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Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
“I loved you so much that when you said you hated me, I only hurt for you.”
I know, a bit much, but u know xD
This is. So. Annoying.
When my sister was 16, she got a phone. When my sister became 18, she got a new phone. Now im 16, i got her first, old phone.
With parental controls.
My sister never had parental controls.
Not just parental controls, a whole *** ton of them! I cant even open incognito in chrome anymore- how am i cupsing you ask? A new search engine- and idek if this private mode is actually private or if parents can access this too!
And the parent account is my mom's
Like, ***
I cant even install apps without "approval" from the "parent" every app i open rn has my moms account written somwhere, everything i do gives me a pop up saying if i need help seek my parent i feel like a 5 year old
And i am old enough for my own account like my sis had but she wont let me
This is stupid!
@unassumingEyes
Omg is your mom crazy?! …that sounds so frustrating. tbh i think this is what happens… being the youngest in the family :/ ugh. i’m so sorry eyes.
you still have your iPad right? or does that belong to your sister too :( i’m sorry friend 😕
@LoveMyMoonflowers thats my sisters ipad. Shes had once since she was 8.
No parental controls on that, either.
Im so frustrated! Like fine, i do lie, i do have secrets, but is cups so bad? Is one manga so bad? The only reason theyre secrets in the first place is because she cant accept me. I feel...ugh. i feel like shes just completely infiltrated into my life.
@unassumingEyes
what. the. actual. heck. :') and friend tbh i think everyone has their own secrets… even if they are things that are not bad we hide them because we won't be accepted if we don't hide them. 😔 i totally get what you mean about her not accepting you and infiltrating your life :(
ugh. honestly ik what you mean that must be so frustrating.
what about doing a factory reset on your own? 😝 although… with so many parental controls idk if it would let you do that 😕
@LoveMyMoonflowers i dont think thats possible. I found an option to end her supervision but i need her password...even if i found out the password and did it she wld be too mad to risk it xD
Also im blocked from utube now.
Theres no way im over reacting, right? I cant do anything on this thing!
Shes not even letting me get whatsapp! Ugjdhdjdb
@unassumingEyes
nfkwjekfjkelwidkfhd this doesn’t make any sense. why give you a phone if you can’t do anything on it because of the restrictions *smh* 🤦🏻♀️
@LoveMyMoonflowers to fulfill their duties as parents i guess. Maybe she thought giving me a phone wld make me feel like sis and i are treated the same- that didnt work xD maybe its for safety tho, me being able to call wherever i am. But that- and this new search engine- is like all i can do on this thing. More apps are available but i cant install them without her password enabled permissions dkdhdj
@LoveMyMoonflowers thats ok, alli can think about is *angry noises* anyways xD
@unassumingEyes
okay then :) *livid noises* >:)
Currently using password protected secret mode on a new search engine
*sigh* im already done with this
Id rather not have a phone than this nonsense tbh
I tried complaining and she got all upset that i was bothering her :/ i didnt ask dad to convince her cause he has a stomach ache rn. Ill ask him later chances he'll agree with me are 50/50 but theres barely any chance mom will listen to me so hes my best choice (as always)
@unassumingEyes
asking your dad about it might be a good idea 💜💜
Compromised reached with mom with sister's help that i can use sister's phone freely and keep this one with the controls on it as an "emergency phone"
Atleast i get to use utube this way xD
A nightmare followed by a daymare? Thats ridiculous. A bit overkill dont you think universe?
I am not checking in on-
Oh fine
@LoveMyMoonflowers u ok?
Stupid daymare-
@unassumingEyes
idrk what to say…? i’m v sorry you had a nightmare plus a daymare *sends hugs if okie* but your so sweet for checking on me 💜 /gen even tho it feels a little random lol /lh. i’m ok i guess.
a little confused but - thank you 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Glad ur oki ❤️ also yea that seems random xD hugs ❤️
@unassumingEyes
*huggle wuggles* how's eyes bean 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Bad start to today :p and i have to bath, ew, dreading that xD but tolerable :p
@unassumingEyes
aww i’m sorry eyes friend :') but wait is everything okie over there, is there something wrong with taking a bath/shower 😭 i mean like is the bathroom… okay… lol
@LoveMyMoonflowers the bathroom is okay xD minus cockroaches. Ugh! And i hate bathing. Alot. Omg i still have to bath xD procrastinate, procrastinate...
@unassumingEyes
cockroaches 😭😭😭 no no no those are the worst ugh
@LoveMyMoonflowers *whispers* they fall from the roof...
Recent things that happen to me everytine someone says smth upsetting to me
(For eg. Sis 5 minutes ago "atleast im doing something useful" like im sorry im not useful bruh)
- my throat gets dry
- my voice leaves (really, but not really, but really)
- eyes feel tired, eye bags feel heavier
- chest burns
I went and wrote a whole article for funn (almost 500 words) and now im sitting over here trynna get the energy to iron my clothes
Ughhhhhhh
(Still didnt bath or iron my clothes 💀)
U guys i tried to make vanilla mugcake and 💀 that was...awful 💀 what did i spawn- its in the dustbin xD just. Ew. What-
My sister keeps scaring me that i need to grow taller soon cause at 18 ill stop growing 💀
Please no 💀 i cant be stuck at 5 foot forever- but i cant e a t
(Praised for being a writer but at the end of the day, where it matters the most, the words are never good enough)