In The Gloaming TW *just in case*
With the tragic loss of the feed and after much debate and discussion. It's been decided to create a new thread. Soul space so to speak. A journal of sorts.
A place where I can dump some of the nonsense that goes on in my head.
While replies are welcome - they aren't necessary.
Easter Bunny comes :)
Happy Easter everyone!
@mytwistedsoul
Happy easter to you too Soul <3 also, happy belated birthday! I hope your dreams came true 😊
@emotionalTalker2260 Aww! They're so cute Emo! Thank you! 😊 Thank you for the happy birthday too!
You've been kind of quiet too - I hope you're doing ok - but it's ok to be not ok too ❤️ I think you're awesome no matter what
Can't argue with this little guy ;)
@mytwistedsoul
yeah, I have been quiet 😮 but, I am always thinking of all my wonderful forum buddies (: things are hard for me atm. But they’ll be okay. I also chose that I’m failing my course (on purpose) I hate the fact my parents made me study something they knew I would hate 😀
also, you are awesome as well 😊 love the dinosaur gif <3
@emotionalTalker2260 I'm sorry things are hard right now - I hope you don't mind my saying that I admire your attitude about it. That - it'll be ok :)
Ok so I have to admit I laughed when I read the part about failing the course on purpose - maybe I shouldn't admit that but man - you got spirit! 😁
Sending you good vibes Emo - I hope things get better for you soon
@mytwistedsoul
😀 I mean, I also have the attitude to laugh in a hospital (which I did do last week even though I was under observation XD). But yeah 😀 hehehe. I don’t want to do my course (: *accepts good vibes* *sends cookies* 😮
@mytwistedsoul
I mean, the orderly was laughing along with me, he was such a bright and happy lad (: and I was gonna say “I am a celebrity, get me out of here” as I was leaving, but nah, I didn’t say it ;-; and I will say what I want 😃 idc if I get kicked out if my course. And you’re welcome for the cookies <3 (:
@emotionalTalker2260 It nice having an orderly like that - rather then some sour faced grump. I bet he would have played along with your superstar status lol
@mytwistedsoul
XD hahaha he did. I even got a warm toasty blanket 😊 happy days hahahaha
@mytwistedsoul
Omggg, it’s been so long since I heard that song! It’s really good, and I can totally relate. ❤️❤️
@selflessSpruce1515 Hey Spruce :) How are things in your grove? Welcome back - did you have a nice Easter?
@mytwistedsoul Guess I could have read your thread first lol :p
@mytwistedsoul
Haha, it's okay! No worries xD
@mytwistedsoul
Hey hey, Soul! Things in my grove are a little chaotic, but okay overall. I had an okay Easter, not the best, but it was good to get a little break from doing schoolwork and to focus on my irl for a while. 😊 ❤️
How are things in your world? ❤️
@selflessSpruce1515 I'm glad you got a break from school work for alittle :) gives you a chance to recharge your batteries
I'm sorry to hear its chaotic but glad that it's ok overall ❤
Things in my world are ok - I'm sort of shut down I guess but trying to find my way back. Thank you for asking 🙂
@mytwistedsoul
Aww, I definitely know that kind of feeling, and I hope that you find your way back real soon. I believe in you, Soul, and I'm here for you always 🤗 ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Of course ❤️❤️
Lol the four spinning circles must mean I've put enough memes up
@mytwistedsoul
I send you the best, Soul ❤️ *offers hugs*
😁
@mytwistedsoul
Oh. My. Goshness. I remember this scene 😀😭
@selflessSpruce1515 Obs post on trolls made me think of it 😁
@mytwistedsoul
xD Beautiful, yet so appropriate 😀 #WonderfulMovieNostalgiaCausedByObs
@selflessSpruce1515 😁 I love that hashtag! 🐤
@mytwistedsoul
Omg, an emoji typo 😭 I haven't seen that for a while, and it made my day 😛
@selflessSpruce1515 I'm usually pretty good at catching them before I send them out but the elusive peep snuck through 😋 I'm glad it made your day though ❤
@mytwistedsoul
Omg, that’s so cuteeeeee 😭❤️ Happy Star Wars Day, everybody! 😛😛
@selflessSpruce1515 😊 you got Spike! Love Tom and Jerry! ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Yessssss, there are two members in TCR that are Tom and Jerry 😀😭
❤ @mytwistedsoul ❤
*waves*
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
How are you Sun? ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Oh my gosh, I don't think I'm ever getting over the fact you actually took a note of this ~ this much kindness is beyond measure, only so much a certain Sun's heart can handle lol. ❤
On that note xD *shares pizza with Soul and everyone coming across, and nom nomssss* 🥰
Aw thankyou for caring, Soul, I've been hanging in there hehe, doing alright mostly though, so no worries. 🤗
How have you been? ❤
(I apologize for not being to respond earlier in another thread where you mentioned feeling a bit shaky ~ I'm glad the pizza and cookies made that morning more happier for you and really hope the shakiness wasn't alarming in anyway.)
