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Astraeuss
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PathStep 21 Compassion hearts6,022 Forum posts293 Forum upvotes505 Current upvotes505 Age GroupTeen Last activeDecember, 2024 Member sinceNovember 3, 2022
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i am a forest fire.  

and i am the fire 

and i am the forest 

and i am the witness watching it 

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“Maybe not in one piece, maybe forever changed, but alive and worthy of love all the same”


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“I hope the scalpel is kind to you. I hope your sutures heal clean. You deserve that much; we all do”


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“How can I curse a god I don’t believe in? Where should all this rage go?”

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“That guy is just a child who’s too smart. Just a crying child who’s been left alone in the darkness, a world of nothingness far emptier than the world we can see”


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“And when all the trees burn to the ground. You look out at the hills and see only tall, magnificent trees. And you know that those trees went to hell”


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“Your future needs you. Not your past”

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“Even if you make mistakes you are still a good person who deserves love”


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“The thing about truth is, it can be denied not avoided”


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“I love you should never should never be so terrifying”


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“I think I may just be a raging sea trapped in a single raindrop, but if I sit in the rain, perhaps I can drown in something besides my own ever-growing thoughts.”


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“you are not your parents,

you are you.

think like you.”

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“You’ll get judged either way, so you might as well pick the fun option”

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“In the end, even the stars choose destruction over life”

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Surviving is its own achievement every day. Im sorry to everyone who cares about me.

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“We drink the poison our mind pours for us; Yet we wonder why we feel so fucking sick”

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“if you want to die do it naked”

 “If naked embarrasses you, If you're still bothered by what other people will think of you, then you can't die just yet."

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“My biggest fear is that eventually you will see me the way I see myself”

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shout out to Alex for winning the astra points for the month of December! ʕ•  • ʔʕ•  • ʔʕ•  • ʔ

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Hall of shame:

