in the wonders of my mind💗.

I’m scared of me.

I’m scared of them.

I’m scared of the dark.

_{of the future.}

of the past.

_{of attention.}

of judgement.

and opinions.

of him.

of all the what ifs becoming reality.

I’m scared of teachers.

and students.

and that *** counselor.

I’m scared of the sound of silence.

and the unknown.

but loud is triggering.

and *knowing* isn’t fun.

I’m scared of being alone.

but I’m scared of being around others.

and crowded spaces.

I’m scared of getting hurt.

and being put in risky situations.

yet I tear myself apart.

and put myself in one.

every single day.

@LoveMyMoonflowers

🩷

hi lovely💜

@iloveyouxx

hi friend <3 *hugs you if okay* i’m sorry i haven’t replied to your previous posts yet ): i’ll try to do so when i can :') <3 

@LoveMyMoonflowers

awe💜the one in the corner :0💕? and the one a couple pages before this💜? It’s okie fren🩷you’re free to take as much time as you need💕they’ll always be there for you to reply to💕hugs are okie <3 squeezies yous tight <33💕

@iloveyouxx

*huggles you tightttttt* your so sweet 🥺 thank you for being so understanding friend <3 

I love how people think they can mess with me-

lie right to me.

I’m an easy target.

sure-

and I’ve never- not even a single time- hurt anyone on purpose- physically or mentally.

but I know I have.

I broke someone’s whole lower jaw- when I was 6. without even touching them. I didn’t lay a single finger on them. I got in no trouble and we were still friends.

how can you break someone’s lower jaw without even touching them. Idk.

mmm 18 notifications :')

@iloveyouxx

it’s okie to take your time with them, Nadsey beanie. <3 Me sure your buddies will understand. 💖

I literally just blinked- they were 3…