In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
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Through the bruises when the makeup melts?
In the dark when all the powers out?
Everybody talks and gets around
When the money talks
Do you think it gets the point across?
It's a burning coal you're walking on
And in a second, all the pain is gone
I begged and I ran in circles
I climbed to the sun
And fell in a concrete jungle
I said it's done
You never know if you'll get what you wish for
I climbed to the sun
And I fell, I fell in a concrete jungle
And the sirens pass and harmonize
Fires starting every day and night
Burn around us while we're trapped inside
Wouldn't it be nice
To play the game without a crooked die
In a world where you don't have to hide?
You don't have to live in a disguise
I begged and I ran in circles
I climbed to the sun
And fell in a concrete jungle
I said it's done
You never know if you'll get what you wish for
I climbed to the sun
And I fell, I fell in a concrete jungle
The price is pain to make this right
And I could buy a thousand lives
So you can try to kill me, but I can't fucking die
Did something last night that - well it's been years. Thought I'd share alittle of it here
https://voca.ro/166SyVZhFJwZ
Alittle nervous tbh - lol so I guess catch it soon because it might get deleted 😅 ugh
@mytwistedsoul- Wow, if this is your playing the piano it is very soothing and impressive. Thank you for sharing.
@barncat Thank you ❤️ it was me - never thought I'd want to play again. Thought maybe I forgot how to. It felt good and bad and right and wrong all at the same time
@mytwistedsoul- you should keep playing. Sounded like an original composition. If so, you are very talented. I understand the feeling of being right and wrong - our internal judge weighs heavy on us.
THank you again for sharing it with us. 🐴❤️🐴 ?🐴
I am going to look at another horse tomorrow - hence the ? in front of #3. !!
@mytwistedsoul
Glad you tried playing again despite the many conflicting thoughts. This is soooo good, and calming, I can sleep to it haha! ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Sun I'm sorry 😞
🍕 🍪 🍕 🍪 🍕 🍪
@mytwistedsoul 😮 Aww nuuu, no apology necessary ❤ It is okay. *shares pizza with you and noms* ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou *hugs* ❤️ you're allways so nice to me
🍕 for the 🍕 and for being so nice and for being you ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Aww *hugs back*
Soul deserves all the niceness always, and it isn't very hard being nice to you, your incredibly amazing and considerate- self makes it far easier to be that way to you also. ❤ (we can take our time to believe it, ofcourse no rush)
🍕 for 🍕 hehe I love it lol. *noms all the pizza* 🥰
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Holy macaroni you nommed all the 🍕?! 😁
Got spare pizzas at the ready 😋
@mytwistedsoul
Hahaha maybeee! xD
Goodness the most tempting gif ever.😭💘 More pizzaaaaaaa!
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou special delivery! 😊
@mytwistedsoul
Oof this gif me got like "watch it bruhh, no tripping or dropping any pizzaa😳" Haha!
Thankyouuu for the special delivery. 🥰 
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Lol! That would be horrible! I don't even want to imagine it tbh 😬 all those poor poor delicious pizzas. It would be a sad day
@mytwistedsoul haha automatically takes me to this one:
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Lol OMG! Face down too! I feel ya kid! I'd be crying about it too
@mytwistedsoul
I know right. Sad is an understatement! 😥
But then I found this too, that was so sweet of a gesture, hopefully is a true update lol! 🥰 (still feeling sad for the pizza that fell though xD)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Aww I'm glad they gave him one to replace it 🙂
But still - a moment of silence for a beautiful fallen pizza 😞
Maybe they gave it to the ratties in the alley to eat lol! 😁
@mytwistedsoul Yes hehe!
*observes a moment of silence too*🤧
Haha yes xD rattieees be like: "why should hoomans have all the pizza? It is our moment to party now." Lol! 😆
How has your week been, Soul?❤
Alsooo how's your ankle doing now?
