In the Corner
Sometimes, the thoughts in my head repeat over and over and over again until I need to tell them to someone, even if noone's listening. So, this is my little corner to do that. Thoughts and thoughts and thoughts. Trigger warnings, just incase. And, @LoveMyMoonflowers, @justmeeva @DarkerPlaces and @iloveyouxx are welcome to replies. Not really comfortable with anyone else. Sorry for tagging. Be safe everyone <3
@iloveyouxx @justmeeva
*whispers* hi
i was missing you two earlier
*sits with you two*
thoughts can be hard yea
*hugs if oki*
I finished bio
like
all of it
the book
(the book?)
the book.
My back hurts lol
Time for social studies…
@unassumingEyes
for a second I thought you meant your 7 cups bio :P
big Tw btw :’3 wouldn’t read the big blob of vent if I were you :P
aw >: i wish life would give us all a break tbh :’3 I don’t think how long it is matters that much to me, just a little break is enough :’3 to just breathe, know what it feels like to not live in fear all the time, in pressure, with dark thoughts, nightmares, trauma, thoughts that just tear you apart, with all these possibilities, and scenarios, anxiety that takes over, depression that stops you from living a normal life, just a break to breathe and feel “happy” again.. :’3 I kinda miss being happy.. :’3 I have happy moments- barely- but it’s not like before :’3
sorry- got carried away :’3 it’s 4 am here :’3 soo its just a really depressing time for me :P but yeah I wish I could give you all a break tbh :’3🩷 I wish I could help more than whatever I’m doing :’3 I don’t even know- it feels like other than helping there’s no point anymore and I really suck at helping :’3 I’m sorry- :’3 kinda suck at everything ngl- :’3 sorry for randomly being annoying :P I seem to be good at that- I just wanted to talk :’3 but yeah :’3 I’m sorry.
@iloveyouxx
dang that was long :’3 sorry lovely people :’3🩷 I’m really sorry🩷
*sits* •-• kinda keep telling myself to shut up and just go back to suffering in silence :’3 but I suck at that too- ok now I’ll stop :’3 *🪑*
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@iloveyouxx *sits with nadia* ur not annoying lovely. I miss you so much in the mornings…mornings are so hard for me. I know it seems like you dont help much, but you really really do help me.
I agree with what you said. Happy moments are there, but it doesn't feel the same as being happy anymore. I dont know. It feels like life’s one big test we never wanted to take, you know? And sometimes it feels like whatever we do, we fail that test. Its like, student burnout. We just want a break, from school, from pressure, from life. Life burnout.
Im rambling. Anyways.
Hugs if okay? I think if happy moments are all we got so far, we should treasure them. I treasure you.
@unassumingEyes
I’m so tired eyes :’3 I try so hard- so hard nothings enough it’s never enough I’m just not enough..I don’t know what to do anymore :’3
god why am I so depressing :P sorry
i wish people at least pretended :’3 like at least lied to me- cause it just feels like the only times where I was really happy were the times I was blinded from the truth :’3
I don’t know if I do help :’3 I hope I do.. I try :’3
all I do is try tbh- I try to keep fighting I try to keep going I try to keep breathing I try to not break down I try to not give up I try to stay strong I try to help I try while being treated like some useless peace of garbage I try to look pretty I try to be enough I try to prove others wrong I try to resolve conflict without making it worse I try to make my dad happy I try to stop overthinking, being “dramatic” , thinking about things that are so far away from now.. I try to keep my head above water I try to “control” myself I try to deal with my emotions I try to smile when I’m so broken I try to laugh when I’m so hurt I try to make others happy all I do is try I try I just try so hard and it’s never enough but I try while dying inside and I try till I can’t keep trying and I try till I don’t see a point anymore cause no one wants me to keep breathing no one wants to see me smile no one wants me to keep going no one wants me to keep fighting everyone loves to see me cry, see me breakdown, see me hurt, see me broken, it’s entertaining it’s what they want to see they all just want to get rid of me but tbh i know who I am i know i do and tbh i just dont get it cause i dont exactly do stuff that'd make me deserve any of this and i just want the pain to end but yeah just gonna put a warning not to read any of this :P sorry for being dumb :'3
im sorry you relate to the happiness part :'3🩷 honestly i wish everyone was happy.. even the people that "dont deserve it" .. :'3 youre not failing anything what you do is enough and if anyone thinks youre failing they switched the marks w someone else :P /j i know what you mean :'3🩷
you can ramble whenever you want hehe🩷:'3 just look at me writing essays🤧
but really youre allowed to talk about yourself too🩷:'3
i love you :’3 and I’m sorry life’s being really mean rn :’3 o and for that essay🤧🩷
@iloveyouxx
trying is the best thing a person can do nadia love. i know exactly what you mean, to some people you’re never enough, but that’s not your fault. it’s theirs. not being enough for someone doesn’t mean *you* as a person aren’t enough. i know it’s hard to remember, especially if everyone seems to tell you the opposite, but you really are enough. more than enough even. i know what it feels like, it’s not fun, but it’s not your fault.
i will forever want you as my friend. i will forever want you to keep going. i will forever want you to keep trying. i will forever want the best for you because that’s what you deserve. i will forever have faith in you.
sometimes just being there, just existing, just listening is enough help. and you, my friend, are very much help no matter what you do.
💕
@iloveyouxx dont apologise lovely
I get why youre tired. Sometimes i wanna punch all the cruel ppls in the world and stuffs. I know it doesnt seem enough to you, maybe it wont for a long time, but you are so much more than enough for me. You're so kind, and helpful, and dedicated, and comforting and i know these words wont change a thing. I know i cnt stop it from hurting. But even if u feel less in ur own eyes, or in the eyes of anyone else, u mean so much to me. Im so grateful for u. This world, this place of ignorant people, it doesnt deserve all the kindness you bring to it
My friends, both irl and on here, are so nice i cld burst (in a good way!)
I saw a website talking bout how 7cups was not good, they tested it out etc etc
theyre like instead of actual support, ppl just get hugs etc etc
and the listener training isnt good as there are trolls etc etc
i think the point isnt that 7cups is the best, or an immediate solution to your problems. Its like, yeah, you can rant to me about ur financial troubles etc etc, but i cant solve those troubles for you? Im literally just a shoulder to cry on, or a friend to give hugs. Thats kinda what 7cups is, you know? I cant say anything about the paid therapy, and stuff, but yeah. The forums and all that, its just, a friend for when you need one the most. Encouragement and hugs, you know? Not answers
Plus, they only had one person test out the site, and i think that could hv tampered with the results lol
@justmeeva thanks eva lovely <3 im here if you need anything too, oki?
@unassumingEyes
mhm ❤️
I have like 99 notifications on cups
Ninety nine-
Tw
Also my frnd used all caps while talking the other day and my first thought was “she cld trigger smone-‘
Im gonna study now :p
love to eva and nadia lovelies <3 have a good day u both
@unassumingEyes @iloveyouxx
i gotta go clean so gtg for a while too :’)
ttyl friends! 🩷
@justmeeva
sorry friendo :0 i had to go >: I’m back now- 3 minutes after you left :’3 byebye frien🩷 take care pls :’3🩷
Just booked the flight and got the ticket
How do i feel about that?
I have no idea :0
@unassumingEyes
for moving ? :0 hm- it’s oki to not know how you feel about it yet :0
