Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I feel scared, lonley. I don't know why. I have a boyfrind and a mother who loves me. My brother have ADD. My father is an alcoholic. I live with my brother, my mother and her boyfriend. I wish I had a better life.. Because I'll be smaller and I puke after I have eaten to lose weight. I'm 16 years old and I weight 50kg and I'm 1,67m. But I think I'm still fat. I want a body that I can be proud of. I'm also smoke, because if I don't smoke, I cut myself. I tried to stop smoking, but I could not control myself..
Cut my wrist 6 times today
You are stronger than that! I'll be here for you. Write to me, if you want to talk ❤️
you do matter! God loves you!
I feel lonely, completely disconnected from the people around me. I moved to another country 6 months ago and since then I cannot have any connection with the people that I live everyday with. I feel they are very different from me and most of the time I am not interested in improving relations. Not that I am alone all the time, I go out, travel with other people, but still feel lonely. I do not think the problem is the other people, I've always been a person who takes a lot of time to trust other people. But it's been already six months I am here and I cannot get interested in anyone, whether friendship or any other kind of relationship.
I felt horrible this morning, but ended up feeling tons better after practicing my band music with a group of friends. Later on today,it's like I'm just a piece of trash to everyone. Always have someone talking about me behind my back, no respect for me, so much stress, sadness. I'm just tired. Nothing seems worth it anymore. Too bad I'm not going to do anythingabout it. Ugh, I hate everything right now! 
I feel so fat right now. I feel like I need to workout more even though I can hardly walk down the stairs. I am with my step mom right now and she keeps making me eat! I tell her I am full but she says to eat anyway if I want to go to crossfit. It hurts to eat and workout but I can't stop because then I feel like I weigh 50 thousand pounds. Is something wrong with me? I weigh 115 right now and hate it.
there's nothing wrong with you darling
. u know , u are a beautiful creation that god has created ever. don't feel down by it and try to get up okay ? talk to me if u have any worries
Today i woke up crying which hasnt happened in years i have various coping methods that i learned when i was a teen....but today it just hit me all at once ....like all my failures thses past 2 years came rushing back along with painful memories.......i felt like i just didnt measure up to what wverybody wanted or wasnt good enough...im usually the one all my friends go to because generally im a strong person but today i really just needed someone and i got the cold shoulder and realized that i was alone
Hi @kindCucumber6875
It happens like that sometimes, doesn't it? Things build in the background and then you have a release. Don't get too despondent about your friends. I've been much the same as you for the last several years (balanced and the ear for everyone) and when I've had meltdowns then people haven't known how to cope with it. I guess it's because it's so out of the blue. Perhaps the same applies to you also, I don't know?
In my situation, what I learned about myself was that I needed to open up more about the little things that bugged me rather than hiding them. That allowed others to understand me a little bit better, share the goods times and the bad times with me, and prevent the big meltdowns that came every year or so.
While none of this may apply to you, it's just an example of why you shouldn't be too despondent when your friends weren't there on this one occasion. It may be as simple as them being so surprised that you were upset that they weren't quite sure how to handle it when you weren't Super-Duper-kindCucumber6875. Keep that in mind because dwelling on that sort of thing in a negative fashion can really pull you down.
Not great family tries helping then fails miserably making me feel worse than before its a never ending cycle I'm glad they try but they need to also leave me be and take me to a doctor it shouldn't be that hard
Repentance
I feel lonely, sad, and I feel like no one cares. It sucks ):
@philosophicaleyes1536 You are not alone, we care. I promise
Had a really bad night, with a so called friend