hi.

I cant stay long.
i am in no way shape or form back.
i need to explain. i owe you all such an apology.
my mom went through my phone. found my messages with a guy friend. i got very grounded. then she found my messages on here with a friend and freaked out. im not allowed to be on here anymore, shes not here right now.
honestly. leaving cups was the best decision for me. i miss you all every day. there are moments where i just break dwon crying because *** yall you were my family.
so where have i been? lets see.
im 2 months sh free. im offically in a healthy weight. my drs are tryig to fix my foot, i got injections in the bottom of them, and that sucked. getting it again soon. im... a completely different person. im happy. im free. my therapist is amazing. also my hair is a natural color now.
i need to be honest about something. some of you knwo part of the story but none of you really know the full story. this is why leaving cups was a realy really choice for me.
when i was 14, and a newbie here, i was manipulated into being 'friends' with a member, he said he was 17 almost 18, im almost 100% certain he was older. he eventually got my offsite, he told me if i didnt give it to him, he would commit d!e against me. we were in a relationship for 8 months before i left him. he did unspeakable things to me, and well being in the place we met was like a constant trigger for me. im in a way better place now.
2 random updates:
jeffy is still alive, hes well and cute af
my lil man some of u know about? him and his gf broke up but we arent together yet. its complicated.
pls tag people if users change, i wont read replies, i probably wont be on for another like 6 or 7 months. i love yall so much it freaking hurts.
@sneakysnakeboi @darkerplaces @nomifordays @fluffysheep8 @tinywhisper11
uh can someone tag shoot forgot their new name, but adiren TvT please, and astra cause i hate spelling ur user astra u stinky sock

@AvyIsKing
ik u may not read this but i miss you so much avy hope we can talk again through forums when u do come back im proud of you aswell hope when youre back i get to see more jeffy pics if u want to talk that is or if you even remember me

@AvyIsKing best xmas present evvveerrr ❤❤ I'm so glad your ok, I'm sorry for that bad experience🙁 I can't believe jeffy is still with you ❤ he must be the oldest bunny everrr😁 go live your life, I wish you only happiness from here on ❤❤ huggs you tightly ❤

gonna tag you all because maybe you didnt get it:
@sneakysnakeboi @darkerplaces @nomifordays @fluffysheep8 @astraeuss

@Keith22534
thanks for the tag. I had seen this :’). I was able to catch Avy when they were here for a min. Thank you again though for thinking about me.
on that note I’m not a stinky sock 😔😔😔

@Astraeuss
ahh, i see. thats okay then.
i dont consider you a stinky sock either.
<3
@Astraeuss
stinky string

@AvyIsKing
wowwwww rude. i feel unloved

@DarkerPlaces



@AvyIsKing @Keith22534 I hope you're doing well, well... at least doing better.
I'll pray for you, seems like the only thing that can save any of us is a God.
Just wanted you to know that I think you're great, and you haven't stopped being great. That's all.

@Rackson thankyou (:
<3
@Rackson
I cant lie and say the day my mom severely grounded me my friends didnt pick me up and take mw to youth group.
I found god, just mad at him a lil rm
@AvyIsKing Yeah. I'm mad at whoever is upstairs too.


@AvyIsKing

Hey I was able to talk to Avy while they were here for a few minutes earlier. And they wanted me to let yall know that their grandma passed away but they are doing okay.