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time to leave cups??
General Support / by kylersartpace
Last post
 November 23rd
...See more idk y im even bothering writing this...no1 would really care...but im thinking of leaving...i have no use here anymore...i used to have friends...when i was on teen side...and now its been over a year since ive aged up..and i have no1...college has been too much for me and i feel like dropping out...even though ive been thinking of going on to study further...but ik that wont happen...but i have no1 here to support me with trynna get all these assignments done and all...if i join rooms no one even notices me even if i talk im just ignored...so whats the point...cups used to give me a safe place where i could escape my life...or even get support with it...but now...i really dk what cups is to me...i want my friends back....but cant get them back...i want things to change...i dont want to feel alone on here anymore...but i do...constantly...so whats the point in me staying...in all honesty...people say oh get atl and you can be back with your friends...well...its not that simple for me...i cant do the requirements needed to try get atl...so im just sat here waiting for them to age up..but by the time they do...will they even remember me...probably not...ive tried making friends...it dont work...ive been using cups so much less every day at this point...so honestly if i leave...no1 would even realise im gone...so yeah...whats the point in me staying here...no1 needs me on cups...
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Kylers artsy corner
Arts & Crafts / by kylersartpace
Last post
 July 13th
...See more hey so this is gonna be my little space for all my art projects i do was told to make 1 for my drawings so yeah here it is my art isnt the best i know that so feel free to help me out and tell me how i could improve on things
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Trapped and lost
General Support / by kylersartpace
Last post
 May 27th
...See more TW in advance for sh sa ed and bullying sorry in advance its so long....you dont have to read it... im trapped...im stuck...i really dont know what to do anymore...im on cups for support i havent really even gotten that since i came to adult side...im terrified to join rooms at this point unless i see some1 ik there because im scared ill just be bullied like usual....i dont have any listener i really trust at this point apart from 1....cups used to be a safe place for me....key word used....when i was on teen side i enjoyed coming onto cups to see my friends each day....i felt safe....and i felt heard....but now on adult side...i got nothing...even any of my past friends from teen side that have aged up dont even really talk to me anymore....even my friends who are still on teen side who said would keep in contact dont even talk to me....whats even the point me being on cups anymore....im alone constantly.... i graduated school on the 21st....i thought i was happy about it...but im not...im scared...im going to college next year...i had gotten my acceptance letter...but im terrified as much as i hate to admit it...im terrified for it...going to a place...where i know no1 in the class....and will probably just end up alone all over again...i dont know what to do...i have so much trauma related to school...from all the bullying ive had...recently we were playing a game in 1 of my classes before we graduated and my class said they would want to lock me up...without any reason....ive also had teachers picking on me and stuff....i had a practical cooking exam recently for my final grade...and well it didnt go well...i burnt 2 out of the 3 dishes i had to make because i had rushed out of panic of not getting them done...i have written exams coming up aswell...and i really struggle with studying so i dont know what to do....i know they wont go well.... ive relapsed recently and it really wasnt good...i was 3 weeks clean and then everything got to much...family aint been the best and well everything just got too much...and i had lost a really good friend of mine...im tired of leaving people...i just wanna know who are true friends and wont leave me...i dont know who to trust anymore....people i used to trust...well i dont fully trust anymore...and that keeps hurting them when i dont mean to hurt them.... the flashbacks recently have been really bad...i keep remembering the time i was 15 and was sa online....along with all the stuff i had to deal with last year...with people adding me specifically to be mean to me and everything...i dont know how to stop them...they keep getting so bad that i regress a lot more now...but i dont even have a safe place to regress really...its just...its all too much and i hate it.... my ed has been playing up aswell...i tried to get better with it then well it went downhill again and when i tried to get better with it again...it lead to me being up most of the night really nauscious from eating....i dont know how to get better...i keep getting shouted at for not eating...and i hate it...i get in trouble for everything but the thing that hurts the most is for eating....i also get in trouble for wanting my safe foods a lot...its too much for me to not eat my safe foods and im trapped.... i dont know what to do anymore with anything...and im sorry if you read all of that...im not bothering tagging anyone because tbh i dont think anyone would really care...so yeah....i guess ive said enough...sorry again if you read all that....
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space for noah and kyler
Pen Pals / by kylersartpace
Last post
 May 30th
...See more hey @NoahAnimates thought u might like this area for just us 2...if not im sorry we can just forget it exists to everyone else....please dont react read or reply to any of the messages on this thread thanks
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happy birthday zareia
General Support / by kylersartpace
Last post
 March 15th
...See more hey all reading this today is someone really specials birthday @FaithfulZareia happy birthday to the most amazing atl and listener and overall bestest friend ever. youve dealth with me a lot and yeah weve had some bad times but youre still with me and i thank you for that. if i had remembered sooner i wouldve tried to make you a present and sent it along with this but im stupid and forgot so i owe you a drawing. for those who dont know zareia she is the most amazing listener and friend ever and is always there to bring a smile to my face and shes the reason im still on cups now with that being said i invite you all in joining me in the replys to wish zareia a happy birthday with me because she deserves it. happppyyyy biiirrtttthhhhhhhddddddaaaayyyyyyyyyyy wooooooo hope you have an amazing one zar because you are amazing and you deserve it
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kylers hidey hangout for adult friends
Pen Pals / by kylersartpace
Last post
 March 11th
...See more hey...not sure who else would want to be tagged and if ye dont want to be tagged feel free to just ignore this are ye dont have to use it i just thought you three might like a way to keep in contact with me... @SleepyShyCat @LexiiKardashian30 @nessapressure03 to others not tagged in this post - please dont read or react or comment to any posts on this thread
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A space for Kyler and Lagoon
Pen Pals / by kylersartpace
Last post
 February 24th
...See more Hey @TheLagoonSystem not sure who will see this but one of the alters said i should make this for us... Note to others seeing this - Please do not read or reply or react to anything said in this forum post! Thank you
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Whats the point...
General Support / by kylersartpace
Last post
 February 25th
...See more Im not going to tag anyone because i know no one will care...but if someone sees this please tell me whats the point me being on cups...like really...i have no one....no one ever reaches out to check on me to see if im ok...i keep being picked on in the rooms for being myself and i cant take it anymore....ever since i came to adult side of cups its been really bad for me...ive lost pretty much all my friends i made on teen side...i dont know what to do anymore...i honestly dont even know what friends are anymore because like people say they will stay and talk to me but they never do stay they always just walk out of my life.....ive nearly started to lock myself away and not open up to anyone at this point because i feel like i would just get judged or picked on for not being ok or something....i dont know what to do anymore....so really whats the point me being on cups....
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