“he can cry” -alex

“peppa pig is god“ - Avy









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Someone to talk to (maybe a listener?
Disability Support / by Astraeuss
Last post
October 30th
...See more (Sorry if this comes across snippy this is my third time writing this to site keeps re setting) im 16 and have been dealing with likely POTS and EDS. I say likely because it’s impossible to get a proper diagnose when my parents refuse to take any of my doctors referrals or recommendations. Although I’m pretty sure my doctors diagnosed me with some sort of postural blood pressure thing and  hypermoblity but I digress. Things have gotten so hard. The pain keeps getting worse my hr keeps getting bigger and I’m able to walk and do less and less just making the pain worse. I struggle in school and my grades have dropped. I can’t get through a day. A 504 was meant to be sent in but it’s been 3 months and I don’t even know what’s on it. My dad has told me a few things but won’t show me. One thing being he took off putting my feet up because he “didn’t want me to cause issues for my teachers and be a problem”. So I don’t even know if it will help me at this point. I do have an amazing group of people surrounding me outside of parental figures but on one hand I don’t want to burden my friends more then I already do, and on the other just what someone to relate to. I’m worried about my future about jobs and aspirations. And I guess I just want someone who gets it I suppose.  Thanks for reading my rant if you’ve gotten this far it means the world 💜
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What’s a cardiologist appointment going to entail
Disability Support / by Astraeuss
Last post
April 6th
...See more Hi, I’m not sure what to put this under. Next week I’m finally going to a pediatric cardiologist for the first time. I’ve only really seen my family doctor up until now, and she’s the sweetest but I really don’t have experience with any other doctors.  My family doctor thinks I have POTS and wants me to look into that. I’m not sure if that’s been communicated to the Cardio yet or not, and I’m not really sure how to bring it up? Or what else might be important to bring up? I am taking salt pills now and they’re helping so I know I should bring that up but I don’t know if anything else should be brought up as well? Besides my symptoms, like my diet or stuff like that? I’m also wondering if they’ll want to take my blood again, or if the ones from 6 months ago would be fine? I have a massive fear of needles. So yeah that’s fun. Would they need to schedule a different appointment to test for POTS or send me else wear? I’m not really sure how getting diagnosed works at all. I guess I’m just scared and have more questions then answers. thank You if you answered any of this it means the world 💜
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Astra’s art corner
Arts & Crafts / by Astraeuss
Last post
July 27th, 2023
...See more Hiya! I’m making this from arts stuff, so uh yeah ✨
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Bears 2.0 Because adulting
Positivity & Gratitude / by Astraeuss
Last post
July 9th, 2023
...See more Hi 🫡 I would just like to say you will never escape us 😈 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸 🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸🧸
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Mack quotes
Positivity & Gratitude / by Astraeuss
Last post
August 3rd, 2023
...See more As many of us know our friend mack is aging up at the end of Tomorrow. Throughout teen side we have had so much fun and interesting stories to share, that will always stay in our memories. Although one thing we don’t have to remember is the quotes they have given us, as many of us have them tucked away forever. So as of now, here is our official place to share 💜 @Mack (please tag other people I am lazy) “im fat, strangers expect me to take their candy” - mack “kay and lou support fat kid mack taking a strangers candy and being kidnapped ✨” - mack “i’ll take myself out before going in your van axtyn 😭”-mack “dead parents club members pls heart this i need a deadcount- i mean headcount 😭” - mack “i feel like >_> is the equivalent of the “mom look” 😭” - mack “professional mack can move mountains 😎” - mack “do you just lurk and wait for things to quote me on? 😭” - mack “up: getting off work downs: waking up again, going to work, being at work, life” - mack “the dead parents club 😭 do we need another deadcount? 😭” - mack “i just threw my *** sock in the litter box” - mack “i’ve saved my sock from the cat pee future it could have had 😀” - mack “if you’re happy and you know it clap your hands! cries” - mack “except i’m half glad my dad is dead 😃” - mack “all in favor of communitymodmack heart this message“ - mack (7 likes) “i don’t need cat pee on my sock 😭” - mack “aaron i almost poked my eye out today with a mop handle :’)” - mack “not the one on astras head- a different mop” - mack “i got a black eye once because i layed in front of a hockey goal and my friend smacked the puck to see if they could get it in the little open space and it hit me right in the eye” - mack “ the one where she tried to tell me i needed to eat and i said “why? half a leg and not eating sounds like a good weight loss plan to me” which caused her to call psych? 😭” - mack “im spicy ✨” - mack “the world forgot the sugar and everything nice when creating me and made it all spice” - mack “they needa lock me in a pillow room with a hug jacket atp to keep me safe 😭” - mack “no astra bc i accidentally went off abt something to the wrong person in pms yesterday 😭; they saw a side of me they’ve never seen before 😭” - mack “i laugh reading the *** i say god damn i’m funny 😭” - mack “my intrusive thoughts tryna get me banned lmfaoooo“ - mack “whatcha gonna do alexela? huh? hit me? may as well start calling you dad if you do that” - mack “trump, trauma, what’s the difference 😭” - mack “make it comfy for her, when you’re ready to come out we will support you axtyn ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜” - mack “i could say pineapple and get like 5 hearts” (6 hearts) -mack “does vaping count as eating?” - mack “yoshi is smarter than me” - mack “sometimes i think i’m a tad bit too mentally ill for this site 😭“ - mack “You’re just tryna get me banned now” - mack “i didn’t even have a shirt on bc i was using my shirt as a pillow 😭” - Mack “ 🦆🧊🐘” - mack “my first mistake was being the fastest swimmer; only time i’ll ever come in first place 😭” - mack “i concern me; and anyone who isn’t concerned about me concerns me” - mack “that’s what the priest said when he baptized me but i’ve been far from blessed so far” - mack “ i met my ex in the mental hospital ✨” - mack “astra i turned sh into a number line for you” - mack
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Site update
Group Support / by Astraeuss
Last post
May 19th, 2023
...See more Hello! I want to start by saying I think the site looks cool now, I really like the more smooth style, however I think group chats are /extremely/ hard to get to. I know personally I don’t often use my path, as well as many of my friends, so I don’t fully understand why that might be at the top yet not group chats. As well I am yet to figure out how to search for listeners or put in a general listener request. I think what I liked a lot about the old design is everything was very straight forward and one or 2 clicks away, I think I would really like if searching for listeners was right on top as well as the group chats as said. Thank you for listening to my little rant ✨ and I don’t really know who to tag so uhhh @Heather225 and maybe @Gleen Thank you for stopping by ✨
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