In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
Tw for...religion?
U know, the religion I was born in makes you ask about the after life alot. About ur deeds. Would you be filled with unbelievable regret or unbelievable relief?
I try to think about, I really, really do. But I cant seem to. My mind just...asks questions. How, Why, Where, When, How?
Its funny, how easy it is to think about myself until i try to think about what should matter the most. Then Im thinking of everyone else. Of everything else. Of everywhere else.
How is it fair that we exist, only to be tested for our loyalty?
Who am I to question it?
Why is life so messy? Why is the largest proof religion can provide us ancient books we cant trace back?
What will I feel after I leave this world? Why would I feel anything? What part of this is really in my hands? What part isnt?
I dont understand
Tw
@unassumingEyes
* sits with eyes * >:🩷 I’m here oki ? :’3🤍
(tw) I don’t think I’ve ever done that before- but I do struggle to breathe most of the day tbh.. :’3
can I ask why you do ? >: is it to know how it feels like ? or smth else ?
please to try to be gentle with yourself..🤍 and sorry for replying late btw- here’s a cookie to make up for it🍪:P
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@iloveyouxx dw bout it :0
and kinda like…idk. I dont know why i do it, i guess.
@unassumingEyes
aw that’s oki- I do a lot of things I don’t get :P like having so much time to get ready but waiting last minute just to panic :0 wouldn’t recommend :0 or walking around the house randomly- or staring at my piles of homework wanting to just finish it already but never actually starting .. :P yep. that’s me heh :P
The post above? Bad post. Dont look at that post. Ugly ugly post
Im confused
and kinda nervous
@unassumingEyes can anyone sr :0
@unassumingEyes
coming :0🤍
So
I dont like the word "hanging" bcz of smth i mentioned in an earlier post
Not a trigger exactly but a mood ruiner
I think just for a while bcz of memories nd stress but yea
@unassumingEyes
yeah I understand.. :’3 I’ll make sure not to mention that tho :0 I don’t think I’ve ever even said that in the past like.. I don’t remember when I last said it heh :P
@iloveyouxx thanks nadia 🥹💓
Guess whose eating an apple bcz noone cn expect me to study while eating hehe
@unassumingEyes
did I read that wrong or do you mean you can’t if you weren’t studying ? :0
im glad you’re eating tho :0 I love food :> (tw) * says that while starving their self* :P
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@iloveyouxx nadia :0 eat pls/ no pressure
I meant I cant study if im eating
So i eat to not study lol :0
@unassumingEyes
ohhhh that’s great :D you get a break- and a snack ! :>🤍
and thank you for caring :0🤍 just tw anorexia- feels like it’s destroying me :P heh :’3
Count On Me - Bruno Mars
@justmeeva @iloveyouxx @LoveMyMoonflowers
@unassumingEyes
aw I can’t heart messages anymore D: I’ve reached the limit D: but I’ll listen to that later ! :>
@iloveyouxx lol u said listen to it and i got confused for a second cuz usually nowadays i dont listen to the songs i like just open the lyrics on google and vibe in my head :0 😂
My typing style on cups is literally a mash of my friends' typing styles :0
Like pne of my frnd uses "lol" alot and another frnd uses "love" and "<3" so here i am :00
And ":0" is from eva
*tada*
@unassumingEyes
:0 I thought you got the “:0” from me :0
but me too tbh :P
when I first joined someone on here kept using “: )” so I did that for a decent amount of time- it’s kinda creepy ngl 😭
but an ex friend I knew used to use :3 a lottt so I used that for a long time too- I still do sometimes
i got :’3 from when I saw ni buddy use it :0 it was like my brain discovered the perfect thing to add to everything :0
i also got :0 from ni tbh :0 I saw them use it while talking to another friendo in tcr hehe💜
I got the pink heart from mostly just me tbh- but also from eva a bit :0🩷
and the white heart was entirely me🤍 it just suits a lot of the things I say🤍
“hihi” was mostly me too :0
i don’t know if anyone noticed- but I never use upper case letters at the beginning of a sentence :0 I always click on the lil arrow at the bottom corner of my screen keyboard so that it’s lowercase :0 that’s entirely me too :P🤍
i also always put a space between a question and a question mark :0 like this⇒ “how’re you ?” instead of “how’re you?” that’s all me ;3
”;3” is all me too :0
i got “:>” and “>:” from mimi @Maxiepooh 🩷( hi mimi :0 )
“D:” from morgy 🤍 @teenmorgan16 ( hii morgy :> )
”mm” was from me too :P
“lmao” and “xD” were mostly from me too :0 there’s so much more to how I text :0
sorry for the long reply :P still studying soo I’m really bored :’3
@iloveyouxx
hihi my nads :>
My practical teachers thinking they did super well:
Me who never missed a lab class and was always at the front, taking notes and completing work on time: whats the difference between a pipette and a burette 😭
@unassumingEyes atleast school practicals i cn survive
What will i do for board in another country. They wont care my tea hers were confused 😭
Also
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Mom and sis be scolding me why didnt i prepare practicals before if teachers werent good like
When was i supposed to do this when i was busy learning tests😭
Once again, as smone who likes school, school isnt the problem
This dumb education system is
And tw bullies- but i dont hv much issues with those (creepy "frnd" doesnt count"
