Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
it’s just too much sometimes…
:/
or not sometimes…
always.
its always too much.
im so tired.
idk my health… physically… it’s starting to scare me a bit
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii 🌙🥧🥺 perhaps get some rest
but who cares
@LoveMyMoonflowers We care 💙
@mytwistedsoul i second that^ 🩷
@mytwistedsoul +1.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
rainbow bear 🌈🧸 too 🥺, Nii 🌙🥧
@mytwistedsoul @unassumingEyes @slowdecline48 @VictoriaLove7
💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii 🌙🥧🤗🌈🧸
@LoveMyMoonflowers 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers 🩵🤍
:/
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*rainbow bear 🌈🧸 also sits with Nii 🌙🥧 & huggiess Nii 🌙🥧💜🥺*
me found this for Nii 🌙🥧🌈🧸
@VictoriaLove7
hugs <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers What's on your mind Moon Pie? Is there something we can do to help? 💙
@mytwistedsoul
no friend it’s okay 💜 …idk. i was just feeling a little lonely tbh. lol. and some other things but 🤪 i’m okie really
@LoveMyMoonflowers Loneliness sucks tbh 😞 and then when I'm around people I think this is why I'd rather be alone 😅 and some other things? No pressure or anything but you're welcome to share 💙 but it's also understandable if you'd rather not too
*offers safe hugs* not that they're a cure all but sometimes it's nice to imagine 💙
@mytwistedsoul
well… i think loneliness and being alone are different. and solitude is different. at least for me their connotations seem different 😅 might mean different things to different people i guess. but you can be surrounded by people everywhere and still be lonely inside. like when you pretend… what people see, that’s one thing. the way things truly are, is kept hidden. i read this quote somewhere “loneliness is the absence of connection, not company” i think that’s true tbh but idk
i’m talking too much 😶
*accepts hugs and sends some back* 💜 if it’s ok to ask, how are you soul? 💜 earlier you said you weren’t doing so ok, with some health issues :( i hope your doing better friend (no pressure to respond)
@LoveMyMoonflowers That makes a lot of sense actually and even if you have a connection to someone - if it's not the right connection - it would still feel lonely. You're right. It's really hard for you being home schooled 😞 but then again if you're bullied at school it can be a life saver too. Do you have any opportunities to join a club or a group with people your age? Or would you rather not do that? ( both are understandable imo 😅)
@mytwistedsoul
yeah your right. there are some connections that aren’t really good for us i guess so even if we had those connections if they weren’t… really healthy or they weren’t really right or idk 😅 yeah we would feel lonely. loneliness is so confusing tbh. it’s like almost everything is confusing in some way… when you try to look into yourself and reflect and try to understand what’s going on in your own head and heart it can be so messy, and so confusing. sometimes we don’t know how we are doing but trying to find out how we are doing deep down inside is… kinda messy and painful. or idk. i feel like nothing im saying makes sense 🤪 sorry to bother you soul 😅
…home schooling is different for everyone, really. for me i think it's better than going to an in person school. i’ve joked sometimes, that i’d die in an in person school. lmao. but yeah i think i would get bullied, my own cousins and relatives have bullied me… so what would kids i don’t even know do. because im just weird. i look weird and i talk weird and everything about me, my existence is just weird (according to my cousins and my brain). my mom and dad decided to homeschool me and my brother for two reasons and one of those reasons was bullying at school. my brother says he didn’t really get bullied but idk. honestly… i don’t remember much from those years but i know it was hard making and keeping friends.. and there was a bit of bullying.
i think homeschooling's basically when home life and school life are combined, they’re one and the same. it can be a good thing and a not so good thing at the same time 💜 hehe. :')
um i don’t think my parents would allow me 😅 idk if there are any clubs or groups here in the first place, there might be but i haven’t looked into that. honestly, if there were, and my parents allowed me… there would be huge debates going on in my head, about whether to go or not. :') im not sure i would ever reach a conclusion. or maybe i’d just go with the good old ‘nope’
ouh oof that’s not good, im sorry soul :( and yeah i get that - everything being the same 🤪 …this is why i have such a hard time in restaurants and those kinds of places. because sometimes i have to try something new and i don’t wanna do that. i guess we feel safer and better with what’s familiar? or idk 💜
i think if i were having an allergic reaction to familiar stuff i’d be a little afraid too :( sending healing beams your way soul 💜 and hugs if okie
no pressure to reply to my essay of course lol, i know i said a lot. :')
after posting it… that’s when you realise how long it actually is 😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers 😂 😅 I laugh but yep!
@LoveMyMoonflowers Everything IS confusing. I'm not sure if it's intentionally confusing or if we make it that way ourselves. Alot of things seem to come down to choices but sometimes what seems like or even feels like the right choice at the time - might in fact be the wrong choice. Which is even more confusing and then of course we need to add in the overthinking because why not?
@LoveMyMoonflowers *sits with u*🪑
@unassumingEyes
mhm thanks friend
……
when your friend whom you haven’t talked to in forever tells you they’re leaving cups
….
@LoveMyMoonflowers
>: a cups friends done the same thing to me before🩷for me it was a bit overwhelming and confusing? how do you feel about it tho💜? I can’t imagine it being anything good😞🤍
@iloveyouxx
…people come and go nadia. that’s kinda how it is. i’m just wondering… it was just so random… at least it felt random… im wondering whether they left cups in peace or they left because of meanie thoughts or something that happened here :( i hope they’re ok..