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou I learned the hard way not to forget certain things 😞 not to use certain words and not to assume anything because people get upset if I forget and then I get yelled at. 😣 Not that you would - but better safe than sorry 😊
Some days I think that's all we can do - just hang in there and wait for whatever storm to pass but it's harder some days that others. I hope you know though - that it's ok for Sun to have bad days too and that we all care about you on the good and the bad days. I mean - I'd rather nobody had bad days
No worries and no need for sorries. There's never any pressure to reply. 🍕 I've gotten used to the shakiness - mostly - some days it's just worse. I really don't like anxiety and inner demons and my brain lol
*big hugs to you Sun* ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Oh noes, being yelled at is no fun and I'm really sorry some people took the hard route while communicating things to you :/ if we try, we can say the same thing in a more gentle and compassionate manner too ~ if only more people understood that and were considerate enough *sigh* and *hugssss soul*
I'm glad you know I' wouldn't (ofcourse) but I understand how the guard goes up and we subconsciously keep applying our past learnings everywhere as much possible. Anything to ensure safety and stability, yes. I feel that. And it is completely okay. ❤
Awww how very sweet, kind, considerate, assuring, comforting, caring and thoughtful of you, Soul, it really means alot to me, many many thanks. It's good to have reminders like these hehe. ❤ (thankyou for understanding, I do like replying though so I may be late, but I'll arrive lol)
Oh dear, I get that :/ it's really awful when our own brain teams up with the demons and goes against us, completely valid to dislike it when things go haywire and anxiety skyrockets making you feel shaky and unsettled.
We all deserve to take a break from our own mind ooof. ❤
*teleports to soul's brain and scares all the demons away* 👻 (if only I could actually do it hehe, know I'd go for it in less than a heartbeat then 🤧)
Biggest *hugs back* soul 🤗❤
This is something that makes me chuckle always due to the relatable factor lol 🥲 :
@mytwistedsoul
Is it funny I'm still not very used to the fact we gotta scroll up if we lose the "reply" button lol 🤡
Aw if only we could do that hehe :')
All things aside lol, I think Soul tries pretty hard even on hard days and that's really commendable. And soul has some of the bestest, most comforting words to offer to others ~ if that's your "faulty" I'm impressed with how great it is. ❤
Faulty is definitely not thoughtful, empathetic, considerate, understanding, kind, compassion, concerned. ❤ but Soul's mind is.
