In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
The internet is fixed. Today I learned that while Jesus saves, Damian had to get a second job as an internet repair technician.
He wasn't sure of what to make of the lights you see but aren't lit either.
Oh and the French guy called to see if everything was fixed. He said he was concerned. Which is odd now that I think about it. They've never called before to check if it was okay. I'm starting to think the internet provider has few loose screws. Maybe their lights aren't lit either

😂 That s*** is classic, man. Truly. With this & the earlier entry, you summed up the human condition in 21st-century America.
some days we pray for quiet
but they live inside your head
the screams that won't be silent
feeling constant dread
some times we remember the days
the terror we called home
the fear that lived in your veins
embedded in your bones
these memories that are mine
that no one wanted to know
these are the memories we keep
the ones we try not to show
the strangle hold
the insulting names
the shirt twisted in those hands
back hand to the face
tossed to the floor
bruised, bloodied and sore
the family disgrace
shhhh....
hide the violence
lock it away in a secret closet
so no one can ever see
some days can't stand the touch
when affection weighs too much
everyone is pushed away
some us were born in ***
in *** was where we were raised
this was a level of the *** I was from
but this isn't the *** I want to stay
shhhh.....
sometimes it's all I need
a moment of silence please
something to hush the misery
the shhhh.... that belongs to me
🐾

@mytwistedsoul
beautifully written as always soul! so relatable and so eloquent my friend. 💛 i'm so sorry you went through all these horrible experiences friend, you didn't deserve all this. sometimes what your meant to call home isn't really home anymore. Its just this building you dread walking into. 💛 i hear you friend.
bunny :>
@amiableBunny4016 *offers safe hugs* 💙 I'm sorry you can relate. I know things aren't much better for you either. Home. Home is a magical word isn't it? I don't think I ever thought of it as home. We do our time and pay for crimes we never committed. 😕

@mytwistedsoul

With a home like that, who needs jail?...
@slowdecline48 Is it bad that I can think of a number of ways jail might be better? 😅

😆 Maybe... Like how? Is jail food better than your mother's cooking was?... 😃
@slowdecline48 😅 that could be one of the reasons. All I'll say is that she was a very cruel woman
lost souls seek something
like echoes of dreams
weighted by despair
sometimes, the heart screams
a road that leads nowhere
a fractured dance where light used to be
faded smiles of ghosts
of people no longer seen
steel chains hold the truth to set us free
silent cries, broken promises
empty lies to fill
lost in a maze
alone and afraid
under her cruel will
echoes in my head
of voices that won't leave
tangled in the web,
lies no one should believe
fallen from grace
break the midnight still
left alone to grieve
in this darkest space
a void nothing can fill
drowning, nowhere to run
hiding in the darkness
from shadows that block out the sun
embracing the void where I come undone 🐾

@mytwistedsoul Such verses... A few lines are sadly familiar. Those inner torments are no joke.
This is Cluck Norris
Cluck is an a**hole and wants to murdalize me. He does not hide that fact. He's about 12lbs. A buff Brahma. Beautiful but a T-Rex in chicken form
This is Roux aka Roadrunner
Roux is an Ameraucana. He's smaller than Cluck. Maybe about 5 lbs. Another beautiful bird but he apparently has the spirit of a velociraptor
Roux has always been pretty decent. He does his weird little wing flap dance but leaves me alone. Usually....
This morning this sneaky a**hole decided to attack me. He literally came out the door and chose violence. Those spurs are nasty 😕 I told him he gets a pass this time. If he does it again there will be chicken for dinner that night
Maybe this is how the apocalypse starts 😂 This will be tomorrow

@mytwistedsoul Why are you keeping roosters? They don't lay eggs. If I'm going to keep a few birds in the backyard & put up with feathered dinosaur aggression, then there had better be some benefit in exchange...you need to make those creatures pay rent.
@slowdecline48 Around here they're considered an EFS (emergency food source) sometimes I hatch eggs and unfortunately get a rooster or two. Usually I sell them or give them to someone but didn't these two for some weird reason

@mytwistedsoul 🤔 I dig the acronym. Am already familiar with the concept (rather sadly, I originally heard it applied to dogs. If times are tough & the dog isn't contributing to the household, (s)he's for the stewpot. Not nice, but during the Great Depression some people did just that...). An EFS is good to have. Closest I have to one is a few cans of soup (diff. kinds) + over 15 lbs. of rice, & an almost-equal quantity of dried beans. Those will keep almost forever.
@slowdecline48 I never knew that about the depression. It's definitely sad that people would have to resort to that. I would have to draw the line at eating the dog or the cat. 😬 There's too many other options here in the woods especially
8 degrees 🥶 Jesus jumped up palominos it's cold out

@mytwistedsoul That’s… -13 C. 😭😭😭 That’s too cold Soul. :( Hope your trying to keep yourself warm ❤️
@LoveMyMoonflowers That's what I said too lol! It's too cold out 😬 I got all the cold weather gear but it's a major pain in the butt to put it all on. It's supposed to get above freezing later lol and hey we haven't hit the minus's yet! That's when it really sucks 🥶
Nope got the animals taken care of and a nice fire going and a hot cup of coffee. It's nice and toasty in the house 😊

Jesus on a pogo stick, everything must have icicles up there... Hope the smaller trees make it. And your roosters & whatever other critters are livin' with ya.
The idea of going outside?...yeah, no. Eff that. No reason to go floundering around in the snow & freeze your nuts off. 8°F/-13°C is stay-inside-with-hot-chocolate-weather.
Messy idk this song is really relatable in a lot of ways (mostly)
How long do you think before this is deleted 🤨

@mytwistedsoul
i guess we will have to see 🤣
@amiableBunny4016 It's a mood lol. But yeah I'll be surprised if someone doesn't flag it eventually


