Official Cupversary: 6 January

happy birthday month to me and @Retr0ne

Hi, I’m an Asian 14 year old girl. With a male username, I know. I have a thing for male usernames though I was assigned female at birth and I like it. I’m cisgender. 

I’m a Kpop Stan (mostly boy groups), BTS ARMY, Swiftie, romance reader (mostly dark), listen to phonk, obsessed with edit audios and anime soundtracks too and well, for now that’s it. I’m a sophomore in high school currently.

I’m just a lonely girl who finds comfort in reading and swooning over fictional men who I’ll never meet. I’m just a no one. If you see me around, just say hi. That would mean a lot. I’m not the best at starting a conversation nor keeping it going so most of the time I just lurk or talk to people I have talked to or well, extroverts. Nobody really does 'Keithhhhhhh' or 'Eshaaaa' when i come in a group chat. its just hi keith or hey keith and that fucking hurts. It makes me feel so unimportant because i just am not able to talk to people. I make really bad typos and omg, this one time, a person was sad in tcr and everyone was trying to cheer them up but my typo made it worse. I feel so guilty about it. Why- 😭 I was laughing in my previous pfp, now i cant stop myself from crying.

To those people who made an impact on my life in little ways that went a long way: praying you come back 

”We are all searching for someone whose inner demons play well with ours.” 

Stan these QTs------ (in honor of the people who were the best to me on cups. i hope they know who they are.)

| ^.=.^ | -fred

༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ- totoro

૮₍˶ •. • ⑅₎ა ♡- velvet

(づᴗѠᴗ)づ -tanochi

ʕ⁠っ⁠•⁠ᴥ⁠•⁠ʔ⁠っ -pinto

(⁠っ⁠.⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠っ- Lily 

💚⊂ʕ•ᴥ•⊂ʔ- bean

ʕ💅👁👄👁 ʔ💅- materialll dinto 

#cryforeverythingandanything

Hall of Fame: 

“Life’s messed up, the table’s nothing.” - Fallon (i miss you so much.)

“Chaos is what this nature is.” - ComMod Alex

“Mature people think what’s wrong, immature people don’t.” - Aishu

“Ok well when i’m older n have money imma buy a Nutella fountain ⛲️ 🍫 n send u millions of videos of it n all the chocolaty Nutella lol n ul just have ur lil jar of Nutella lol 😆” - Rome/Darker

"*takes a blanket and pretends to be a ghost* ooooooooo 👻 I’m going to steal all the cookies~ (and give it back but I don’t need to mention that, it takes the creepiness off)" - Yt 

Crazy nickname club: Nomnorgan, Nimi, ZeithHeith, Tomerome, Comet 

We’ve got our own space!😭

There is nothing…..

"All of me changed like midnight..."

“Part of the adventure is the unknown.” I talked to so many people this year on cups and now they dont know where i truly am. The right side, i guess...

Now you’re here so just read this. Potential TWs.

So, due to some things I haven’t been active here though I know a lot of people. I just feel empty and lonely whenever I enter a group chat because there are new people who came later than me and already are so friendly with other members. More than I’ll ever be. And it hurts. Though, on this account it is that i joined in March 2023 but I’ve been on cups since January 2023. (If you want to know why just ask.) I feel so bad and lonely because I don’t know those things and stuff I missed out on. Ugh- it’s overthinking, maybe but yeah. 

I sometimes wish I had a Xaden like Violet does. I wish I had an Adrian like Lia (the best dark romance couple ever), an Alex like Ava, a Josh like Jules, a Rhys like Bridget, a Christian like Stella, an Aaron like Juliette, Roma like another Juliette, Aiden like Elsa, Xander like Kimberly, a Jeremy just like Cecily, a Levi like Astrid, a Ronan like Teal, Cole like Silver, a Tristan like Morana, Dante like Amara and another Dante like Vivian, a Kai like Isabella, an Eli like Ava, a Gojo like Geto (I kinda ship Satsugo…), a Chuuya like Dazai, a Christian like Gianna, an Angelo like Rory’s, Michael like Rika’s, Damon like Winter, Kai like Banks, Will like Emery and a Nikolai like Brandon, Angelo like Rory, Misha like Rye, a Landon like Mia…

Those who read the whole paragraph above, I love you. I seriously love you

There’s nothing below.

Atleast I think so.

“When I wake up, I'm afraid.

Somebody else might take my place

When I wake up, I'm afraid

When I wake up, I'm afraid

Somebody else might take my place