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In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

mytwistedsoul November 7th, 2019

With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.

A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.

While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.

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mytwistedsoul OP November 5th

The internet is fixed. Today I learned that while Jesus saves, Damian had to get a second job as an internet repair technician. 

He wasn't sure of what to make of the lights you see but aren't lit either. 

Oh and the French guy called to see if everything was fixed. He said he was concerned. Which is odd now that I think about it. They've never called before to check if it was okay. I'm starting to think the internet provider has few loose screws. Maybe their lights aren't lit either 

mytwistedsoul OP November 12th

some days we pray for quiet

but they live inside your head

the screams that won't be silent 

feeling constant dread


some times we remember the days

the terror we called home

the fear that lived in your veins

embedded in your bones


these memories that are mine

that no one wanted to know

these are the memories we keep

the ones we try not to show


the strangle hold 

the insulting names

the shirt twisted in those hands

back hand to the face

tossed to the floor

bruised, bloodied and sore

the family disgrace

shhhh....


hide the violence

lock it away in a secret closet

so no one can ever see

some days can't stand the touch

when affection weighs too much

everyone is pushed away


some us were born in ***

in *** was where we were raised

this was a level of the *** I was from

but this isn't the *** I want to stay


shhhh.....

sometimes it's all I need

a moment of silence please

something to hush the misery

the shhhh.... that belongs to me

🐾 




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slowdecline48 November 12th

With a home like that, who needs jail?...

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mytwistedsoul OP November 13th

@slowdecline48 Is it bad that I can think of a number of ways jail might be better? 😅

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slowdecline48 November 13th

😆 Maybe... Like how? Is jail food better than your mother's cooking was?... 😃

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amiableBunny4016 November 12th

@mytwistedsoul

beautifully written as always soul! so relatable and so eloquent my friend. 💛 i'm so sorry you went through all these horrible experiences friend, you didn't deserve all this. sometimes what your meant to call home isn't really home anymore. Its just this building you dread walking into. 💛 i hear you friend.

bunny :>

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mytwistedsoul OP November 13th

@amiableBunny4016 *offers safe hugs* 💙 I'm sorry you can relate. I know things aren't much better for you either. Home. Home is a magical word isn't it? I don't think I ever thought of it as home. We do our time and pay for crimes we never committed. 😕

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amiableBunny4016 November 13th

@mytwistedsoul


hugs-big-hugs.gif

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