Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
i didn’t ask to exist.
@LoveMyMoonflowers I don't think any of us asked to exist but here we are.... trying to make sense of it all. What's on your mind my friend?
@mytwistedsoul
a lot (': idk how to talk about anything. i think i’m going to leave cups tbh. Idk.
@LoveMyMoonflowers Did something happen to make you want to leave? You're welcome to share if you'd like but there's no pressure either.
I had read earlier that you had read something. That something seems to have upset you.
While I would hate to see you leave, I also understand that we need to do what's best for us. You would be missed a great deal
@mytwistedsoul
yeah, a few things happened (': and they’re my fault. 💙 hehe.
mhm… it did. but it’s fine… idk. at this point everything would be described as fine.
idk - i’m still thinking about it. i don’t think i’ll be missed after a while, definitely not in teenie land.
@LoveMyMoonflowers I realized a few years ago that it's very easy for things to be misunderstood when communication is strictly text based. I've also learned that some people will find fault with everything you say. Can what happened be smoothed over in anyway? If it involves other people are they open to discussing it with you?
What about a small break from here?
In my world fine usually means anything but fine. ;)
@mytwistedsoul
I’m not sure. There’s one thing I’ve noticed that I don’t think I misunderstood. I could have - maybe - but it’s most likely what I thought is true. 💜 It’s that… thing… I read. That I mentioned in this forum (':
Tbh we can talk about it but whenever I see the people involved the conversations are just awkward. I feel like I can’t talk to them anymore, I don’t want to be annoying or upset them more than I already did.
I might take a break (': from rooms… I’m not sure. 💙
Fine never means fine tbh… your right (': when we say fine we usually mean the acronym version of fine. 🥲
How are things in your world friend? 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers It might help to give them some space and then try to talk with them again in a few days. Or if you can find a way to talk without having everyone else involved. Which you could try in the forums, just put a line at the top that it's just for you and the other person. Most people will respect that and those that don't you can have their comments removed. Just some suggestions of course.
@mytwistedsoul
thank you soul buddy. 💙 sending hugs your way if okie.
Ah there’s that word again (': fine. 💜 sometimes i wish more people IRL knew the true meaning of fine. it’s the same thing with ‘nothing.’ ‘Nothing’ hardly ever means nothing.
i’m sorry. grief is tough and i get that. 😞 *offers more hugs* here if you need to talk more, but no pressure ofc. 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers You're very welcome. Thank you for the hugs. I know that many times things are easier said than done and a lot depends on the other person being receptive to what we're saying. I hope things work out between you and this other person.
@mytwistedsoul
Thank you (': I hope things work out too. 💙
The role reversal thing is common, I’m sure - on the teenie side. But when these listeners became more passive aggressive and demanding (': I haven’t experienced that with anyone tbh. 💜
sometimes i wish i could ‘donate’ my life to someone who still wants to be here. in this world. someone who is still loved. someone who is still wanted and needed.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii 🌙🥧😟 *hugs if okie*🫂🌙🥧😟
@VictoriaLove7
*hugs you* 🫂 *squeezies* 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs Nii 🌙🥧* 🫂 *squeezie back*🌙🥧☺
@VictoriaLove7
Nii loves you vvv much, rainbow bear. 💜 thank you for being here. 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii 🌙🥧🥺🫂 thank *you* for being here with rainbow bear.. Nii stay 🌙🥧🥺🫂 *squeezie*
Words sting.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
they can if hurt for for sure
Cups seems quiet today
@LoveMyMoonflowers *makes some noiseee* :p
Hi hi Niibuddyyy!🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
hi sunnie bean…
@LoveMyMoonflowers how's you doing today, Niibuddy?🤗💛
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
eh… idk. surviving. trying. idk. hru sunn buddy? 🥺
