Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel a little better. but i still want to go home. got a hug from a friend today, doesn't last long but i like his touch. i feel weird about a person not speaking to me...but his argument about fear...i took offense
Not coping to well with the anti depressants.
Just feel like crying most of the time.
Plus I've just found out my son is being evicted yet again, and he's totally ignoring me.
Not feeling good. Don't feel as if I've got any fight left in me, or strength.
@Dailycoffee I'm so sorry. Seeing that someone is struggling so much yet refusing help is very tough to deal with. I know things like that may be little consolation, but sometimes it helps to hear something like that. So, it's going to be okay. In the end, things will be happy, and if things aren't happy, it isn't the end. So keep on pushing, it doesn't have to consume your life, but try instead to make a few small efforts every day, to better your life. I am 100% sure that you can do this <3
That should say without anti depressants. Not with!
I honestly don't know how I haven't cracked yet. I have like no control of my thoughts anymore. I pay more attention to what I've been thinking and hearing that I haven't spoken in a while. Whenever I do speak, it's a surprise because I forgot what it sounds like. Everything in my life is no longer in my control and I get anxious every. single. day.
It's just a struggle having to lose hours of sleep because there's always multiple things I'm either scared of or constantly thinking about. Obsessed about. I'm so done with this.
I felt pretty alone earlier. But now idk what it is... But I'm enjoying a nice conversation with a friend of mine. My head hurts a bit but not as bad as earlier..I feel like I'm important when I talk to him. He's like one of my best friends..he literally scolds like a dad..I know he cares and I can be my 4 year old self with him. So now...I feel A LOT better!!
I was feeling pretty good, got plenty of compliments on my lovely outfit. one of my friends that i relate more closely too is still out of town, they should be back tomorrow. Lunch was empty without them there. Two people i strongly dislike have been coming outside with our whole table to eat. It makes me so uncomfortable. I don't mean this in like a super mean way, but they literally have no other friends. i don't feel bad for them though. They treated me like garbage..so i have no sympathy. Just everything about them makes me uncomfortable, i cant stand being around them..i almost left lunch early so i wouldn't have to be around them. I don't really know what stopped me today, but we still have 4 weeks until winter break. and about a week until thanksgiving break. so i get more time to get myself together. get used to being alone, entertaining myself and such. Hopefully by the time 2016 rolls around I'll be a lot better at managing my emotions and reactions to things
Just hopeless
I thought I was doing better. But not I just feel hopeless. Graduation is 3 semesters away..I have no motivation. I haven't been too elated about anything. If I could see my close friend again..on a regular basis and we just hang it'd be a lot better..but it wouldn't be the same cause he's in a relationship now..so I automatically back off. 3 people came back into my life..one of which I let back in. But I have figured its not healthy for me to have them in my life...but I feel incomplete without them..I know they say they want to make me happy..but I honestly think they don't see me as a person.. Least not anymore. I've been fooled before and was completely blind until someone else told me what was going on...i think I'm becoming more aware of people intentions with me. One guy will randomly text me and tell me about this problem he has..then goes to basically ignore my problems..so when he does ask what's wrong I know he just wants me to shut up. He says he understands what I've been through over the past 6 years..i asked him how..and never got a response. Another guy kept asking me for little things. I declined. He asked me what was wrong and I refused to tell him cause he was the problem at that moment. The last guy just wants to be my friend again. Just to put the past behind us and go back to the way things were..but clearly I'm not ready for any of that as I've expressed the them plenty...they just don't care.
Sending love to everyone here.
I see so many people struggling so much and it's sad. It really is. I know that it seems extremely hard, and guess what? It probably is. But, get the help you need. Confide in someone you trust. Tell someone that you know will help you. I know this seems like the end, but only a bad author would end a story with a main character dying so soon in their life.
I know you may think I'm lying, and that's okay, but it does get better. No matter how long it takes.
Considering it was a busy day and I can't sleep at the moment I actually feel pretty okay.
and had a eventful day I'm satisfied (:
