Tree's Diary

@mytwistedsoul

"Sometimes it seems like the harder you try to find them - the farther they retreat." -- that is so true!!

C - "Maybe you've witnessed their reactions with other people and you've a pretty good idea that the assessment isn't going to be very nice"

Do you mean to say that you hear people talking about the interactions they've had with you, to other people?

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I understand why you'd hate saying that (maybe because it feels like you're saying "I'm glad you're injured" xD), but fwiw, I don't glean any negative sentiment from that sentence. I'm trying to say that I personally don't think that's a bad thing to say :)

Self-confidence...may be it. Getting yourself to trust you is difficult, isn't it? It often feels like that requires a leap of faith.

(I hope you're doing alright<3)

@loyalTree3713 I've been trying to figure out how to reply. But I'm not sure how tbh. The words are there but I can't use them. I'm alittle uncomfortable saying too much more because I'm afraid it leaves me open to trouble and I'm afraid that I've allready said too much that will come back to bite me. This place isn't as safe for me as it is other people. I'm trying to not upset anyone. I'm sorry - please know it's nothing personal. I do really appreciate you talking with me

@mytwistedsoul

Nah, that's totally ok! I think I understand that feeling a bit (feeling like you shouldn't have said as much as you did), but I'm also sure that my understanding of that is limited :)

How is your ankle??

@loyalTree3713 You're exactly right! That is exactly the feeling. Thank you for understanding :)

The ankle is better but aches most days. Thank you for asking! How are you these days Tree?

@mytwistedsoul

:) ofc!!

ah, a persistent ankle ache sounds difficult to deal with -- is the pain getting less intense/more bearable over time?

(I'm doing alright. I'm kinda excited because I'm getting to travel a bit over the next few days. So, my mood's been really good!)

@loyalTree3713 Hey :) woohoo! Traveling sounds really exciting and I hope you have an awesome trip! It's great that it's helped your mood ❤️

@mytwistedsoul

Thank you!!! The trip has been good so far :))

Yoohoo- it is healing!! Is the itch still there??

A surgery would have been serious. I am glad it was not that severe phew.

<3

@loyalTree3713 Hey :) Just popping in to see how you're doing

@NoneTheWiser

Thank you, Wize! I was slightly spiralling on Monday (just slightly, hehe) and reading this moments after it was posted, stopped that spiral. I swear a part of me went "wha aww-" xD

Thank you for your very kind words. Truly.

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alsoooo, how is you??

@NoneTheWiser

I am not apologizing for the late reply (because you probably would ask me not to hehe), but I do owe an explanation: I have been travelling to areas with poor internet connectivity so 😅

"I just stepped out of an alternate dimension, lol!" -- exactly that! If one was shooting a movie, your appearance would be the one that takes even the cameraperson by surprise :p

Ah, I am glad that you are doing wellll and more so, that you are on cups because you feel a positive (almost) tangible effect to being on here :)

@mytwistedsoul

Heyy! I'm doing alright. Actually pretty good today! I did much better at something than I thought I would, and I'm in a dazed state of "wow, I have skills?" xD

How are you keeping?

@loyalTree3713 Hey! I'm glad to hear that you're doing all right and it sounds like an awesome day. I have to admit I loled alittle because that happens to me sometimes. That wonderful surprise of oh wow it worked! That's so cool Tree :) it does leave a person dazed but it's really exciting too!

@mytwistedsoul

thanks so much! haha yeah, it's an absolutely brilliant feeling -- like how you would feel if you received a tiny surprise gift from yourself xD

@loyalTree3713 It's closer to two months now :/ I was hoping to get It off sooner but they said the ligaments need alittle longer to heal - ugh

I hope you have more of those surprise gift moments like that Tree ❤️

I hope this week is going good for you

@mytwistedsoul

wow, that's a looooong time, I can see why you'd want it off soon. Though it sounds like, this way, your ligaments would have properly healed and I'm sooo happy to hear that<3

(thank you!!)

@mytwistedsoul

Hiiii, how is your ankle now?? And how are you keeping?<3

(You're in my thoughts.)

@loyalTree3713 Hey you :) Cast comes off next week! Woo hoo! I am so excited! lol

I'm sorry - I meant to reply - I wanted to but I didn't want to be a pain in the butt - anxiety got to me 😬

How are you Tree? It's nice seeing you again ❤️

@mytwistedsoul

(Re: cast) yusssssssss, i'm so excited for you!!! That's just 5 days more lezgoooo~

(Re:anxiety) ahaha, that's okay :) I've been there a few (or more) times myself.

I'm doing surprisingly alright, it feels like things are stable in my life for the first time in quite a while.

@loyalTree3713 Hey that's great Tree! I'm so glad to hear that things are stable. I hope it stays that way. Go you! ❤️ Many good things are waiting for you!

@mytwistedsoul

thank youu!!!

ahaha yes, maybe the happy dance can wait a bit :p