In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
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Through the bruises when the makeup melts?
In the dark when all the powers out?
Everybody talks and gets around
When the money talks
Do you think it gets the point across?
It's a burning coal you're walking on
And in a second, all the pain is gone
I begged and I ran in circles
I climbed to the sun
And fell in a concrete jungle
I said it's done
You never know if you'll get what you wish for
I climbed to the sun
And I fell, I fell in a concrete jungle
And the sirens pass and harmonize
Fires starting every day and night
Burn around us while we're trapped inside
Wouldn't it be nice
To play the game without a crooked die
In a world where you don't have to hide?
You don't have to live in a disguise
I begged and I ran in circles
I climbed to the sun
And fell in a concrete jungle
I said it's done
You never know if you'll get what you wish for
I climbed to the sun
And I fell, I fell in a concrete jungle
The price is pain to make this right
And I could buy a thousand lives
So you can try to kill me, but I can't fucking die
Did something last night that - well it's been years. Thought I'd share alittle of it here
https://voca.ro/166SyVZhFJwZ
Alittle nervous tbh - lol so I guess catch it soon because it might get deleted ๐
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@mytwistedsoul- Wow, if this is your playing the piano it is very soothing and impressive. Thank you for sharing.
@barncat Thank you โค๏ธ it was me - never thought I'd want to play again. Thought maybe I forgot how to. It felt good and bad and right and wrong all at the same time
@mytwistedsoul- you should keep playing. Sounded like an original composition. If so, you are very talented. I understand the feeling of being right and wrong - our internal judge weighs heavy on us.
THank you again for sharing it with us. ๐ดโค๏ธ๐ด ?๐ด
I am going to look at another horse tomorrow - hence the ? in front of #3. !!
@barncat Thank you โค๏ธ It's an old Elton John song lol! I don't think I've ever tried to write any music - might be something to try sometime
Omg! That's so cool! A gelding? Good luck! I hope he or she is a perfect fit for you. I hope too you'll maybe let me know how it goes ๐ Fingers crossed here!
@mytwistedsoul
Glad you tried playing again despite the many conflicting thoughts. This is soooo good, and calming, I can sleep to it haha! โค
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Sun I'm sorry ๐
๐ ๐ช ๐ ๐ช ๐ ๐ช
@mytwistedsoul ๐ฎ Aww nuuu, no apology necessary โค It is okay. *shares pizza with you and noms* โค
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou *hugs* โค๏ธ you're allways so nice to me
๐ for the ๐ and for being so nice and for being you โค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul
Aww *hugs back*
Soul deserves all the niceness always, and it isn't very hard being nice to you, your incredibly amazing and considerate- self makes it far easier to be that way to you also. โค (we can take our time to believe it, ofcourse no rush)
๐ for ๐ hehe I love it lol. *noms all the pizza* ๐ฅฐ
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Holy macaroni you nommed all the ๐?! ๐
Got spare pizzas at the ready ๐
@mytwistedsoul
Hahaha maybeee! xD
Goodness the most tempting gif ever.๐ญ๐ More pizzaaaaaaa!
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou special delivery! ๐
@mytwistedsoul
Oof this gif me got like "watch it bruhh, no tripping or dropping any pizzaa๐ณ" Haha!
Thankyouuu for the special delivery. ๐ฅฐ
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Lol! That would be horrible! I don't even want to imagine it tbh ๐ฌ all those poor poor delicious pizzas. It would be a sad day
@mytwistedsoul haha automatically takes me to this one:
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Lol OMG! Face down too! I feel ya kid! I'd be crying about it too
@mytwistedsoul
I know right. Sad is an understatement! ๐ฅ
But then I found this too, that was so sweet of a gesture, hopefully is a true update lol! ๐ฅฐ (still feeling sad for the pizza that fell though xD)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Aww I'm glad they gave him one to replace it ๐
But still - a moment of silence for a beautiful fallen pizza ๐
Maybe they gave it to the ratties in the alley to eat lol! ๐
@mytwistedsoul Yes hehe!
*observes a moment of silence too*๐คง
Haha yes xD rattieees be like: "why should hoomans have all the pizza? It is our moment to party now." Lol! ๐
How has your week been, Soul?โค
Alsooo how's your ankle doing now?
I love your profile picture hehe! Pizza box must be a comfy place to live inside!๐
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Hey :) Its allways so nice to see you Sun โค๏ธ
It's been alittle bit of a rollercoaster ride tbh but a new week starts soon so maybe this one will be better
The ankle is - frustrating tbh. It's still painful at times and gets stiff
*hug* ๐ ๐ช for checking in with me โค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul
Aw likewise. โค
Oh noes, ze ankle being lil meanie, needs more time to heal hehe. Do medicines, exercise etc help somewhat to ease the pain?
Be gentle okie.โค
Darn rollercoaster only is fun till it is an actual rollercoaster and not with how we doing (then it's just scary mostly lol). Here with you if you need to talk anytime, or just a hug, or space to *be*, always free to tag or message, whatever you're comfy with, whenever you feel like. โค *hugs hugs*
I hope the upcoming week is better for you too.
*shares ๐๐ช with you*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Do you have any idea how wonderful you are? Thoughtful and kind โค๏ธ It's allways nice to see tags from you. I really appreciate you Sun. Every thing you do and say has such warmth to it and to be one of the ones on the receiving end of that warmth - I'm just really grateful โค๏ธ *big hug*
@mytwistedsoul
(Yummmm hehe)
Awwww i- *feels the words, the gratitude, the warmth and gets fuzzyyy* ๐คง๐ฅฐ Thankyou, Soul. Grateful for you too.โค *big hugs back*
This also calls for a pizzookieeee! ๐
@mytwistedsoul I know right, ice cream makes it better hehe. ๐ฅฐ Thankyou for sharing *happily noms*
things have been changing
we donโt act the same
our minds rearranging
but we donโt feel a thing
you can see it in our eyes
crawling under all our skin
thereโs a Devil on our shoulder
sheโs been trying to come in
she says you might think you know us
but you donโt know our sins
thereโs a place where our demons try to hide deep down within
for a long we kept them locked away
but tonight we're setting them free
when I look at myself in the mirror
and I can see a little clearer
the person in the reflection
and I am not the same
you can see him in my likeness
and some times he answers to my name
I donโt think we can hide what we are
not any more
nothing but monsters
like we were before ๐พ
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
๐โค๏ธ found this and it made me think of you
@mytwistedsoul Omigosh I love it hehe, perks of having a sunny name lol, I got my own gif for hugs.๐ฅฐ
Thankieees for thinking of me.โค *huge sunny hugs backkkk* (you best believe I'll be using this one often now lolll)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Yay! ๐ all the gifs I've found this is the first time I've seen this one - so it's pretty cool to think you'll be able to use it โค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul I love it hehe!๐ฅฐโค
Found this in our unfinished room
@mytwistedsoul Aww sooo smollll.๐ฅฐ
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou smaller then the cap of a gallon jug! ๐ฏ
๐ญ@mytwistedsoul- gosh, wish I could post the photo of rats eating birdseed this past winter - on my neighbors deck. Laughed so hard, but she didnt think it was funny. The rat family was SO cute.