Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I want to run away.

I am sorry. Sorry for not answering my texts. Sorry for not being good enough. Sorry for not telling you whats wrong. Sorry that your dating an ugly bipolar bitch. Sorry I'm breathing.

Hopeless, guilty, worthless, extremely anxious, depressed, and scared.

Pain.

school is making everything worse for me i honestly cant wait until its over and i dont have to worry about a thing

I finished my hw and jus consumed couple grams of opioids. Feelin. Dazed .....

I want to run away from everything that I know. Family, friends ect.

I feel like I'm slowly rotting on the inside. It feels like no one loves or even cares about me anymore. I feel like I'm about to collapse

I could say I once felt empty. But the truth is I didn't feel at all. I was numb, surrounded by many but I looked around and saw no one. I wasn't tired, but I slept. Perhaps to forget? Perhaps to remember? Who knows .. I look back on that time and try to remember, but the truth is I'm only tied back to that girls thoughts through reading them when she wrote it down, or hearing that song she played over and over again.

I don't even want to feel better at this point.