@amiableBunny4016 space
Hi everyone,
Im gonna be posting here every week. So.. you may or may not have seen my poems across 7cups or my writing. Anyways, if you have not then thats okay.
Let me introduce myself. You can call me Bunny/Violet/Bun Bun. I am from the UK and I am 13 years old. So I came here to inspire, to love, to show kindness and to be respected. The biggest power on this planet is love and kindness. Humanity is in a state of disaster. Panic. Hatred. But hate never beats love. Because love has more power than hate.
I was bullied for over 6 years. I learnt alot across the years. I learnt to overcome. Learnt to love. Learnt to forgive. I am human. I am not a robot. I am not a stranger anymore. I am me. And if people wanna judge me for who I am then I say.... I forgive them. And I know that they can change.
Like Martin Luther King once said, “Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”
Humanity is changing. The world is awakening. And more and more people are realising the reality. The reality of social media. The reality of trauma. The reality of life. This is who we are. And together we form as 1.
We live in a big world. Scary. Isn't it? But its to beautiful. Its so beautiful how the sun rises. How then stars glimmer every night. How the wind howls. Isn't it? and we dont realise how beautiful it really is until..... we think about it. Think deeply about it and you will find how beautiful it is.
If your feeling alone right now. just know that.....
Your strong. Even if you dont believe it.
Your worthy. Even if you dont believe it.
You can get through this.
I am here for you.
We are here for you.
Thanks for reading, This is me, Bunny and this is my world.
Take care,
Bunny
merry christmas to those celebrating. have fun. <3
@amiableBunny4016
merry Christmas bunny bean! <3
Merry Christmas to both of you
I just read the 13 year old me introduction to this forum . It's absolute cringe.
@amiableBunny4016 What makes you say it's cringe? There was a lot of hope in it 💙 but I know that a lot of things have gotten worse in your world 😞
@mytwistedsoul
No it's not that I like the message I wrote. I just find it cringe the way I wrote it 😭
@amiableBunny4016 You could ask if you could rewrite it or edit it :) they'll let you. I know other people who have done that. Maybe have it written up before hand tho
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah hahaha. Honestly I have lots of things I wrote in the past. 🙈 I find it funny tbh. 😭 I have stories I wrote from childhood . There is one about kittens getting lost and adopted. Lmao.
@amiableBunny4016 Tbh I have things on my threads that are cringe too. Those omg what the h*LL was I thinking moments 😬
Aww so the kittens were lost and found their furever homes ❤️ Sounds cute 🙂 Based on a true story?
@mytwistedsoul
haha! nooo! it was out of my childhood imagination. i had actually read a book about kittens as a kid and i kinda just wrote a shortened version (silly me). i have lots of cringy stories from when i was 7-8. i have one about witches kidnapping princesses and children being locked in prison T_T (children being locked in prison was out of my own trauma of my mom and dad telling me that i would get locked in prison if i misbehaved). and random haunted houses stories. haha.
@amiableBunny4016 I think they sound interesting *except for the prison part of course* but I think it's really cool that you were writing stories at a young age 😊 Do you still write stories now? And haunted house stories are kind of awesome tbh. I'm gonna have to look for these 😊💙
@mytwisedsoul
haha. they all start with**once upon a time, there was a girl named (whatever name i put) and her favourite colour was *whatever colour i put* . She had *a colour i put* hair and *colour* eyes**.
i dont write stories like i used to . i will have to get back into doing it some day. i was thinking of doing something like rewriting them but in the style i write now.
Okay so I really need to clarify something since some teens are getting very confused. I do NOT have a listener account . Yes, there is a listener account with the name 'bunny' in it :) but it's NOT me. Someone even sent a message to that listener account thinking it was me 💜😭 guys I'm 14. That listener account is one of my friends accounts on here.
@Amiablebunny4016 ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Hi Sun! ☀️ What's up buddy? You alright? It's a surprise to see you 🙈 long time no see.
@amiableBunny4016
Haha yes, I'm doing okie. Been less around lately, probably why this seems like a "surprise" lol. (': but but just wanted to let the sweetest Bunny know that I'm thinking of her often and rooting for her always. ❤
Sending more hugs. 🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
How are you Sun?
@amiableBunny4016
Hehe that's okay. I'm certain you're doing your best to get through it and be as fine as possible.💜
Same hehe, getting through it too. Trying to slow down and pace myself a little more, as this year comes to an end soon. (': Been a rollercoaster xD and unfortunately I'm not an adventurous persun.😂 ehhhh, we'll swing through the ups and downs just fine though.💪(hopefully xD)
How's Bunny feeling about year ending/ new year approaching soonsiees? :0
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Nice to hear your starting to slow down and all that . Hope the new year brings more happiness and joy for all.
Eh, don't feel anything. Honestly the years mean nothing to me. Everyday is harder to get through. I can't be bothered to think about the years. Even an hour feels like forever. Life falls into a new rhythm when you live in an abusive household. I get used to it.
@amiableBunny4016
Aw I hear you, Bunny, thinking about the years is likely not in mind when one is struggling to just get through the day, and heyyy, days count, we can always take it one day at a time, and even one hour or one breath at a time, always at our pace, whatever feels most feasible and within our reach.
