Musings 6
Following after
https://www.7cups.com/forum/generalsupport/DiaryEntries_1597/THETAJFTOJSII_303933/
Less unwieldy a title than the last stream of diary entries. It has an origin, I might one day explain. I might do the Vocoroo links on here more often for which it'll mean all the more to me if they get feedback.
Still will be typing as typical on here as well.
=_= >_< >xI Flipping pain in the a-- ! to try to edit PDF files or try to convert them into Word files to better edit,merge etc or vice-versa, give or take finding websites were you can do that for free
I did this instead of the less environmentally consider print out the forms, fill them up via writing utensil and then go somewhere to get them scanned into one file.
Most of my expectant gym time was lost due to this
+ : but I biked plenty -- trying to go south east, I reach 'an eastern limit'*, go south which takes me to expectant residential area, keep going south but instead of the expectant 'escarpment'/suburb region I wind up somehow looping back `_` " ._. ? on the opposite side of the road I took to reach that 'eastern limit'.
Makes me hanker to gander at a map sometime.
* the start of hiking trail going south at the base of a bunch of highways going east and an oddly specific sign which I which I'd photographed of ~'$10,000 fine--no driver's ed cars beyond here' . Really ?! =~= like wth ??, is that ageist, classist or some other kind of dumba-- thinly veiled prejudice or snobbery ?
For the record my laptop absence issue halted yesterday whence I bought a barely used Apple laptop from my mother
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I found a hat but my brother lost a bike
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being complemented for my shirt at a thrift store and not being charged extra for something
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being too anxious or upset and flustered to speak to the kindly attempt at banter whilst in the elevator I came out of
disappointing remarks from a parent
I went to a thrift store hoping to find some headphones, the big 'cushiony' kind even if they have plugs which will well suit the workplace computer. I don't really give an ardent enough compliment to the clerk about my shirt which feels worse esp. since you didn't have to pay extra.
Big cushiony headphones still sought after..
I visit my mother to ask her if my gym bag could be repaired what with it's tears. She says no. I'm on the verge of packing up and she tells me ~'don't get angry' (-_- almost never a good thing if it starts off like that) but she tell's me how that if there's another vaccine mandate to not get another one even if job policy insists on it, that it's better to lose my job. She brings up my dad's apparent lack(?) of a vacccine and how he hasn't gotten sick.
I give a generic ~'I doubt their'll be another mandate and leave' thinking that if I'd taken say ~3 minutes less to pack up I could've averted that.
+: woke from a deep slumber
Stalling non-urgent desires to renew ID and buy headphones due to bedbug prospects >_< x_x
F--g s--ks to be confined on a lovely day to clean. Albeit, the light and heat being present is less of a deterrent than the same d--n confinement in winter
I wonder what neuropsych- affects follow from consuming green tea so soon (less than 2 hrs before) camomile ?, given how caffeine might not go well with something of a relaxant.
Even if it weren't for pornography use I'd still ask that.
At least got new cushioned, plug-in headphones '_' d..hate how on 'bad days' I"m more sensitive to fast food spending
Curse teeth staining from tea.
I think all not water, caloric,even non-alcoholic beverages strain the liver particularly.
I'm at this age where almost everyone around me either seems fairly older and 'over the hill' in the age, like my parent's age, pensioner's age and up or alternatively they're more or less the age of my one sometimes store clerk cousin and younger.
I remind myself that hypothetically in a not too overly dismal future when I'm a 'grey-head' I ought to(?) see as many greybeards around me as well and finally feel like I might relate to others, but I wouldn't hinge too much prospect on that as the continued quasi-brain drain trends of some schlock like trying to retire in Florida or somewhere else in an iffy political and climate change impacted area.
If things go accordingly tonight I'll suffer with a mask on for hours whilst various cleaning substance fumes subsume me as I'm taking precautions against pests but there's nowhere else to go, let alone safely as the sunsets on this neighborhood.
-_- ._. ..I'm hinging on scattered baking soda all around since (even if time spent applying it didn't bother me) mopping with Pinesol mixtures will leave fumes overnight and I'd need to wake early on to chat with the apartment rep about this. Come morning, apply Pinesol mixes.
Graciously, this isn't my scenario
https://www.reddit.com/r/TerrifyingAsFuck/comments/13lx99k/pest_control_said_its_the_worst_bedbug/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android_app&utm_name=androidcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button
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For the record, I got my one other ID renewed
I don't know why I'm saying nor know how it can happen but I rue the day when baking soda becomes expensive. Such a reliable chemical cleaning agent.
Oliver Queen/the Green arrow is one of my fave DC heroes, in terms of his personality and the stories which can come from it. Speaking as someone who mainly became familiar with the character via 'Justice league unlimited' rather than the now winding down CW-verse which is winding down.
Controlled drop into pornography done
Moving onto eating since I'm over it.
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When it comes to things I'm jealous of women for, or of, it's how they nearly always seem sssooo much better at socializing in a way which is not only less likely to be crass but less (overtly) competitive which makes such a difference developmentally.
Adjacent to an inability to connect to ppl, is how it might be valid to say that my clinging for pornography is a leftover from old undercurrents of endorsing male achievement and competitiveness not the least 'to be good enough' to be around certain circles of ppl and the females in them.
I choose to fall again.
Will my sister arrive ?. Will I have the drive to clean ?. Will the weather not be a wetter kind ?. Will it rain ?, will it shine ?.
>_< I'm due to wake up late, with an impulse to shower maybe and with one heck of hang-up, headache or paranoia.
'As usual' the root cause is friendlessness and this f--g site is f--g dismal at filling that void with non-'lonely brown guy' listeners
choose to fall again.
Will my sister arrive ?. Will I have the drive to clean ?. Will the weather not be a wetter kind ?. Will it rain ?, will it shine ?.
Can I f--g finally install my game console, please ?!?!. I'm hedging on it as being a part of subsiding pornography fixation even if the reality might be only less than partially pan out that way !.
I almost feel like contacting someone from 'taskrabbit' specifically for that !
>_< I'm due to wake up late, with an impulse to shower maybe and with one heck of hang-up, headache or paranoia.
