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mytwistedsoul November 7th, 2019

With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.

A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.

While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.

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mytwistedsoul OP November 5th, 2024

The internet is fixed. Today I learned that while Jesus saves, Damian had to get a second job as an internet repair technician. 

He wasn't sure of what to make of the lights you see but aren't lit either. 

Oh and the French guy called to see if everything was fixed. He said he was concerned. Which is odd now that I think about it. They've never called before to check if it was okay. I'm starting to think the internet provider has few loose screws. Maybe their lights aren't lit either 

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slowdecline48 December 17th, 2024

😂 That s*** is classic, man. Truly. With this & the earlier entry, you summed up the human condition in 21st-century America.

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mytwistedsoul OP November 12th, 2024

some days we pray for quiet

but they live inside your head

the screams that won't be silent 

feeling constant dread


some times we remember the days

the terror we called home

the fear that lived in your veins

embedded in your bones


these memories that are mine

that no one wanted to know

these are the memories we keep

the ones we try not to show


the strangle hold 

the insulting names

the shirt twisted in those hands

back hand to the face

tossed to the floor

bruised, bloodied and sore

the family disgrace

shhhh....


hide the violence

lock it away in a secret closet

so no one can ever see

some days can't stand the touch

when affection weighs too much

everyone is pushed away


some us were born in ***

in *** was where we were raised

this was a level of the *** I was from

but this isn't the *** I want to stay


shhhh.....

sometimes it's all I need

a moment of silence please

something to hush the misery

the shhhh.... that belongs to me

🐾 




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amiableBunny4016 November 12th, 2024

@mytwistedsoul

beautifully written as always soul! so relatable and so eloquent my friend. 💛 i'm so sorry you went through all these horrible experiences friend, you didn't deserve all this. sometimes what your meant to call home isn't really home anymore. Its just this building you dread walking into. 💛 i hear you friend.

bunny :>

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mytwistedsoul OP November 13th, 2024

@amiableBunny4016 *offers safe hugs* 💙 I'm sorry you can relate. I know things aren't much better for you either. Home. Home is a magical word isn't it? I don't think I ever thought of it as home. We do our time and pay for crimes we never committed. 😕

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amiableBunny4016 November 13th, 2024

@mytwistedsoul


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slowdecline48 November 12th, 2024

With a home like that, who needs jail?...

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mytwistedsoul OP November 13th, 2024

@slowdecline48 Is it bad that I can think of a number of ways jail might be better? 😅

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slowdecline48 November 13th, 2024

😆 Maybe... Like how? Is jail food better than your mother's cooking was?... 😃

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mytwistedsoul OP November 13th, 2024

@slowdecline48 😅 that could be one of the reasons. All I'll say is that she was a very cruel woman

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mytwistedsoul OP November 28th, 2024

lost souls seek something 

like echoes of dreams 

weighted by despair

sometimes, the heart screams


a road that leads nowhere 

a fractured dance where light used to be

faded smiles of ghosts

of people no longer seen

steel chains hold the truth to set us free


silent cries, broken promises 

empty lies to fill

lost in a maze 

alone and afraid

under her cruel will


echoes in my head 

of voices that won't leave

tangled in the web,

lies no one should believe


fallen from grace 

break the midnight still

left alone to grieve

in this darkest space

a void nothing can fill


drowning, nowhere to run

hiding in the darkness

from shadows that block out the sun

embracing the void where I come undone 🐾

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slowdecline48 November 28th, 2024

@mytwistedsoul Such verses... A few lines are sadly familiar. Those inner torments are no joke.

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mytwistedsoul OP December 5th, 2024

This is Cluck Norris img-20241030-145955927_1733369732.jpg

Cluck is an a**hole and wants to murdalize me. He does not hide that fact. He's about 12lbs. A buff Brahma. Beautiful but a T-Rex in chicken form

This is Roux aka Roadrunnerimg-20240920-115324344_1733369869.jpg

Roux is an Ameraucana. He's smaller than Cluck. Maybe about 5 lbs. Another beautiful bird but he apparently has the spirit of a velociraptor

Roux has always been pretty decent. He does his weird little wing flap dance but leaves me alone. Usually....

