Milestones or Steps Completed! Share and Celebrate Here :)

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You cant control what happens to you in life , if its ugly or nice , to keep your mind sane and not rain.think of the great little things in life that make you happy .then you can try be at peace.

I learned that you can control all things in your world and you can only work for you, treat you well, do the best for you.

I learned that a moratorium on my childhood is necessary. I was abused. Ok. What wasnt I doing then that I can do now? Well, for one, if a relationship now doesnt serve me I can literally walk away. It is only in my mind that I need to stay and keep struggling like a squirrel in a cage. Also, I dont have to be around people who emotionally play games. If they cant validate. Cant own their share of the problem or cant synchronize more harmoniously with me because of bad chemistry then I can leave. I am allowed to leave. If they cant empathize, then I am allowed to leave. If they dont know how to give a compliment but are willing to criticize then Im allowed to leave. I also can defend myself now. If a man hits me I can hit him with a force enough to incapacitate him. If a person belittles me I can walk away or use my language skills to make him small as well. I can use Buddhism as a tool, not the only tool. I can also give compliments and be kind now. Nobody was allowed to feel good in my home growing up. Now I will seek to make others feel good insofar as they arent eating that up while simultaneously putting me down intelligently with well-worded paternalizing statements designed to bolster their place in the -god I hate this word- hierarchy. I can also ask for things and get them now. When I was a child it had to be sneaky. I can ask for sex directly or through body language understand that sex is on the table. Similarly I can reject sex.

Milestone 70. Nothing really to add.

I let go of struggling and suffering. I AM allowing Joy and Thriving.

On step 90.... but I was so busy one day and missed filling my cup and lost my 30 day streak 😭😭😭😭

Step 216 and climbing

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I am slowly learning to be more calm in stressful situations :)

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