in the wonders of my mind💗.

he travels all the time

for "work"-

dud got fired for whatever *** he was doing and still travels for "work"..(sorry)

incase it’s not clear :')💜he doesn’t actually travel for work🩷 

he gets the whole family going at me tho.

because "he’s working all day and I’m here- *s i t t i n g*😱"

….

…

4am-

don’t we just love getting up to some good old toxicity at 4am-

..

Im gonn go back to resting my eyes..

mm.. :') I’ve been goin ".." a lot but it’s been my only mood lately-

my dad got hired-

a bit coincidental isn’t it :')

I watched a horror movie this morning-

my attempt at coping✨

I’ve been thinking about when we were gonna move.

I woke up early to my dad talking about it.

I got a lot from that convo..

It was for work ofc. but he was talking about the schools and all that too.

he’d already found a school too. asked what year group I was in to check for prices-

and then he got hired here :')

so I’m back to overthinking everything. :>

I’m gonna go read about suicide again..

It’s the only thing that comforts me-

without comforting me.

_{I have weird coping mechanisms :D.}

what’s a suicide bomb attack-

I should probably start using tws T^T

omg this is so sad :')

why do I do this to myself…

TvT-

nononono-

mm I think this is the part where I tear myself apart to be the version of me I’m expected to be.

sounds exciting does it not :>

I do it cos I’m scared.

of- literally everything :')

I’ve always been just that.

scared..