In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
Tw
Not ok
@unassumingEyes
what’s wrong love?
@unassumingEyes
are you there friend?
@justmeeva me cnt rant rn :0 sr busy and lgbtq room busy :0 trynna be there fr ppls uk
@iloveyouxx you oki lovely? /nfta
@unassumingEyes
no.. :’3
@iloveyouxx sorry :( do u wanna talk about it?
@unassumingEyes
it’s oki :’3 it doesn’t matter T~T
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@iloveyouxx it matters to me 🥺 is it bout what happened in the lgbtq room? Me doesnt think it was ur fault nadia. Itll become clear what was wrong soon hopefully, but i think there was a misunderstanding :0
@unassumingEyes
its not that simple eyes lovely :’3🤍 I guess- related.
honestly ive known such terrible people on cups- tho it’s meant to be a safe place :’3 I don’t expect anything tho
but I’ve met such a disgusting person on here- them just being there scares me so much :’3 but they’re always on. they just wont stop- doing what they do :’3 and I hate it because I can’t get on here without getting triggered badly / really uncomfy / I just end up crying for hours :’3
part of what they do isn’t even allowed- but they make it seem like they’re not actually breaking any rules :/
I just can’t anymore tbh. Idk what to think.
It’s oki tho :’3 * cries alone * :P
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@iloveyouxx
*sits next to nadia friend* 🩷
Me gotta go but ill leave a little rant :p
Tw (mentions of sh etc)
i dont do sh the usual way? I spend time after bathing in the bathroom without moving, even when i start shivering, wet and cold instead of (tw) burning
instead of (tw) cutting, i hold my breath at night
instead of (tw) scratching, i pick my skin
instead of preventing panic attacks, i try to find out what my trigger is so i can trigger myself on purpose
instead of looking for good listeners to vent to, i look for bad ones to get upset by
i dont sh the way people sh. But im not kind to myself either. Idk why. Idk why i do it. Idk why i do it differently. Idk.
i just do
@iloveyouxx
Cn u report them lovely? Or tell a mod? Its not good smone on here is upsetting u or anyone so much :0
@unassumingEyes
theyve hurt so many people on here eyes :’3 ( females in specific :P)
but that’s the thing they do this thing I can’t explain it drives me crazy :’3
It basically makes everyone feel bad for them for a life based in lies :’3
@iloveyouxx
on * •-• spelling left the chat :P
@iloveyouxx nadia, have u ever screenshotted any of the convos with them that made u uncomfy? If not, can u screenshot it if u see anything like that? It cld cm in handy :0
i think mods etc would know how to manage things despite whatever the background if whoever is being triggering is. If that sentence makes sense :0
if ur comfy with it, i think we shld try to report them :p even if it doesnt work, it cld get the mods to be careful :p and its worth a shot :0
@iloveyouxx
i can try and help if you need me :0 💕
@justmeeva
idk how I can be helped tho :l * sits *•-•🪑
@iloveyouxx
what did you think about the reporting or talking to mods tho?
@justmeeva
idk- tbh I’ve seen someone do something similar on here ( not as bad but similar ) but they’d be like direct they’d show that side of them and they’d make it really clear but all mods ever did was nom their replies / comments but nothing was actually ever done to stop it🤧
they still go around in forums and stuff and conflict always starts when they’re there :’3
I can try :0 I have a lot of things they I know they said- I just want smth to be done about it tbh :P🤧
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because it makes perfect sense for my mom to yell at my sis for passing her the wrong thing when my mom pointed at smth :0/sar
And it makes perfect sense for my sis to still back my mom in everything, including this :0 /sar
i will literally never get these two
I feel like im floating
like it doesnt feel like this is real
Cnt process
@unassumingEyes
felt this
@justmeeva hru eva :0
@unassumingEyes
i’m oke for now :D
how’s u? :0 (although you literally just said how you’re feeling-)
@justmeeva glad ur oki :0
yeah im literally floating…i kinda want to like, not sleep but like hv everyone else in the house asleep and be in bed and stuffs :0 i mean, sometimes thats- not nice bcz of overthinking but tonight i want to :0
also kinda wanna go out but cnt do that either :0
@unassumingEyes
i understand this. having some peace and quiet for yourself sometimes with no one bothering is great :0
(i’m replying slow bc eating at the same time hehe)
@justmeeva yum food :0 no worries hehe whatre u eating?/nfta
i myt disappear :( dw if i do :0 tc in advance <3
@unassumingEyes
ice cream :D
*hugs in advance* :p
If you want to run and hide
I'll come with you, deep inside
And sit beside you through it all
And if you ask me why I stay
I'll answer you, right away
I'm here to catch you if you fall
And I know it doesn't help you out
Cause you're still left with creeping doubt
But that's okay cause the day is still young
And I know I can't change a thing
But know that I've been hearing
Those silent songs you've never sung
And it's okay if you break and cry
It's okay if you lose the spirit to fight
The sun must set, to come back up again
And I know that this is hard to believe
But I'm planning to never leave
The day can be worthy, through sunlight or rain
By me :p
