in the wonders of my mindđ.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didnât look like međ§makes sense doesnât itđsince there can only be one *me*âšone of a kind now arent Iđ/sar. one out of 8118835999âšđ·can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss youâre also one of a kindđ sorrysorry haha :Pđ€im just messing around xDđalso itâs 2am- but shush no snitchingđ€«Iâll sleep in a whileđwhen Iâm feeling a bit more sane :>đđ©·
wanted to have my own space.đ for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.đ
to whoever's coming across :'3đplease dont lurk here.đ©· I know anyone can have access to this forum :')đbut please be respectfulđ©·.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :Pđ yâall get crazy nosy haha- itâs alright.đnothing too interesting will be here anywayđif you would like to come in and be supportive itâs completely okieđbut please donât make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limitđbecause Iâd still like this to be just my space ^-^đ)
I donât care about myself really but the only reason Iâm not like decomposing is because I try and look good for others literally.Â
I spend 1265 everyâŠ3? weeks on my hair. because my stylist said my hair was "too curly" and I needed to get it done more often so it would look perfect. her words. I donât think silk straight hair is perfect or curly hair is bad but like :â) but then again I feel bad because I have like 3 people working on my hair and theyâre obviously tired I donât expect them to admire my natural hair and itâs only expensive because of my hair texture :â) and I remember one of them got mad at me because I paid the normal amount and she hadnât seen my hair texture before then she started *** talking in another language but yk. itâs fine.Â
my skin canât be fixed tho so I donât try. it just breaks every while and goes away somehow. and I remember in covid when we had to wear masks I was 8 and the mask made my skin so irritated and messed up so my dad took me to a doctor and she said I was naturally born with really sensitive skin. I give up on my skin I donât even touch it :â)
and I remember this one girl in my arabic class at the beginning of the year was just fully analyzing me then went "youâre really really pretty actually but you just needâŠ"
that same girl would always say something like "why donât you have friends like you can literally make friends so easy youâre really pretty and and" I interrupted her there idk what she was gonna sayâ ïžactually I was trying to interrupt her the whole time. and it was annoying me so much because she started trying to give me a 101 how to make friends for beginners/nsrs and sheâd say things like "okay okay just listen to me go up to a girl and compliment her and.." like wtf if I could make friends I would. I know I sound mean but that was end of term 2 and now sheâs just like everyone else :â) and I didnât think sheâd change but she did like every single other new student.Â