in the wonders of my mind💗.
hey there :D hm. last time I checked you didn’t look like me🧐makes sense doesn’t it😛since there can only be one *me*✨one of a kind now arent I😁/sar. one out of 8118835999✨🌷can you imagine :0 o right- you can- becoss you’re also one of a kind💖 sorrysorry haha :P🤍im just messing around xD💞also it’s 2am- but shush no snitching🤫I’ll sleep in a while😁when I’m feeling a bit more sane :>😛🩷
wanted to have my own space.💜 for thoughts feelings vents or just anything on my mind.💙
to whoever's coming across :'3💜please dont lurk here.🩷 I know anyone can have access to this forum :')💙but please be respectful🩷.(but honestly..I know someone will either way :P💛 y’all get crazy nosy haha- it’s alright.💛nothing too interesting will be here anyway💛if you would like to come in and be supportive it’s completely okie💛but please don’t make it a regular or "normal" thing if that makes sense. just have a sort of limit💛because I’d still like this to be just my space ^-^💛)
@justmeeva
I saw your post a couple hours ago.💜in your corner.💜 I still get notified there- I tried to untick the "subscribe to this thread" thing. because I thought I wasn't in the place to be reading yous posts.🤍 but it didn't do anything.🤍
so I was reading the post and. I got scared.🤍 cos I thought you were talking about me.💙 then I realized I wasnt in 7th grade :') so that happened.💜
Ive never actually- *tw* cvt before.🤍but there's a rumor that (big tw) I've picked up a blade (cos apparently someone in the school sells them) in a class and that i.. sl1t my wrist. I guess. just in the class.🤍
that rumor was made becos all that stuff and mental health in general is the biggest joke here.🤍
if you talk about not being okay others would laugh and tell others. even if you hadn't specified why. just becos it's taken as a joke here.🤍
trauma and depression and anxiety and all that- people in my school and classmates make jokes about that every single day🤍
but they mostly make fun of and laugh about TW suicide related things.🤍
they made a joke about it literally today. in math. just randomly- but it's pretty cruel so I won't say what it was.🤍
but yeah. I didn't want to disturb your space but wanted to say this for some reason.💜 people go up to me now laughing with their friends and ask if I'm okay as a joke then leave before I can answer. if youd see their face expressions :')🤍it's so funny to them. I broke down at school one time. and istg everyone was just watching me and laughing so hard with their friends :')🤍 and gossiping ofc. so I chose to be numb and mute.🤍
thankyou for being different :'3🩷I- don't think I exactly know loads like you🩷sorry for dumping on you. I just-idk. I coulda sworn I had something to say :')🩷 I've only told one person in my whole life about the trauma I've had since I was 3(years old). their reaction just left me deciding to suffer in silence for the rest of my life. literally.💙
I'd talk to the girl maybe- or give her that hug. anything honestly. anything that shows a little care. no matter in what way or form💜but I get it if you're not that close and wouldn't want to💕it's okie💕
sorry for the essay. I'm not even meant to be up. :')🤍 I'm gonna go rest my eyes tho lol :'3🤍love you evafren💖🐢
@iloveyouxx
idk if i’m allowed to reply here so feel free to just absolutely ignore it hehe <3
it’s okay, i never meant to ‘throw you out’ of my space, not at all 🥺 you’re absolutely welcome there, it’s just that i know you’re not doing the best right now so i didn’t wanna make you have to worry about me or deal with me or anything.. you can go there but you don’t have to, okay? 🩷 you’re still my friend 🥺🩷
i know the feeling of having to hide it when you’re not okay, because you’re not understood. some people just seem to lack empathy, i don’t understand how. they don’t even want to understand. and even if they do *know* about mental health struggles and stuff, they don’t *understand* it. they just don’t. and that’s tough. but some do understand. some do.
