In The Gloaming TW *just in case*

Just random - crap lol

You find what you need but you find it where you least want to look
You said it yourself - you don't need the help - but you're breaking down
You're tearing apart at the seams and darkness is all that you dream
you're waiting for someone but noone can break through this madness

Sometimes it hurts like hell - when you're empty and unwell
When pain is all you know - pain becomes your home

Take my hand and lead the way
Into darkness and nothing
Close your eyes and feel the pain
Breathe me in - ignite the flame
I am the reason you're all alone

Bite your tongue and seal your fate
Never follow - lead the way
Don't believe a word they say
Dance to the fire while the devil plays

Heavy is the heart that wears the crown
Louder is the sound of it crashing down

Tunes - Sam Tinnesz - Far from Home https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8y4Sz8_Oq1M

The Score - Stronger https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cNld-AHw-Wg

Once Monsters - My Name is Adrenaline https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MTZ2JRrUK7Q

Red - The War We Made https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PaHSXOojGgg

Hello

All this venom that you speak, condescending, no pretending
Vandalize the weak, ask for seconds, no repenting
Blood in my eyes so I guess its okay

Burn the bridges, let them smolder
Every sorry sucker looking over their shoulder
For a little intuition and a lazy superstition
Just to help this venom with a little exposure
Theres mud in my veins just to help me get by

So help my lie, lie, lie

Better pick it up quick - better get it now
This severed chain that I can claim
What you could never find - I've found

They're product placed with a double face
They've changed the way they play the game
Theres an oversaturation of a desperate situation
Should we emphasis exposure maybe place a limitation
Maybe its an epidemic, were deserving what were getting
Are we destined for destruction or reconciliation?

Silent Theory - Watch Me Burn https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4kfQ0rfTerg&list=RD4kfQ0rfTerg&start_radio=1

Until I Wake - Self Medicated https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D2RiekK_hP8

Arrays - Too Late https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XZPtwlTSrZg

Kind of foggy today - disconnected - idk - simpliest explanation is I feel like I've gotta a loaner body - like a loaner car. You understand the basics of it - what makes it stop and go - lights - keys - glove box. It just feels foreign. Thoughts are sluggish and I'm forgetting things one moment to the next. Kind of like - oh wow - I wrote that or did that? Somewhere things are getting lost in transport. Maybe - Idk

Might be a good day to be quiet

Spring is here! LOL Well - ok so the calendar says so anyway

Weirdest commercial line up

A message from the CDC saying what to do to help prevent this virus

Next commercial - same channel - for a prayer app *snickers* So um - if the five steps don't work - Pray? Really?

We sacrifice our minds to save our souls

And then sacrifice our souls to find our minds.

Are you any better today? Knowing now what you didn't know then?

I am not so sure....

Ok so - I'm not too focused lol

Coffee was cold. Went to heat it up in the microwave - opened the door - closed it and hit thirty seconds. Stood there and watched it do it's thing - with a cup of cold coffee in my hand

Good times

This should be fun - seat belts everyone

Where shall we start? - lol - blank - thoughts like a freaking hamster wheel a second ago and then silence - shit

I wish - I wish - that I could get my head straight - lol. The TT Railline needs some netting to filter out shit. There's either too much or it's dry. Make up my freaking mind. Sorry - there appears there may be some cussing - kind of don't care. Sentence enhancers -

Anxiety is freaking high. Like a cat in a room full of rocking chairs. My grandmother used to say things like that. They've been in some thoughts recently. Missing - things - them - so sad *sigh*

Isolation - it has it's pull. People seem even scarier now because of this virus. Out with masks and gloves on. Worry about having to cough or sneeze if you're out. Afraid to touch things. Wash your hands - a million times. Alot of distrust on what you can believe

Been losing things from one minute to the next. Could be anything - pencil - pens - coffee cup. Thoughts - my mind. It's like an all day treasure hunt - fun stuff

Don't like call sessions with Doc Z. Had one on Friday and I couldn't tell you a single thing he said. So we're going to do email instead. Easier to understand if the words can be read and re-read. Makes me feel stupid though sometimes

Been forgetting how to do basic things - words for things - tie shoes - zippers - the phone - the shower - lol! Pisses me off sometimes - because i've been doing this stuff for a few years ya know? Not that complicated - just makes me feel stupid

Go through times when I disappear for hours and just sit - then there's moments when - just can't sit still - restless - pacing - skin feels too tight

Idk - blank again

Growth path 666

I'm evil 😈 lol

Too bad.

I'm not ready for peace.