Being here counts and trying your best does too. You've held yourself so strongly throughout, fighting through so much on a daily, emerging stronger than ever, and possibly the bestest sister to your lil brother. You've been an inspiration and a strong pillar of motivation to many here too, sweet Bunny friend. I admire you lotsss and super proud of you always.
It's okay to not be bothered about other things, your safety and wellbeing is most important and I pray things get really better for you someday. Keep holding on tight, till then, okie?! Hope might be a scary thing to hold onto, but so far, I've experienced it's the one thing really really powerful to cling tightly to, it turns bleak on us sometimes, and other times just hard to continue holding onto, but even then, it's worth holding on and I'm sending you all the strength to carry forward.
Here's also hoping, you have many brighter, better, happier and safer days in store. No one deserves to get used to abuse of any kind, certainly not you, the most special bunny ever. 💜
@amiableBunny4016
😊🤗💜
@gentleemperor
I dont know if you still there or if you still on cups 🥺 but i hope you come across this. you have been in my thoughts 💕 i miss you so much and bunny never forget about you 💜 *sending hugs if okay* Long time no see 💕 you are amazing and you were always so supportive and lovely during my newbie years hehe 🥺 your in my thoughts and i hope your okay 💜
*** family issues. *** excuse isn't it? To get violent with me. Like *** off man. I don't care. Like why does she have to blame it on me? I can't do anything if my dad's family have her trauma. My life is *** enough. Blame it all on me.
@amiableBunny4016 😞 Doesn't she ever give it a rest? I'm sorry you have to deal with this everyday
@mytwistedsoul
nope. and on top of that... my brother is having a tantrum and pulling my hair
@amiableBunny4016 Geez louise - did somebody pee in both of their weaties this morning? Maybe pop into the bathroom for a few minutes - will his tantrum wind down then?
@mytwistedsoul
... life is great. i have officially become an abusive sister.
@amiableBunny4016 You're not 💙 you're reaching a breaking point. I think you're a very good big sister how does her best to keep her brother safe
@mytwistedsoul
i hit him. i strangled him. i shounted at him. its abusive either way. i've become what i feared the most. im sick of everyone. i hate this. i hate me. i cant do this. he keeps fighting back. moms doing her own ***.
@amiableBunny4016 It's ok to walk away from him for a little Bunny. Take a few moments for yourself to catch your breath and calm down. Everyone reaches a breaking point and we act without giving a thought to what we do. That doesn't mean we've turned into what we hate most ok?
@mytwistedsoul
this is what i will be for the rest of my life. this is what i became. 14 years old. and became this *** *** girl. everyone says i should apologise... sure i will. i can do that. its easy to convince a 10 year old and say sorry.
what if i become my mother? what if her story becomes mine?
@amiableBunny4016 Her story won't become yours because you see her for what she is. You are in control of what you become. I know it seems hard to believe because you're at her mercy but it's true. I'm nothing like my parents - that's one thing I can say with certainty
If turning into her is something you're afraid of you'll work hard not to. Was there a reason for his tantrum? Maybe he should say he's sorry for his behavior too?
@mytwistedsoul
idk. he has become emotional. he gets angry so quickly over small things. i dont blame him honestly. life is hard enough. he became emotional over a charger/plug i told him not to touch because it was dangerous. T-T honestly.
eh, i dont make him apologise. sometimes he does it himself. sometimes he ignores me for a few days just to make me do it.
@amiableBunny4016 You're right. I didn't think of that. Everything that affects you would affect him too and with him being younger - he probably doesn't have the ability to express himself in words as much. It says something though that he'll say he's sorry on his own
@mytwistedsoul
he doesnt even talk about feelings anymore. even when i try to talk him through stories. or use games or superheroes to talk him into feelings or emotions . he wont talk about it. i try to encourage him. but at the same time i dont want to push him. i just..... want to be there. but its almost like... idk. some days.. he says he hates me. recently , he has started fighting me more for no reason. but honestly... idk. i just.... have nothing to say. because he is emotionally dying. and so am i.
and of course... i cant blame anyone. but myself
honestly. i dont want anything from her.... i dont want love. or happiness. i dont want attention. i dont care if she abandons us. i just want her.. to freaking stop being so violent . but anyways... it will work out somehow. i just have to deal with it for now.
but anyways.... how are you doing? haha. im offloading alot of imformation. <3 *sending hugs if okay*
@amiableBunny4016 He might not even know how he feels. He could be confused. He's probably angry at how things are and confused as to why things are that way and why she's doing the things she is. You should all be in some sort of counseling or something to work through all this
@mytwistedsoul
yeah. hehe <3 i know depression can be so *** hard :( and it sucks. you got this soul *sends lots of good vibes* always here to talk soul <3 i pop into your threads too and me understand there is alot of struggles :( you is awesome and i just wanted to thank you for all your support and love! your kindness means more than the world to me
@amiableBunny4016 It does suck - big time
@mytwistedsoul
yeah. hehe <3 i know depression can be so *** hard :( and it sucks. you got this soul *sends lots of good vibes* always here to talk soul <3 i pop into your threads too and me understand there is alot of struggles :( you is awesome and i just wanted to thank you for all your support and love! your kindness means more than the world to me