in the wonders of my mindš.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnāt look like meš§makes sense doesnāt itšsince there can only be one *me*āØone of a kind now arent Iš/sar. one out of 8118835999āØš·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youāre also one of a kindš sorrysorry haha :Pš¤im just messing around xDšalso itās 2am- but shush no snitchingš¤«Iāll sleep in a whilešwhen Iām feeling a bit more sane :>šš©·
wanted to have my own space.š for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.š
to whoever'sĀ coming acrossĀ :'3šplease dont lurk here.š©· I know anyone can have access to this forumĀ :')šbut please be respectfulš©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pš yāall get crazy nosy haha- itās alright.šnothing too interesting will be here anywayšif you would like to come in and be supportive itās completely okiešbut please donāt make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitšbecause Iād still like this to be just my space ^-^š)
TW I know I never go these in but idk what to say :')Ā
I sleepwalk really often. and I've moved chairs around and set the microwave on and I've vomited in my sleep before I don't know if that's normal. but I was 9 when that happened.Ā
and last night- or morning I think I slept at... 7/8. I woke up on a different bed and all my clothes had orange stains on them. vibrant 'sharp'. and my dad found orange stains on the carpets. and I only actually thought about the stains on my clothes then and I tried getting them off before he noticed and got so much more angry. and he didn't somehow he just kept yelling and cursing but that's it.Ā
and since then I keep trying to figure out what happened. because I don't have anything that shade of orange or just orange at all. I went through everything mine or not accessible or not. there's that square thing you put your cups on. I just googled it they're called coasters-. and there's dish soap. and then I realized that's fully yellow and no where near what I was looking for. and I saw a bottle and it was orange wrong shade but orange. and the actual thing inside tho was fully clear.
i don't know where my dad got it from but he started yelling at me and saying that I was eating mangos like seriously it's just so stupid atp. we don't even have mangos. I'm not just gonna pull them outta my pocket like it's nothing and walk around the house eating them. if he was gonna make a dumb accusation he could've said I was drinking or something but where am I gonna get mangos from. ofc where am I gonna get drugs from too but it'd make more sense if he accused me of that instead. he thought I was capping last year
Iām so tired
I really donāt expect a lot but why canāt someone just be a proper *** friend and not make me feel like im reliving smth I donāt wanna think about.Ā
someone isnāt targeted at like everyone just one person but idk what to say
1:30 am which isnāt that bad. honestly itās not bad at all but Iām mentioning that because dads still not back :ā) he went out with his friend. "with his friend"
my face swelled up. or most of my face.
@iloveyouxx
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Your face?... That doesn't sound good. What's going on?!
@slowdecline48
oh lol XD my eyes swell up really often and my aunt says itās an allergy but I donāt think so. and my face was red and puffy that day because thereās this thing that youāre not meant to put on your skin :ā) so I put it on my skin. not to give any ideas tho. tw itās just satisfying to hurt myself I thinkĀ ļ»æ
@iloveyouxx Hurting oneself is not helpful. Not to anyone, really.
Even so, I'm slightly relieved...at first I thought your dad or brother was practicing domestic backhand on the regular.
