I wish I could tell everybody that...

That I smoke weed

I am broken inside, and i suffer depression daily.

I'm lying to everyone, I'm not always happy and calm about everything. I am emotionally unstable and cry on a daily basis, not having anyone to open up to.

I feel like a fraud.

I'm insecure and fragile

My parents are hurting me emotionally yet they don't know it.

That I feel like I'm loosing pieces of myself every day. That some days I wonder how sane I still am. That every day I feel like I'm stepping closer and closer to the edge of insanity and I'm not sure if one day while on that edge my footing will slip and I'll fall down a crack I'll never recover from.

That I'm tired if everyone depending on me to be the strong one. It's slowly killing me. Since while I'm there for everyone else it feels like no one is there for me

That part of me inside is so broken from growing up with such a controlling sister and family enabling her. That I'm scared to so much as disagree with someone. That I've encountered it at such a young age I can't be different or go back to who I was before it because there is nothing before it.

That the abuse I suffered in multiple relationships has left it hard for me to trust and that I distance myself as a defense mechanism.

That while I'm not actively hurting myself right now. I crave relapsing so badly and that leaving me alone is probably a bad idea.

That while I'm not actively trying to kill myself, I won't go out of my way to save myself if I get into a bad situation. That I would likely encourage it.

Honestly just that I can't help who I am, and that I can't take it.

I am not as strong as I look like. And that I crave love and affection too. I am very emotional and cry over little things.

that im A Terrible Person and i should be Avoided™

That I don't know who I am or what I want.