Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
***.
yesterday they were making jokes about *** and i was just sitting there quietly like…..
lmao. people are.. interesting.
some people don’t *** care.
i just realised this wouldn’t count as yesterday because it’s 4 am so the next days begun lmao 🙄
it’s 4 am, the time my thoughts start to go literally all over the place, and my emotions are all over the place. when im wide awake
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's been kind of a stressful day for you 😞 what if you laid down and closed your eyes and listen to some soft music?
@mytwistedsoul no it’s ok.
hmm yeah i do like to listen to soft music sometimes but can’t right now. um. i have to be able to hear other stuff to be a lil alert 💜 hope that makes sense..
@LoveMyMoonflowers It makes perfect sense. I'm sorry you have to be alert like that Moon 😞 It sucks that there always has to be vigilance
@mytwistedsoul hey 💜 it’s okay. you don’t gotta worry about me too much. it’s nothing too bad, im ok
@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm glad you're ok 💙 it would be nice if we could just relax and sleep. Peaceful and quietly. 8 hours. Can you imagine?
@mytwistedsoul 💜 mhm.
lol i slept lots yesterday.
it must be almost 9 over there. did you eat something soul? 💜 i hope your day was ok.
@LoveMyMoonflowers Hey that's good! I'm glad you got some sleep yesterday 💙
@mytwistedsoul thanks friend 💜 what about you? (no pressure) i hope your able to get some rest now soul. *sends sleepy beams and peaceful vibes*
that's good 💜 uh with the water idk. 🤪 i wasn’t paying attention… didn’t drink too much tho. Come to think of it, probably didn’t drink enough either. Wbu?
oh dear. 💜 i'm used to heat and humidity since it’s the Middle East. but it is honestly 😝 lol. Right now it’s 96 F here. how hot does it get there in July? it's much hotter here in August 🙄 i think they even have holidays for local school kids sometimes, if it’s too much. idk tho
i don’t know soul, it was just a day. no adjectives really.
*sends good vibes and love to you*
i feel lil switchy
💀
😂 did my brain js say “oh crappo wappo”
cats fighting outside.
it's really weird, i haven’t heard this in a while. either that or i haven’t been paying attention
breathe.
just…. breathe.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sprinkle sleepy for Nii 🌙🥧☺*
@VictoriaLove7 thank you 🌈🧸
Im sorry ni
@DarkerPlaces hey rome 💜 *sits with you*
you don’t have to be sorry about anything okay buddy? *hugs if okay* 💜
(friend check our talkie corner i left a small note. <3)
Hugs
@DarkerPlaces *hugs* 💜
i can’t be what people want and expect me to be.
they’re happier that way, but i don’t know how to do it.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii 🌙🥧🥺 doesn't have to please others, Nii 🌙🥧 be anything you want to be \(^-^)/
@VictoriaLove7
💜
anymore.
i think… i did something stupid and now im scared.
@_@
@LoveMyMoonflowers *sits with you* 💙 Do you want to talk about it? No pressure of course. No judgement either 💙
@mytwistedsoul i think i overshared about something on here awhile ago, but idk. And ik anybody can lurk and read my stuff.
@LoveMyMoonflowers You can always flag it and mark it as other and explain why you'd like it removed - idk if that helps or not
@mytwistedsoul yeah i might some of it is in white text though so i gotta copy/paste it to read it lol too lazy to do that right now.
<3 thanks soul.
how are things with you friend? how’s life? (No pressure) 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers You're welcome 💙
I'm alright I guess. Thank you for asking. Listening to a thunderstorm right now.
How are you?
Actually if I'm honest idk how I am 😅
Sad - just - sad
@mytwistedsoul *hugs Soul tight* 💜
I'm going to be honest too 💜 you have sounded sad to me… 🥺 Idk just a feeling that you’ve been sad, i guess. i'm so sorry 😔 i know there’s a lot of things going on. I probably don’t understand all of it but i know life is really hard and exhausting, at times. Maybe even all the time honestly. there’s always something isn’t there… And the sadness lingers with us. or we might just not know, or be unsure.
I have been a bit worried about you friend. :') *sitting with you* 💜
hey 💜 i hope i didn’t say too much or misunderstand. thinking about you.
<3
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's funny how we can pick up on emotions even in what we type. It's not just me and the things I. dealing with that make me sad. What you wrote about how life is hard and exhausting. I know you're dealing with things too Moon. It comes at random times doesn't it? The weight of everything. The weight of growing up - the weight of the future. Just the weight of being. I've been worried about you a little too tbh. And Bunny and Eva ( I'm hoping I'm reading things wrong there) and ILy
@mytwistedsoul Yeah 💜 it is a bit strange.
i think i know what you mean… (or maybe i don’t and just went off on some direction.)
we do deal with our own things, we have our own lives, our own stories, demons, things that haunt us and stay with us. things from childhood thst is basically the foundation for everything that happens later. Idk what it’s like being an adult. i’ve just been on this earth, for 14 almost 15 years. but i know that things that have happened seem to stay with us, in the form of depression, anxiety, and others. we have…. own everything. and it’s hard to understand oneself sometimes.
but when you have a friend.. and you meet them, and slowly a friendship begins to bloom, and they just kind of become a piece of you in a way. it’s hard letting people in, it might hurt even. It’s hard saying goodbye, letting people go, letting family go, letting go people who weren’t bio family but felt like real family. And it hard and does hurt to see people get hurt, and they’re not doing ok. really not okay - people we have become attached to and we have been loving and caring about them. It’s kind of like a piece of us hurting and sad. and we are just there far away and can’t do much about it.
(Idk if it’s like this for you, or others but this is my experience.. <3)
…And you’re absolutely right honestly, it really does come at random times. The weight, i mean. It’s kind of weird.. :') i mean lots of things are weird to me. Idk how to explain it
Well… you just asked. so i suppose that should count hehe 💜 But other than that no not really. but it’s okay. Idk what i want - peace? Just peace, maybe. I think.. no. not think. well, actually, when i wrote that post I was just thinking about my home life. CW religion - I’ve grown up in a christian household. it’s been really.. confusing, at times. Since i was little. I’ve learnt what i should be, what i’m supposed to be. And i’m not really any of that. …Lots of confused, angry, guilty, sick emotions when I think about my home life and the religion tbh. sigh. i think I’m bitter about some things and hate myself for it..
well anyways… sorry lol 💜 Wrote an essay (again).
Lots of love to you soul. the question made me cry lol, not really sad tears tho i guess. <3 Idk. *sends sleepy beams* I hope you’ll get some rest tonight. <3