This morning this sneaky a**hole decided to attack me. He literally came out the door and chose violence. Those spurs are nasty 😕 I told him he gets a pass this time. If he does it again there will be chicken for dinner that night

Maybe this is how the apocalypse starts 😂 This will be tomorrow 

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slowdecline48 December 5th, 2024

@mytwistedsoul Why are you keeping roosters? They don't lay eggs. If I'm going to keep a few birds in the backyard & put up with feathered dinosaur aggression, then there had better be some benefit in exchange...you need to make those creatures pay rent.

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mytwistedsoul OP December 5th, 2024

@slowdecline48 Around here they're considered an EFS (emergency food source) sometimes I hatch eggs and unfortunately get a rooster or two. Usually I sell them or give them to someone but didn't these two for some weird reason 

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slowdecline48 December 5th, 2024

@mytwistedsoul 🤔 I dig the acronym. Am already familiar with the concept (rather sadly, I originally heard it applied to dogs. If times are tough & the dog isn't contributing to the household, (s)he's for the stewpot. Not nice, but during the Great Depression some people did just that...). An EFS is good to have. Closest I have to one is a few cans of soup (diff. kinds) + over 15 lbs. of rice, & an almost-equal quantity of dried beans. Those will keep almost forever.

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mytwistedsoul OP December 5th, 2024

@slowdecline48 I never knew that about the depression. It's definitely sad that people would have to resort to that. I would have to draw the line at eating the dog or the cat. 😬 There's too many other options here in the woods especially 


Oh heck yeah beans and rice are good to have on hand because you never know. Like you said they'll keep forever. It's not something I'll willingly chose to eat lol but if it's beans and rice or nothing. I'd probably go get some squirrels to at least add to the beans 😂😂
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mytwistedsoul OP December 12th, 2024

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mytwistedsoul OP December 14th, 2024

8 degrees 🥶 Jesus jumped up palominos it's cold out 

 

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LoveMyMoonflowers December 14th, 2024

@mytwistedsoul That’s… -13 C. 😭😭😭 That’s too cold Soul. :( Hope your trying to keep yourself warm ❤️

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mytwistedsoul OP December 14th, 2024

@LoveMyMoonflowers That's what I said too lol! It's too cold out 😬 I got all the cold weather gear but it's a major pain in the butt to put it all on. It's supposed to get above freezing later lol and hey we haven't hit the minus's yet! That's when it really sucks 🥶 

Nope got the animals taken care of and a nice fire going and a hot cup of coffee. It's nice and toasty in the house 😊

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slowdecline48 December 14th, 2024

Jesus on a pogo stick, everything must have icicles up there... Hope the smaller trees make it. And your roosters & whatever other critters are livin' with ya.

The idea of going outside?...yeah, no. Eff that. No reason to go floundering around in the snow & freeze your nuts off. 8°F/-13°C is stay-inside-with-hot-chocolate-weather.

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mytwistedsoul OP December 15th, 2024

@slowdecline48 Oh yeah the horse has a blanket and the chickens have heat lamps. The cat has a heated house and a heating pad lol. I only went out to feed and close everyone up for the night. It's not even winter yet 😕 I hate this time of the year

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mytwistedsoul OP December 15th, 2024

Messy idk this song is really relatable in a lot of ways (mostly) 

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mytwistedsoul OP December 17th, 2024

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How long do you think before this is deleted 🤨

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amiableBunny4016 December 17th, 2024

@mytwistedsoul

i guess we will have to see 🤣

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mytwistedsoul OP December 17th, 2024

@amiableBunny4016 It's a mood lol. But yeah I'll be surprised if someone doesn't flag it eventually 

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slowdecline48 December 17th, 2024

I feel that one...downloaded it, just in case.

What you & I need is something stronger:

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mytwistedsoul OP December 18th, 2024

@slowdecline48 😂😂 definitely! A couple of shots to the a** with tranquilizer darts might do the trick 🤣

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@mytwistedsoul Happy New Year, Twist! I hope 2025 brings you an abundance of peace, love, and special moments. You deserve so much happiness. You’re a wonderful person.

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mytwistedsoul OP January 6th

@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Happy New Year to you too and thank you! 

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slowdecline48 January 1st

Happy New Year, @mytwistedsoul

Ditto what @PiecesOfWhoeverIWas said. Now when are you gonna put on a new avatar?....Christmas passed a few days ago, man! 😃

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mytwistedsoul OP January 6th

@slowdecline48 Happy New Year to you too Slow. Lol I'm running a little behind! 

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