Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I see the world and all I see is anger and hate everywhere I go. I feel lost and alone. I see no light at the end of the tunnel... no hope in tomorrow.
I wish I would drift into a deep dreamless sleep and never wake. I feel worthless and I am hammered down every day to the extent I half believe it. I have cried on the inside until there were no tears left to shed.
I give hope to many... I laugh and joke to the outside world... the foolish clown's mask I wear hides my tears.
I'm dying inside and I beg for help over and over. But no one cares. No one is there. I'm alone. No one is coming to save me.
I feel like a pile of garbage.
I had gotten notified that the guy I dated for about a week had followed me on twitter again...but when I checked just a few minutes ago....he was no longer following me..its a small thing..but that's the first thing I've gotten from him in a month..I honestly feel he never wanted me..and that he's never going to speak to me again. I am confused as to why people do that... Come into your life saying all these nice things..confess feelings.. But then just leave..how do they expect me to get over it if I don't get closure?? I can't not have flashbacks of a childish moment for me in the fifth grade..I mean yes I was only about 10..but it was overly childish and twisted on his end
*sigh* there's just too much I wanna know about the people who hurt me in my life and I feel I'll never get the answers..
I'm honestly not sure how I feel. I've been up and down like a yo-yo, I swear I'm getting whiplash. A lot has happened recently yes, but I'm over reacting really easy and I've been ridiculously suicidal. Right now I'm okay on that front, but I just feel completely and utterly numb.
I'm in a bad mood because money
Had a thought to kill myself today but I got really scared and started panicking. Talked with suicide prevention but I'm a little confused about depression and suicidal thoughts. I don't have them often and this is the first time I panicked because of it. Can someone help me understand this?
I get very upset with his thoughts to the point that i cannot function..i cannot eat..cannot go to work. I just dont feel like getting out of bed fearing tht aa soon a i wake up i would be thrased down by his thoughts..i dont know what to do to feel better
i feel really... lonely. and i feel very ugly and i wish i could be skinnier. i regret not playing sports more or getting contacts earlier. i just regret a lot of stuff... and i really want someone to be there for me bc my best friend isn't really my friend anymore. all she does is text guys and hang out with "populars" i wish guys would like me but i don't think i'm pretty enough, athletic enough, or cool enough :(((
@categoricalx It can be hard for us when we place our self worth in other people. The hardest lesson to learn is that happiness comes from within our own hearts. You may feel like you're not satisfied with your body, when really it's the most beautiful gift. Think about it. Where have you gone in your life so far? What beautiful things have you seen? Your body carried you there, and will carry you through this. Being "popular" isn't important, the kind of friends you have is. I know it hurts when your best friend isn't there for you, but all of us here are!
@categoricalx Don't worry I'm experiencing this too all I do is ignore them and pretend they are crazy people
@categoricalx Everyone deserves a best friend. As cheesy as it seems, its true. I know I am a face behind a screen but I do understand where you are coming from. Don't live your life full of regrets, because I surely think you should live filled with achievements and memories. These days, it's very hard to find a friend and personally, I can't do anything about it. But you can. 
Find a group of friends at school, see if you fit in. Do this now, so you won't regret it. And friends who stick with populars, they're just some sort of wannabe's.
All the best!
I think dying would work right now. That's better than having to put up with everyone in this house. I hate my family. They hate me too. I just want to die.
I'm so sorry that you have such a tough situation in your house, lovely @ScreamingForSanity. If you want to talk about it more, we are here for you. I hope today was a bit kinder to you.
Sending you loads of hugs!
I am incredibly confused.
A guy I had a crush on in the second grade showed up to our college prep class today..and it caught me off guard.. He left me with so many questions...I just need answers and I can't get them until I see him again..*sigh*
Bummed, but persevering. No suicidal urges today. Whenever I get them, I usually cope with them by just doing something else.
@NavyBlueFlower, I agree, distractions are great way to shift your focus from thoughts of self-harm. I'm glad to hear that you felt better yesterday and strongly hope that today, and the whole upcoming week, will be kinder to you. You deserve peace, you were strong for so long.
Sending you all my strength!