*biggest hug to you if okay* 🩷 you don’t have to suffer in silence nadia. i understand how it’s hard to trust again once it was broken, but maybe it’s worth a try. it’s okay if you’re not ready to share anything yet. it’s okay to take time. it’s okay to not know.. anything. it’s okay. but what if there’s someone who could help you? someone who would make it even just a little easier? someone who is closer to you than you might realise. you’re not helpless nadia. you deserve help and support and love. you do.
rest is good 🩷 i love you too, nadiafren ❤️
@justmeeva
nunu yous completely allowed to be here fren :0💞
nuu i never felt like you were🥺💜and I never feel like I have to “deal with you” D:💙I just never said anything cos my support sucks :')🤍and no one wants to see me there anyway. sorry I’m being negative again-
I am ?🥺💖im- pretty sure I lost all my friends :') to idek. cups friends- they all just poofed. and I got easily replaced :> cos I’m easily replaceable. they could’ve always found someone else to save their life so. idk why I’m alive :>>
im still being negative- god. :') sorry💜
mhm :') I don’t understand it lol :'3🤍not mental health- just how people *work*. idk. some people are just so- ugh :') cruel. it confuses me. how they sleep at night knowing what they purposely do to others. but it doesn’t matter to them. cos others pain is entertaining in their eyes. idk.💜
*squeezes tight if okie*💓I don’t think I know someone :')🤍someone that could help me, who would make it even just a little easier, or someone that might be closer to me than I realize. I don’t know that someone :')🤍 don’t think they’re there either💜it’s okieee :'3💙 I might deserve those but I never get it. su :')💜
im sorry.💙my dad once said I was a whole package☠️idk what that’s supposed to mean T^T💜i think I’m just annoying to be around- virtually too apparently🩷I apologize a lot. :')💙cos I mess up a lot I thinks💜
hope you’re okie💕💕and that you have an at least decent day💞I think it’s 10am there- you won’t like waking up to this T^T🩷
*💖🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢🐢💖*
@iloveyouxx
of course you still are 🥺 i know it can sound bad if you take it in the bad way, but istg i don’t mean it in a bad way at all; maybe.. it’s not that everyone else poofed.. maybe.. it’s you.. that poofed..? but keep reading, don’t go just yet. it’s not a bad thing, i’m not saying everything is your fault, and i understand why you’re not that active anymore. it’s hard, especially right now as you’re not doing so good. but maybe you haven’t lost everything and everyone. maybe it’s not too late. maybe everyone’s waiting for you, but they feel like they don’t want to bother you. it’s possible, you know - you can’t always guess what people need when they’re not so okie, some need their friends, some need space and time for themselves. maybe your friends think you need that second option? maybe you could just reach out, say hi, explain yourself when needed, talk. it’s absolutely up to you, but maybe you don’t have to be alone. isn’t it worth a try? just a “hi” and see what happens. i know how our brains can tell us all kinds of bad things, make us think nobody wants us etc, but i also know that it’s not at all always the case. when you think about it, you do have quite an amount of people on here who love you, don’t you? if you need anyone, reach out. and if for some reason it doesn’t work out.. then it’s not your fault. you tried. you did a good thing.
if your brainie let you think it was meant with bad, don’t listen to it. read it again, as if it’s from someone who loves you. (ps, it is ❤️). i’m just trying to show you a different perspective, because it’s not all gone nadia. you’re more loved around here than you know. i promise. *offers a hug* 🩷
I think it’s a bit more unclear here-
@iloveyouxx
(Is it okie to respond here?😮)
(Awww I'm glad you found it to be beautiful hehe, Nadiaabeaniee, you're soooo beautiful and you deserve the beautiful-most things in the world🥺🥰)
(Forums ruin quality upon uploading of the graphics sometime smh, would you like a link to the graphic in a better quality?😮💗 I can share here or in our chat-space forum hehe)
(I love youu🤗💗)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
sunnies :o ofccc it iss :0💞
sunbeannieee🥺💖not you switching this to mee :')💜we're trying to appreciate *youuuu* fren💕🥺me thinks sunbuddy is a v appreciate-able persun😛💗
oo if a link shows your ✨masterpeice✨clearer than sure xD a link sounds great hehe💜
lovee youu morreee always🥺🤗💖
and fren yous vv welcome here :0🤍 *pulls you outta brackets* xD🤍I didn't think I made hoomans feel unwelcomed :')🤍me just didn't think anyone wanted to be here🤍.
but sunbuddybeann has a special VIP pass XD😛💗frendos get special VIP pass🫡💞cos I'm only frens w VIPs xD💝/lh