A Space For The Unsaid (Personal Diary)
Uh hello if anyone is reading this! ๐
I have no idea why I'm even creating this thread but i just feel it will be nice to have a place to share some thoughts or even these images on the internet that i always keep saving for myself because i relate too much but cannot share it with anyone because yes haha
I'm okay with replies here so feel free to drop by anytime โค๏ธ
Just please be kind and respectful if your replying to my posts.
Jess me worried ..me hope you ok ๐ hugs you @nonethewiser ๐
@Optimisticempath Hey Opti - I'm sorry but she deleted her account and anything affiliated with it ๐
@mytwistedsoul I.. idk what to say ๐ฅบ I miss her and hope she oki ๐
Thanks for telling me Soul ๐ฅบ๐ *hugs
@Optimisticempath I'm sorry I had to tell you ๐
@mytwistedsoul why sorry ๐ฎ it is sad to hear about it but not knowing was kind of more worrying idk how to explain ๐ I worry about my few friends here (that includes you Soul ๐) I don't have many xD so I have you people in my thoughts very often and you are my safest space... specially you and Jess always have been really supportive and kind to me .... hearing about one of you poof makes me vv sad ๐ idk what I am blabbering at this point but I just want to say that I really appreciate you telling me ๐ฅบ and I really hope she is doing ok and could somehow know that we care for her ๐
@Optimisticempath You sound alittle like me. The friends I have are here. The family I have is here. The people I talk to regularly here - you too of course - you all mean alot to me so you all pop into my thoughts pretty often too โค๏ธ
*hugs* โค๏ธ I hope so too
@mytwistedsoul *hugs tight ๐ค I know you do Soul ... you think of many people and so often... always really heart warming to see you dropping off kindness around โค my only wish is that it comes your way too ๐ค
how was your week? anything nice during the weekend?
@Optimisticempath Hey you :) you pop into my notifications with hugs when I need one most - that is the ultimate kindness โค๏ธ
It's been ok sort of - idk - I don't remember much of it tbh ๐
How is OptiBear? Is brain behaving?
@Optimisticempath
Just cuz โค๏ธ๐
@mytwistedsoul always here at the right time Soul ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ
*huggles tight ๐ค๐คโค
@Optimisticempath โค๏ธโค๏ธ
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*sits with Opti* I see you OptiBear
Sending you lots of hugs and much love โค๏ธโค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul aw an adorable hamster ๐
thankyou Soul *sitting with you* ๐ฅบ you bestest *hugs tight* and sending more love back โค
Soul it's february already D: how you been? I hope you being kind with yourself ๐
@Optimisticempath *still sitting with Opti* โค๏ธIdk lol looking at the hamster now - it looks alittle creepy ๐ฌ
It will be spring before we know it! I'm ready for warm weather. Leaves on the trees and flowers coming up
Idk tbh. I kind of wish I did. One minute things feel ok and then they don't ya know? Mostly I guess I'm just numb - maybe Idk ๐ ๐
*hugs Opti extra tight* Thank you for being your sweet wonderful you โค๏ธโค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul ๐คฃ a creepy-cute hamster then xD
I can relate Soul :') numb feels more explanatory and describes well the not knowing how it really is going ๐
I choose numb over terrible any day ๐ very miserable way to comfort self but whatever works works or we can pretend it does ๐คก
Keep being kind to you tho oki ๐ฅบ *cares about soul* ๐ *hugs tight* ๐ค
Spring time sounds nice...season change feels good ๐ a reminder of hope. ๐ฆ I'll miss the coziness of winters tho xD
how's sleep for you lately? I hope you are getting enough rest ๐
@Optimisticempath
Opti! How are you doing? ๐ฎ
It's been a while.
@ArtemisStormWolf Artee ๐ it is good to see you here
Thankyou for asking, idk how I am doing tho ๐ฎ ok I think or trying to not think much!
how are you? -sending cookiees- ๐ช๐ช
@Optimisticempath
Hey you :) just wanted you to know you were in someone's thoughts today โค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul thanks so much Soul โค you have the sweetest heart ๐ฅบ
@Optimisticempath You're very very welcome OptiBear ๐ โค๏ธ I wish you could see what an amazing person you are. So thoughtful and considerate of everyone. You're one in a million Opti - you really are. Thank you โค๏ธ*hugs*โค๏ธ
@mytwistedsoul you make me cry with your kindness and love Soul ๐ฅบ I hope I can be as receptive to it someday so brain can let the good stuff stay for long :( but I'll read it again and try to remind it often... " not as horrible as you tell me ... see this? someone saying good things about me ๐ฎ" and maybe brain will comply a lil :') ... it really means a lot to me that you care and always so loving and gentle with your words ๐
There's truly no one like you in the universe and I'm not exaggerating a bit, just being honest with you. ๐ you deserve a the kindness and love always also and I want you to know that you're in my thoughts and I'm here for you whenever you need or like, I can sit peacefully with you too if words aren't helpful or make sense much ... they don't sometimes xD and we can always hug tight and try to be more gentle as we let the storm pass ๐
@Optimisticempath I hope one day brain does agree with the good things you hear about yourself. I can help remind you too ๐ I know it's not easy. If you were given alot of criticism and told alot of negative things about yourself growing up it gets embedded inside. We need to rewire and reprogram our brains to see and acknowledge the good things about us. I read somewhere that for every negative thing we hear about ourselves we need to hear five positive thing. But its not quite that easy because there's alot of things that need to be considered - upbringing - who said the negative things - because alot of times it's someone we value or someone that's important to us. I think thats why it hurts more. We have to be patient and gentle with ourselves
Aww Thank you Opti Its probably a good thing that there's not more of me in the universe ๐ Good grief what is it with words not making sense? Or we have all these things we want to say but its like they get locked inside
The same goes for OptiBears too ok? If you need someone to talk with or sit quietly with you - you can allways tag me. You don't even have to say anything else โค๏ธ *hugs* โค๏ธ
Your picture is so cute! ๐
how are you?
Idk. You?
Idk. are you ok?
No. You?
I'm ok
Really?
Nope
Are you ok?
No
Okay. Are you?
No. Is anyone?
Idk
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@Optimisticempath It's ok to be not ok โค๏ธ
It's clickable - just a song *hugs* โค๏ธ
Hope it's ok to leave a song here
@mytwistedsoul ofcourse it's ok to share songs or anything you like Soul, I trust you โค
This ... it made me cry ๐ฅบ I feel heard and validated, thankyou for always having the right thing to say or do, you're the best you know that ok! ๐ฅบ *hugs tightly* โค
It's okay to be not okay,
Breathe in deep, just a day at a time
reminder for Soul also ๐ค
@Optimisticempath *Hugs OptiBear tightly* โค๏ธ Thank you for the reminder too ๐
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๐ How are you OptiBear?