@LoveMyMoonflowers i think flowers...it was smth that happened here ❤️ ive seen frnd frustrated trying to get support and being told off. Or well- i havent *seen* it but frnd has complained about it and ive seen that- cups was making things worse i think 😞 hope friend finds peace irl ❤️
@unassumingEyes
and it's supposed to be an emotional support site 😞 :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*sits with Nii 🌙🥧🥺🌈🧸 & huggiess Nii 🌙🥧🥺*
@VictoriaLove7
*big hugs* how's you rainbow bear? 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*big hugs back Nii 🌙🥧🤗🌈🧸* me okie just coping with my father as always 🙄☺
@VictoriaLove7
ouh im sorry friend :( i’m glad your okie though, other than coping with your dad :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Thank you, Nii 🌙🥧🤗🌈🧸\(^-^)/ How's Nii 🌙🥧?
@VictoriaLove7
me doing okie right now i think, thank you friend 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
rainbow bear 🌈🧸 is vv glad that Nii 🌙🥧 is doing okie \(^-^)/
@LoveMyMoonflowers My thoughts exactly!
@mytwistedsoul
lol :') there is so much to do but i have no motivation 😭 :') so im procrastinating :)
@LoveMyMoonflowers You're not alone there. I have so many things I should do too. Currently I am having a glass of iced tea on the porch 😉
@mytwistedsoul
lol :') *sends motivational beams to soul*
aww that’s nice 💜 i hope your enjoying your iced tea
@LoveMyMoonflowers *sending motivation to you too* 💙 Thank you! I doubt I'll do much more today - have half a headache 😬 Its good iced tea - do you drink it?
@mytwistedsoul
*me wondering whether the motivation is sent in the form of beams because to me beams are edible* 🤔 it’s almost 10 pm here so im saving that motivation for later :P (there’s that word “later” again 😭)
aww what time is it there? (no pressure) i think it would be a little harder to get things done while you have a headache :( i hope it goes away soon, headaches are not fun at all :/
and no i rarely drink anything other than water :') and even with water… i need help @_@ i need to learn to drink more water lol
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's 3pm here. I'd wait until tomorrow if were you too. That's too late to start anything. Now's the time to start to relax and unwind in the hopes of getting some sleep or at least alittle rest
@mytwistedsoul
3 pm… and it’s 10 pm here. time zones are so… interesting lol. 💜 and yeah ill try to get some sleep tonight 💜 thank you soul. i hope you’ll get some rest too - when it’s sleepy time where you are 💜
i hate headaches too :( and colds and getting sick in general. :') i know drinking water does help with headaches lol but does drinking other stuff help too? *sends healing beams for your headache* smh meanie headaches :(
“we won’t lol but we should” facts :') 😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers Time zones are definitely weird that's for sure - kind of cool but weird
@mytwistedsoul
time zones are mostly weird and a very small part of them are cool. lol. that’s just my opinion tho. when i got back home… from the other side of the world, i actually realised how weird and crazy time zones are lol. it can take a while to recover and get used to the current time zone after travelling through so many of them 😭
thank you friend 💜 I hope so too. falling asleep is hard tbh and then after that… things happen in our sleep. in our dreams. :/
Dw Soul i make a horrible sick person too lol 😅 and i actually get colds pretty easily. :') Is it just me or the stuffed up nose, the blocked nose part and all that is the worst part :') it’s so hard to breathe then. And when you try to breathe with your mouth it feels all wrong and weird
it reminds me of this meme… it’s just really true lol at least for me. :')
Soul 🤔 i have another thing to reveal. They say…. sleep is good for us 🤔 interesting. 🤔 but yeah dehydration is definitely not good but it’s not like that motivates some of us to drink water? “dehydration isn’t good for you! it causes headaches and it causes this and it causes that! so drink water” me: ok 👍 those are some nice facts and all but *doesn’t drink water*
Yay now that’s something i can eat. *eats magic sleepy dust* thank you 💜
Sorry Moon Pie is being a silly girl 🤪 and it's nighttime 🤪
I wrote you another essay….. your welcome 😎🤪✨
@LoveMyMoonflowers I remember once upon a time when notices worked alittle better than they seem to now. 😕
@LoveMyMoonflowers @mytwistedsoul
*randomly barges in because i too can’t bring myself to drink enough water* the recommended water intake (for 14-18yo girls) being 1.6 litres (*** it’s debatable, that’s just what i found first on google lol (i feel like such a nerd saying everything i said o_o)) seems impossible to me- like you’re lucky if i drink a full cup a day xD but the reason i actually barged in is that what i discovered, is that i drink water much better from a bottle rather than a cup. i have no idea what the logic behind that is but that’s how it is for me. who knows maybe i’m not the only one who that trick works on 🤔
@justmeeva Hey! 😊 I had to lol at your random barging in 🤭 Definitely not a nerd either thats for sure. 💙 We'll just blame it on Google! That seems like an awful lot of water! 😯 I don't think I drink even a cup a day tbh 😬
@mytwistedsoul
I hope it helps you too soul friend 💜
@justmeeva
1.6 litres is a lot :') and dw i don’t think you sound like a nerd or anything either 💜 but your right about the bottles eva bean - your not alone there hehe. i use a water bottle too and it’s definitely easier to drink more water with that
i think it’s because you have to keep re-filling cups to drink from them and most of us maybe can’t push ourselves to do that? lol idk i wouldn’t be able to push myself to fill a cup over and over and over. a water bottles just more convenient somehow 😅 i manage to drink….. a little….. water…. :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me also like that Nii 🌙🥧☺
@VictoriaLove7
hehe i think a lot of us are 😅
@LoveMyMoonflowers
rainbow bear 🌈 🧸 procrastinate studying until months since me initially plan 🤭