Now the awful thing is how it is easier to be "not-faulty" with other others and go full blown when it's us, and it is okay, given the past experiences and just the usual wiring in our brain, but it certainly helps to be reminded often that we too deserve the love, care, understanding, support, kindness, thoughtfulness and compassion we give out to the world ~ now now that's again something like a *work-in-progress* and I know Soul tries hard, which is all that matters. 🤗
I'm glad it gave you good chuckle though lol and no worries *shooos the messs* :P
*big hugs* @Soul 🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou I'm not used to it either tbh. And I'm still not sure how that really fixes the problem they were having with too many replies *shrugs*
There isn't enough of pizza or cookies in the world that I could give you for the things you wrote here. I think I typed and deleted a dozen different things. I don't think I'll ever find the right words. It is hard to remember that - some times the bad voices inside drown out all the good things and say that we're undeserving of those good things. Reminders do help 😊
You're a beautiful soul Sun and you literally brighten every place you touch here. The world is a better place with you in it ❤️
*big hugs* ❤️ 🍕🍕🍪 🍪
@mytwistedsoul
haha soul I know right, I don't see how this helps either *shrugs too* xD
Awwww you don't need to find the right words hehe, hugs do the magic sometimes and I completely understand. ❤❤❤ big big big *hugs* back
Thankyouuu for the sweetest words, Soul, really means a whole lot to me. 🤧 more *hugs*
*shares pizza and cookies* ❤
Thought we'd share some pictures of the peep squeaks they're about a month and a half old now. So big! Two have names - there is a rooster - his name is Cluck Norris and the leader of the hens is called Hen Solo lol - the others are still being debated
I've also included pictures of something I've been working on - it's called a book nook - it's not finished but when it is it will light up in the windows - It's supposed to be Diagon Alley lol
@mytwistedsoul
Aww, the rooster and hens are soooooooo adorable, omg! ❤️✨
And oooooo, I've heard of book nooks, and I absolutely love that you decided to use Diagon Alley! It seems like it's coming out amazingly, and I'm sure it will look even better when it's finishedddd! ❤️
Thank you for sharing the pictures with us, Soul! 😊❤️❤️ Definitely made my day 😛
@selflessSpruce1515 Hey Spruce! I'm glad you liked them and they made your day :) I had a heck of a time getting them to post tbh - one would get bigger and then bigger and bigger LOL! They were life sized!
I'm glad it made your day ❤️😊
@mytwistedsoul
Oh goshness, that's annoying :') But I'm glad you were eventually able to post them 🤗 ❤️
Gotta love technology, right? xD
@mytwistedsoul
:0 the chickens have grown so much, and what I cool thing, I’ve never heard of a book nook before, but it looks really cool (:
@emotionalTalker2260 Hey you :) you've been in my thoughts
The eggs came today :) they're supposed to be rarer chickens. They're in the incubator now - kind of excited lol
The ones here now could get up to 3 feet tall! Monster chickens! Like chickenzilla lol
I had never heard of them before either - just saw them online and well - Harry Potter ya know? :)
@mytwistedsoul
Hey soul, been thinking of you too 💖 and ohhh nice, more chickenssssss
Been tryna swim with both my hands behind my back, my dear, I always feared the ocean
And somehow this one word in my mouth was left unspoken
And I won't admit my parents split when I got sick but I'll refuse to be a burden
And I said
Is there something keeping me here for the minute, darling?
Did you find the key and what is the meaning of it?
'Cause honey, sometimes I feel this emptiness
Howling out
Is there something keeping me here for the minute, darling?
Did I lose my mind and am I still looking for it?
'Cause I don't know why I feel this emptiness
Howling out
Howling out
You're not alone, the world is small and I am sick of all the talk of finding purpose
Love comes and goes but the big black dog, he trails along, am I the only one who knows him?
Now, and somehow I gained fifteen pounds but lost my focus
And I suffocate things slow until I'm just a black fly circling my bullshit
Oh
Is there something keeping me here for the minute, darling?
Did you find the key and what is the meaning of it?
'Cause honey, sometimes I feel this emptiness
Howling out
Is there something keeping me here for the minute, darling?
Did I lose my mind and am I still looking for it?
I don't know why I feel this emptiness
Howling out
Howling out
Deep blue, deep blue, 05072
Deep blue, deep blue, 05072
Where to begin? Oh, let's pretend we never met so I can disappear a moment
I've been tryna swim with both my hands behind my back, my dear, I always feared the ocean
And I said
Is there something keeping me here for the minute, darling?
Did you find the key, then what is the meaning of this?
'Cause honey, sometimes I feel this emptiness
Howling out
Tell me one thing keeping me here for the minute, honey
But if I leave you now then what's out there waiting for me?
I don't know why I feel this emptiness
Howling out
Howling