I love your profile picture hehe! Pizza box must be a comfy place to live inside!😄
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Hey :) Its allways so nice to see you Sun ❤️
It's been alittle bit of a rollercoaster ride tbh but a new week starts soon so maybe this one will be better
The ankle is - frustrating tbh. It's still painful at times and gets stiff
*hug* 🍕 🍪 for checking in with me ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Aw likewise. ❤
Oh noes, ze ankle being lil meanie, needs more time to heal hehe. Do medicines, exercise etc help somewhat to ease the pain?
Be gentle okie.❤
Darn rollercoaster only is fun till it is an actual rollercoaster and not with how we doing (then it's just scary mostly lol). Here with you if you need to talk anytime, or just a hug, or space to *be*, always free to tag or message, whatever you're comfy with, whenever you feel like. ❤ *hugs hugs*
I hope the upcoming week is better for you too.
*shares 🍕🍪 with you*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
Do you have any idea how wonderful you are? Thoughtful and kind ❤️ It's allways nice to see tags from you. I really appreciate you Sun. Every thing you do and say has such warmth to it and to be one of the ones on the receiving end of that warmth - I'm just really grateful ❤️ *big hug*
things have been changing
we don’t act the same
our minds rearranging
but we don’t feel a thing
you can see it in our eyes
crawling under all our skin
there’s a Devil on our shoulder
she’s been trying to come in
she says you might think you know us
but you don’t know our sins
there’s a place where our demons try to hide deep down within
for a long we kept them locked away
but tonight we're setting them free
when I look at myself in the mirror
and I can see a little clearer
the person in the reflection
and I am not the same
you can see him in my likeness
and some times he answers to my name
I don’t think we can hide what we are
not any more
nothing but monsters
like we were before 🐾
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
😊❤️ found this and it made me think of you
@mytwistedsoul Omigosh I love it hehe, perks of having a sunny name lol, I got my own gif for hugs.🥰
Thankieees for thinking of me.❤ *huge sunny hugs backkkk* (you best believe I'll be using this one often now lolll)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Yay! 😊 all the gifs I've found this is the first time I've seen this one - so it's pretty cool to think you'll be able to use it ❤️
@mytwistedsoul I love it hehe!🥰❤
Found this in our unfinished room
@mytwistedsoul Aww sooo smollll.🥰
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou smaller then the cap of a gallon jug! 😯
@mytwistedsoul Omggg yes gets smoller by the picture!😮🥺🥰❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou Not sure what to do with it. Pretty sure it would die if we let it outside.
@mytwistedsoul aww I get the dilemma :( don't like the sound of a cutu smol being dying at all but darn a solid point, it doesn't feel completley right to foster a wild animal, against its natural habitat mhm
How is it doing now?
Is it an option to foster it for some time till gets a bit stronger, healthier and then leave it out to explore the world? ❤
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou There's a few videos on YouTube that show people doing that. They keep them until they're bigger and then release them. One person even has a mouse house set up outside for them. She puts food and water in it while they adjust to the outdoors and start to forage for themselves 🙂 So I think that's what we'll do
The little critter is doing really good. She has a big cage now with tunnels and things to climb to get big and strong. With having the horse and chickens there's plenty of corn and oats for her to eat. Plus fruits and veggies from the garden and she likes rice crispies too lol ❤️
@mytwistedsoul Aww yes, have seen some similar too hehe, really nice how people try their best to be with these lovely beings. ❤ That definitely sounds good, hope the lil baby is liking it there hehe. Rice krispies are yumm yay *sending some krispies for her* 🥰
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou I have alot of respect for the people who do things like that. Save a little mouse or even a goldfish from a pet store. Most people might think it's just a - *fill in the blank*
She's doing really good. 🙂 She doesn't get handled much to keep that wildness to her so she's alittle feisty lol but she's fun to just watch ❤️
She sends 🍪 for the krispies lol
@mytwistedsoul Aww yes they are indeed quite awesome!❤ (and I get that lollll)
That is super nice to know, and aww haha feisty and smol make a cute combo? XD
How sweet hehe *noms cookies* Thankyouu.🥰
🐭@mytwistedsoul- gosh, wish I could post the photo of rats eating birdseed this past winter - on my neighbors deck. Laughed so hard, but she didnt think it was funny. The rat family was SO cute.