hi.

I cant stay long. 

i am in no way shape or form back. 

i need to explain. i owe you all such an apology. 

my mom went through my phone. found my messages with a guy friend. i got very grounded. then she found my messages on here with a friend and freaked out. im not allowed to be on here anymore, shes not here right now. 

honestly. leaving cups was the best decision for me. i miss you all every day. there are moments where i just break dwon crying because *** yall you were my family. 

so where have i been? lets see. 

im 2 months sh free. im offically in a healthy weight. my drs are tryig to fix my foot, i got injections in the bottom of them, and that sucked. getting it again soon. im... a completely different person. im happy. im free. my therapist is amazing. also my hair is a natural color now. 

i need to be honest about something. some of you knwo part of the story but none of you really know the full story. this is why leaving cups was a realy really choice for me. 

when i was 14, and a newbie here, i was manipulated into being 'friends' with a member, he said he was 17 almost 18, im almost 100% certain he was older. he eventually got my offsite, he told me if i didnt give it to him, he would commit d!e against me. we were in a relationship for 8 months before i left him. he did unspeakable things to me, and well being in the place we met was like a constant trigger for me. im in a way better place now. 

2 random updates:

jeffy is still alive, hes well and cute af

my lil man some of u know about? him and his gf broke up but we arent together yet. its complicated. 

pls tag people if users change, i wont read replies, i probably wont be on for another like 6 or 7 months. i love yall so much it freaking hurts. 

@sneakysnakeboi @darkerplaces @nomifordays @fluffysheep8 @tinywhisper11 

uh can someone tag shoot forgot their new name, but adiren TvT please, and astra cause i hate spelling ur user astra u stinky sock