@LoveMyMoonflowers
*hugs tighttt* surviving and trying is great, Niibuddy, you're doing vv amazing.💛
I've been better hehe, trying also. *keeps hugging* I love youu!💛
@sunisshiningandsoareyou
*hugglesss backkkk tight* 💜 i get that. life is hard, but me proud of you for trying. me proud of us for trying together. 💙 i love you more. 💜
maybe talking to someone about it/writing in a journal would help? 🥺 please be kind to yourself too. 💙 ik it can be hard especially when everything’s just… meh (': but we need to try. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
aww you're too sweeeeeet, Niibuddy, thank youuuuu so much, this means a lot to me. *keeps hugging tighttt* 😭 yes hehe trying is brave and we got thisss, together.💪💛
(If me account poofs for some time, please don't worry okie, I'll be back always xD) (haven't decided yet, but might put account on breaksiees for a little while~ thinking🥲)
@sunisshiningandsoareyou
awwe hehe ty for letting me know, that’s okie. 💙 it’s good if we take self-care breaks. <3 just promise you’ll absolutely take care of yourself okie? 🥺
That bear is so cute. lol.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Yes yes hehe, wouldn't want anyone to worry about me unnecessarily. (':
Aww why you so cutuu. 😭 I take my promises vv seriously. To be honest, currently not in the bestest headspace to take care of myself so wouldn't wanna promise something I cannot honor truthfully 🤧 but but I promise to try my best, that's for sure, always and you can always trust Sunniebean for trying hehe. 💖
Bless your loving, caring, big heart, Niibuddy. 🥺💖
Yes lol, the bear is vv cutu and so is this penguin haha, made me smile so much, you always do. 🥰 Please continue to try your best and be gentle with yourself also, okieee. 🥺💖
@sunisshiningandsoareyou
we’re humans and we’re not perfect. trying is good, sunnie bean. 💙 and yes i definitely trust you with trying your vvv best. 🥺 me will try too. 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers yes hehe, you da bestest!💛💛💛
Trying hard to not regress. 😓
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs you tight* 💛 I'm not sure if forumland might feel like a comfortable option (': but, you always have our lil corner when little Nii needs a comfy safe space to hidey or stay or talk or *be*, okie, Niibuddy(?).💛
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
mhm… it’s okie I’m fine now i think. *hugs you* 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers im glad you're feeling fine-ish now.🤗💛 sleepy when, Niibuddy? I hope you get some rest soon. *sends sleepyyy beamssss*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
its almost 1 am so ill probably sleep…. Not very soon lol 😅
@LoveMyMoonflowers aw it is kinda late, mhm? (': hope the sleepy beams work super fast on you hehe. (I know I am totally annoying with this but I am lol and cannot help it, I want you to get some good rest soonsieees😭)
How was your day, Niibuddy? Any plans for tomorrow?🤗
We nommed cake today hehe, chocolate truffle flavor. Would you like some? *shares with youuu and the lovely people peeking at this conversation* xD 🎂
@sunisshiningandsoareyou
annoying? You? Never! 💜 it means a lot that you care sun buddy. <3 you not annoying. hehe. you sleeping soon? 😅
thank you for the food :o *noms* my day was eh… lots of jet lag… (': and me is sick. 💙 and yeah. tomorrow will probably consist of sleeping and trying to relax and idk… 💜 how about you? 🥺 did sunnie bean have an okiee/good day? 💕
Trust is so…
:')
@LoveMyMoonflowers
nonexistent
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Valuable, so only few are trustworthy.
(Happy New, Nii! 🌙🥧🦁☺)
@VictoriaLove7
happy new year rainbow bear! 🥺💕
@LoveMyMoonflowers
(*Nii 🌙🥧🦁☺ me just realized that I forgot to type 'year' in 'Happy New year ' hehe)
How's Nii? 🌙🥧🦁🫂
@VictoriaLove7
awwe hehe, that’s okie. 💜
Nii is… alive. 💙 how is rainbow bear? 🥺 your appreciation note was so sweet 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii 🌙🥧🦁☺ is alive & awesome & Nii will be kind to yourself 🤗
Rainbow bear is okie (but feel kind of itchy because of allergy hehe)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Thank you, Nii 🌙🥧🦁☺
It is some vitamin that me took, I think that contains some organic stuff ☺