I had these like stupid 4am creations I don’t know what to call them but I actually put time into those. I had poems and so many drawings I was so good at it using just the tools on notes for some reason but on real virtual drawing apps I was horrible. and honestly I don’t even remember I just had a lot and it’s all gone and I’m gonna forget more and more so that’s nice. my photos were everything to me tho if you just went across them you’d know me more than anyone else does my whole life was there.} 

_{and now I’ll have to be yelled at and sent to IT for like every class until my school apps and account and emails and stuff are all set up I think I’ve touched a pencil at home like twice all our work is on our devices my screen time is the highest in school. I’ll always hate how this school works it’s so unbelievable like I’ve been to I'm not gonna count but a lot of schools and this one just sucks :’) like again. all the teachers do is sit on their high chair and tell us to copy off the board, get on with the powerpoint independently you can discuss your answers but if I hear it getting too loud it’s a B1 this is your only warning *** *** *** I don’t know what I’m writing down. it’s topics we haven’t taken you skip to the next slide and there are the answers. I don’t have anyone to talk to I always get in trouble for things I didn’t do. they target the wrong people. one of my teachers just stayed until November (2 months) and hasn’t been there the entire year so for that class for the rest of the 8 months everyone would just go crazy. our biggest concern is for your safety and well-being part of our job is to protect you but the worst years of my life have been in this school I’ve never been worse and I’ll have to back there after tomorrow and everyone’s all oh are you excited for school no I’m not but seriously everyone I’ve been forced to think about it all day because I had to sit there with 8 people I barely knew other than my family and talk about school. they don’t teach and yeah I want to learn when I think about what I’ve learnt in year8 I think about that one math lesson where- oh wait that was year 7. well I think about that one math lesson 2 years ago when my math teacher back then started talking about cars}

_{its so hard to care because I legit just go in there wanting to run I just want to run it’s so horrible being there for me} 

_{one time in year7 I was basically just getting bullied and I just walked in the gates and went to second floor and someone said something and when they were gone I ran downstairs and I just ran and I was new ish at the time so someone thought I got lost and told me class was the other way and then they were like wait are you crying and I just ran again and I went to the big staircase and I saw them just standing there looking back at me and it was so crowded I was trying to cover my face I ran down I ran to the gates again and the security guy literally held me back and he almost got distracted enough for me to run out but I was running and he was just holding me back and at first he was like what what happened but eventually he stopped caring and probably thought I was gonna skip and he yelled at me to go to class and I can’t leave without the thing that idk a type of pass I guess it’s a long process to get one}

_{i got carried away.}

_{I wanted to sleep early today. there’s nothing I could say that’s anything different I guess. nothing new.} 

_{part of all the stuff my brother got on his birthday someone got him like 3 different types of rubik’s cubes, I only know how to solve the 3 by 3 ones and the fastest I’ve ever gotten was 19 seconds} 

_{but I was just playing with that one because I didn’t have anything else to do :’) and I didn’t get anything for my birthday which I’m okay with but my brother doesn’t really share} 

my dad was asking my brother to help him with something and my brother wasn’t so he came over and was like give it to me just just give it to me and I gave it to him and he literally just threw it on the floor and it broke into a bunch of pieces. I don’t even know like good job do you feel better now? and he kept yelling at both of us to help him but I swear he didn’t ask me it was my brother that he asked and it was my brother that was on his phone and not listening, it’s not even my rubik’s cube. what was the point of that. if he asked me to help him I swear I would’ve but he genuinely didn’t. my hearing sucks my memory sucks my ability to process things sucks but he genuinely didn’t ask me. he was looking for a reason to get mad but I didn’t do anything :’)

_{my grandpa had surgery. I don’t even get to know anything about it and no one’s gonna tell me anything} 

_{I think my dad left I’m gonna go check- :p}