In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
Ugh just please verify what people say about islam even what i say without assuming it to be true please theres a lot of islamophobia around.
@unassumingEyes
i'm so sorry that happened in TCR. hate is everywhere i think š even on cups, sometimes. :') hate is so disgusting and stupid and absolutely pointless. ): *those three words describe it well i think*Ā
did you take screenshots and report what happened? <3Ā
*hugs if okay* i hope you're feeling better now, eyes buddy. šš i feel really sad this happened, it reminds me of how much hate there really is in this world...Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers i didnt. Im on a thin line rn where the wrong move cld get me in trouble with mom or sis so i cldnt risk screenshots :/ i just asked everyone in tcr not to believe things about religion etc said there as "i believe there are trolls around rn" everyone (else :/) was nice and agreed so hopefully they dont spread their hateful ways :/
Its just awful i guess
@unassumingEyes
i understand that friend. š it was awful, youāre right. i agree with you and i too hope the other members wonāt spread those hateful ways around ):Ā
@LoveMyMoonflowers also *hugs* xDĀ
Well i also had a reminder that people can be really nice too. My (muslim) frnd recentlu moved to UK and for school she had to do work as an assistant in a different school for 1week. For like experience or something. And the school she went to was very nice, helped her find areas to pray etc. And her own school is also giving her areas to pray or spend break away frm other kids when shes fasting etc so its more than i expected really. Maybe its just sm decency but its nice
@unassumingEyes
*hugs tight* (iām so sorry for the late reply šš /gen)Ā
awww thatās so sweet. iām glad the people over there are kind to her and help her out š„ŗš awww. š i think we need more people like that yk :') people who seek to understand, people who are kind to others even though theyāre different <3 people who help. šĀ
i wish people didnāt just hate others for no *** reason. :/Ā
āThere are secrets, you know. Secrets of the grave.āĀ
āI know.ā
āThen how can you be so ready to di-e? You donāt know what youāre getting into, little boy.ā
āNo, but I have secrets, too.āĀ
āDo you trust me?ā
āAll you do is lie-ā
āWe lie to protect what is precious to us. Child, I have nothing left to protect. Nothing but you.ā
āI canāt stand- I canāt stand anymore secrets.ā
āNo,ā empty promises, whispered in the winds, āNo more secrets.ā
Thoughts? I mean, does it seem cringe or good or what? I cant decide lol.
@unassumingEyesĀ
i love this kind of stuff lol. itās very thoughtful and.. idk i canāt explain it but i like it. š©·
@justmeeva oh! So its not cringe?Ā
@unassumingEyes
your writing sounds/feels thoughtful (like @justmeeva said) and mysterious. love it.
*goes back to studies*
*feels like hysterically laughing*Ā
*le mom: āim really doubting whether ur doing anything in these examsā*
*le me, mentally: im struggling xD*
Tw I hadā¦more than one nightmares tonight. Umā¦imaginationās great and all, bit these are the cons, i guess. Weirdly realistic andā¦upsetting nightmares.Ā
Pushing the emotions backĀ even tho the anticipation thingy is yelling that no, thats bad,Ā andĀ
the words are goneā¦
I give alot of pats you know. Irl too. Its my whole thing. Like my own language of comfort. Pats.
I wish someone irl would give it back. I wish i could get a pat, or a hug, or a squeeze to the shoulder. I wish I would stop waking up at nights and long to be held. I wish i would read so much into the smallest of touches. The only one whoās done any of this for me recently was my grandmother, and im not comfortable with her.Ā
I dont want to admit it.Ā
But i wish i could get a pat back, again. My sister used to be the only one, sheād run her fingers through my hair and it was always enough to calm me down, but ever since we moved shes with my cousins way more than she is with me.Ā
Lots of limits, today. The words are gone again.